it's Labor Day but does anybody care anymore?

fuck type! seriously! i don't know why! i cant burn any dvd-rs but i could burn cd-rs... ??? yammie! help!?

Was down with fever the other night. Doing laundries halfway but got yammie's helped to clear it up as I was flat right away. Woke up earli morn with a terrible headache and feeling cold. Turned off the fan and went back to sleep for more rest. Went off to work after that and I felt really weak. I was sitting in the instrument measurement lab with the shawl wrapping around me, de radio playing, my body aching, my head heavy and my body heating up. I need to sweat myself out!
Met baby for dinner after work and Causeway Point was really crowded and stuffy. Went to Al-Ameen for dinner where we had more talk on politic. bLaH! ....why de hell they need pollings anyway? The government's been the same since the day I was born. I'm living in a world-class democratic country, ain't I?
Went back Causeway Point for some things and oh boy! it was really stuffy in there and I really sweating myself out! muahahaha!!!!

Some stupid guys blowed kisses at me which was really disgusting. I was in a hurry to go back home as I really need to pee. Reaching home was a bless and paid dad's money... bLueKz.... aunt didn't manage to transfer money to me as something went wrong and I can't dye my hair now cuz, I'm sick, I'm tired and I need a rest. But yammie's not home right now and now I've got the chance to stay up on pc all night but I can't seem to do it.

Goodness gracious me!

Maybe going back down work for awhile to pick up my uniform. Need washing, you know. Forgot to take it back as I didnt go to my locker everytime I go back for overtime.

What should I do now? Happily reading my book and listening to my mp3, mom come out watch tv puLak. wth!
right nw, im feeling my head kinda heavy and im feeling kinda stuffy. But i don't want to sleep. I don't feel like sleeping.

I want to be with you

seriously, oKay, Kelly clarkson's Walk Away is nice but after hearing her album since long time ago back, I still love her track, Gone. Yesh! It is the song which really calms me down. yes yes...

Year 2006 Romance

Provided by Astrology.com

Taurus

You've been stricken by wanderlust, and during the first few months of the year, you'll be happiest if you feed your hunger for new scenery and best of all, new experiences. Whether you're exchanging sympathetic looks with a Sherpa in the Himalayas or comparing iridescent seashells with a child in Fiji, you'll discover things about yourself that you had never considered before. But perhaps best of all, you'll unearth new dimensions in your friendships or your relationship with a special someone.

If you have to leave a loved one behind on your travel adventures, your thoughts will turn repeatedly to the small gestures that make your relationship different from any other you've ever had before. You'll realize you truly miss the way your sweetie refolds the newspaper to put your favorite section or puzzle on top, or the way a quick squeeze of your hand can communicate exactly what you're both thinking. Write long letters on hotel stationery or stretched out over multiple postcards. If you can take a loved one with you, you'll fall for those endearing habits all over again, and instead of writing letters, you can whisper passionate phrases directly in their ear.

Meanwhile, if you're single, you won't be able to hide in your solitary lair for long. From March through September, romantic opportunities will fly into your orbit like a moth toward light. Perhaps you'll even meet a candidate for romance on your travels to distant destinations. Work up an appetite for delightful surprises -- your spontaneous new friend is likely to sweep you into an unplanned midnight trip to the sea or suddenly present you with an unasked-for (but secretly coveted) gift.

At the end of the year, be prepared for significant -- and welcome -- changes in your romantic partnership. Is it time to open a joint checking account or to renew your vows? By New Year's Eve, you'll be ready to usher in 2007 with a strong, beautiful partner at your side.

I don't want to say goodbye

debts, bills, debts, bills.... oh boy! returned mom's ezlink card and top it up. returned dad's money. returning baby's money. bought a err... capri pants? i think tts it. a pair of capri pants from Dorothy Perkins. Caught my eye on a shirt at Esprit. Got it. Wanted to get crocs but maybe ain't gonna to. Why? It's either too small or to loose. Gonna get a pair of shoes for work, get some stocks of dvd-rs, cartridges for our printer. oh boy! Bills! Bills! Bills! My handphone bills are still booming up. But hor! I think by next month, it's gonna be booming down.

Something seems to be wrong but the way I see it, everything seems to be oKay.

Was caught all wet on Monday evening after work. Meeting up baby after almost 2 weeks of not meeting and barely talking. Went over to Nor's chalet and got ourselves staying over instead of going back and me not going to work the next day instead of going. But I felt good. I was glad that I get to spend time with my baby.
Back to work for the both of us the very next day after one day of rest. Well, it was sleep for me the whole day til night til the next morning. Went to work, everything was fine and everything was fine until yesterdae evening. I have alreadi planned. I had a plan. I was planning. I wanted to take a break this week. Did not want to do overtime BUT! oh no! oh dear! my goSh! last minute probs arrived. we have no say and yes, I had to stay for ot yesterdae. Well, actualli I had a choice of not staying yesterdae but due to my "Mulut Masin" ("Salty Mouth"), the weather changes from being very sunny to very windy and dark and to very heavy heavy rain. I stayed behind for an hour and wanted to go over work earli today but baby didnt morning call me. Oh well... Got to work at 0930hrs, which the security guard said I was very early to come for OT. wth! giLerneSs....
Felt really really tired and I cant finish my things that of course, I'll be going back work tomorrow.

is it normal? To not meeting like once a week? Is it normal to not meeting for a very long time? Barely call. Barely message. ....am i oKay? Is it me? Or is it you? Hope everything will be fine on that day.... It is so fast. Time flies. it'll be 3 months soon. ...i'm pRayiNg

i'm Not woRkiNg!

i do not know what to think. i do not know what to feel. i do not knw what to say. i do not know what to hear. i do not know what to do and i do not know where to go.

ended up not going to work today as i was dead asleep the whole night. well, actualli i slept like about 0400hrs in the wee morning. why? i don't know. had some beers down my system last night which it makes me feel great. my ex-colleagues were trying to cheer me up and stop me from taking their beers. muahaha!!! but i sneakily took some and add them into my ice tea. i was alright. i made my way back home as normal and it was a cold night and i forgot to pack my shawl with me. but it was good to meet up seong-ge and oni-jiang. seong-ge present me with a pair or studs for me leaving the company gift. that was so sweet of him. went down to ex-company b4 meeting up de dinner and it was great. meeting up the new girl. she was kind of irritating though but not as irritating as me b4. she is like more irritating.

me and seong-ge had a good talk. he adviced me about relationships. told me about his relationship. he and his wife just got married last year after 8 years of dating. Wow!
His wife, May and his sister joined us later on as they wanted to have dinner. Seong-ge told me about his sister which is really funny. He asked me if they looked alike and I said yes. Then he said, "but too bad la! I am smart and she is stupid!".... That really stuns me!
He later on told me wat actually happened and why she ended up in Singapore instead of being back home. I understood the whole picture and haha!! and no, I don't think she is stupid too but just naive.

Today, slept the whole day. Slept at about 0400hrs, I think I've alreadi mentioned that. Woke up like 12 noon. Washed me face, brushed teeth, watched Masked Rider 555, ate brunch, continued watching Masked Rider 555 then went back to sleep. Woke up ard 1930hrs. Mom woke me up.... Watched Constantine and darling smsed.... Now feeling kinda sleepy, drinking hot choc... Gonna sleep soon... Muackz everybody!

seriously! ...this is FUNNY!

move aLong

what hv i done? i dn knw... im sure it's something... hmm... maybe it's tt thing.

i had a fall yesterdae. fall on my back wif a big impact and my head hit a hard metal. wow! i went on working like as if nothing happened. i was having headache all de way though but i went on working. & then i discovered a small itchy lump on my left leg. righ below the knee. i pulled up my jeans and asked myself, "since when i was bitten!?"... my officer saw it too and shook his head. i came back, showed mom and she said it's bad. the pus is growing and de swollen is bad. de whole thg was hard. i mean, de swell. swell.. swoll, swellen, swollen... ouh! then she looked at my old wound and touched it. she said, there's still pus inside it and hv to be taken out.... she asked me to faster go shower so she could clean the wounds. instead, i took my time. b4 i showered, i peeled off de dried thing on my old wound and left it. few mins ltr, i saw blood dripping out. LOTS of them! i quickly wiped them off wif tissue. and there, i wiped de pus away. it was big and it was bloody. hahahahahaahahahaahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway, after shower, mom cleaned my old wound. and when it's to de new wound, mom tried to break de pus out bt cant cz it's still growing and new... eek! i was scared!
2dae... de pus grows big. mom wanted me to go clinic bt i didnt want to. so, she break out de pus for me. USING SCISSORS! luckily it break! she cleaned de wound and nw it kinda stinging! de pain stings too when i woke up this morning....

i finalli talked to u. i didnt give up. i went on calling u and u finalli answered.... wts wrong? .... wif me?

...where are you

i'm home... yes i am.... not doing overtime today. realli tired.... yesh... took de time to finally change my layout. i guess im not a veri colorful person cz i'm cmfortable with either white or black.

....am i?.... insecure?

hhmmmmm

i am scared. i have a tendency of forgetting something once i'm into something else. i have not seen u for long and i felt i have forgotten ur existence. how u look like and how you are, i felt i have forgotten them. no words from you makes me forgot where you are and here i am thinking of something that i feel something was missing. whether it is something i could see or something i could not.

the ongs from Chronicles Of Narnia are really nice. i love them. I don't realli fancy classical music much but this instrumental songs, erm... what they call it... the scores. yes, the scores of these movies are realli nice. Memoirs Of Geisha's nice to and Pirates Of Carribean.

oKay... I want to watch Chronicles Of Narnia again... & I want Turkish Delight.... it may be a little late to say that though... hehe

Memoirz

updates! updates!

met out wif my gal, Nana after work on thursday night and friday night. stayed for OT on Wednesday. it was a rainy day... no, evening actualli. so, it was cooling all de way on de way back.

on thursday night, met up wif gal Nana over at np. she wanted wanted to show me something and wanted my advice. i was wondering what is it she wanted and there she was, showing her new hairstyle and what she wanted was to knw what wax to put on her hair.... haha... got her to get Lucidol or Gatsby but Loreal's good too but it's expensive though... but she wants Loreal but oh well..... Went over to starbucks and had a chat. it's been long we've not meet up.

on friday, companied her for shopping over at Dorothy Perkins and had dinner at Burger King. the service was slow that more people came in when me and Nana came in. It was absurd and the stupid manager who was serving me was trying her best to be as nice as possible, which is good but her serving were getting so slow.... too slow as possible. slow slow slow.... and de couples behind me were getting irritating. they sound cute but they got too irritating especialli with that lady manager was serving me slow.

Came back to work on friday. it was a good morning. a good start at work but it was getting all frustrating later on. In the evening, went over to sallyn's. Companied her and Af at home. played with Af and we ordered in McD as sallyn have not eaten yet. Af was so lovable that he was so cheery all day that the adrenaline in me was happy too.

went to work today. i was alone most of the time. the radio could be tuned in the instrument room but cant in the office, which was frustrating. start my day with a frustrating one and it was smooth bit by bit later on.... planned to work less than 8 hrs but seems like i did more than that.

going back tomorrow to finally wrap things up. i could wrap things up today but my body was too tired.

im home now. had dinner straight away. mee rebus wif half-boiled egg. haha!!! yah! mom thought the eggs were boiled but when i break it opened, it was half-boiled and everything jz dropped into my mee rebus.... and oh well... add green chillies... NICEY!

now im thinking of watching a movie.... am gonna go shower 1st but b4 tt want to set my bed and hang out the laundries....

2 great movies in 2 days..... next?

Chronicles Of Narnia..... breathless.....

Memoirs Of Geisha..... breathtaking.....

what's next?

maybe War of The World ......

Amazing

Sunday... tt day was de best day of my life. i mean, it was like de most happiest day of my life. i dn knw y but i felt so happy tt day. although i was tired.

went to work on sunday morning. onli for a few hours. met baby and kama after tt. onli for awhile and then went over to baby's place. rested and waited for baby to shower and change. lil bro, sufi alreadi ready. we played and talked and off we went to The Cathay to get tixs for Ice Age 2. had to give a miss to the event at Ngee Ann City as shasha was there. there wasnt any time and they finished earli. so, b4 de movie, went down for lunch at swensen where me and sufi realli had fun tt we were reprimanded by baby for being naughty and noisy. hehehe.... played, chatted, time goes by and we had to rushed eating. well, me and sufi were almost finished while baby was still struggling with his chickens. muahaha!!! no time for ice-cream as promised to sufi. once we were done, off we go for the movie. We got there in time. yay! thank goodness we were not late. Sufi was given a stool to sit on. It was his 1st time in the cinema. Asked lots of questions too and he couldn't sit still. Lots of fidgeting ard. He kept turning around, standing up, sitting on my lap and back forth to his seat.

After de movie, sufi reminded us to go for ice-cream. haha!!! smart kid he is..... kids. well... they remember everything the adults would tell them. ...and so we went dwn to Marina's Secret Recipe where i got him ice-cream. he was like the happiest kid in de world and i was so happy. he spoon-fed me his ice-cream but forgetting his brother tt i told him to spoon-feed his brother too.... haha....
later on, brought him up to Kiddy Palace just to walk ard and he found something tt he wants bt i promised him tt we'll get it de next day... tt's when baby told me tt i shouldnt hv said tt cz little kid would remember such things. i was hoping he'll not. me and baby were tired by then cz we both were from after work, so we decided to bring him for some games at suntec but which tower, we forgot. we went dwn suntec and up we went to the top floor and there was the one place tt we were trying to avoid. me and baby couldnt bear to m8k a turn cz there wasnt any where to turn too... and once sufi turns, there he saw the big name... Toys' R Us.... aiyoh!
we had no choice but to bring him in for a little while... he found something he wanted too but i had to twist ard words wif him tt i finally got him out of toys' r us .... muahaha... and off to home we went.....
while we going out, in de train, sufi was on my lap, sleeping and baby was beside me sitting. going back time, sufi was on baby's lap, sleeping and me in baby's arm, sleeping .....mueehehe!!! baby said ppl were looking at him and he was feeling a little weird, plus, seeing de both of us sleeping so soundly.... hehehe.... i felt so good....
went back to baby's, rested for awhile b4 gg back home..... i realli had a great day and i realli love to have it again....

on monday, work sucks. my senior officer wasn't ard and my officer asst was trying to find things for me to do.... sigh.... i was sleepy and tired de whole day too......
got back home straight away. showered, dinner.... & Chronicles of Narnia... finalli.... it was nice. i love de music. it's nice.... i love...

Memoirs of Geisha tonight....

I want to take up driving lesson too le....

baby! I love you!....

i want to spend my lifetime loving you - tina arena & marc anthony

Moon so bright, night so fine, Keep your heart here with mine Life's a dream we are dreaming
Race the moon, catch the wind, Ride the night to the end, Seize the day, stand up for the light
I want to spend my lifetime loving you If that is all in life I ever do

Heroes rise, heroes fall, Rise again, win it all, In your heart, can't you feel the glory?
Through our joy, through our pain, We can move worlds again Take my hand, dance the dance with me

I want to spend my lifetime loving you If that is all in life I ever do I will want nothing else to see me through If I can spend my lifetime loving you

Though we know we will never come again Where there is love, life begins Over and over again
Save the night, save the day, Save the love, come what may, Love is worth everything we pay

Every & Mr. V ......

baby's favorite quote from V For Vendetta .....
Remember, remember, the fifth of November, The gunpowder treason and plot. I know of no reason why the gunpowder treason should ever be forgot.

my favorite quote from V For Vendetta .....
Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is it vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished, as the once vital voice of the verisimilitude now venerates what they once vilified. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin van-guarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose vis-à-vis an introduction, and so it is my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V.

a very nice quote though, from V For Vendetta .....
A revolution without dancing...is a revolution not worth having!

i think i want to watch the movie again. V For Vendetta. we didn't find it appealing though but i want to watch it again. i want to understand again what they were saying. i couldnt concentrate well as i was from after work. de whole movie's all politic, i think though but i's a nice movie with nice words going ard.....

did OT again on thursday night. like so syok like tt. went off as de laSt peRsoN..... now routine back to normal. come back home after work, eat dinner, shower.... muehehehe......

gonna watch ice age 2 tomorrow. yay!

.......Quotes taken from http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0434409/quotes

...when you'Re not deRe

overtimed for the past 2 days. had lunch outside for de past 2 days. yup! with new colleagues. apparently, i can never make friends easily wif gals but wif de guys instead. now, im hanging out de guys. a new set of guys. bah! well, now got members ar! siti!

whatever! crapness.... madNesS!

felt good doing overtime. felt good going to work again & i seem to miss the Instrument Room. I love being in there and I hate sitting at my deSk. 3 weeks, stiLL gettiNg to kNw pPL there. sLowly goNna buiLd up some new frensheepz.... muaahaha!!! aPa saJeR siTi saRiNah....

baBy caLLed @ woRk ....it waS dE SHWEETEST phoNecaLL i eVeR reCeiVed!!!!!

baBy... miSsNg yOu......

listening to hoobstank's running away

before it's midnight, before i go to slp. i want to blog. yes ar!...

anyway, i think i had a good day today but not so good. it was more like a free day. i was more to asking ard if there's anything to do rather than de de job is given to me to do. my officer was busy de whole day wif de new project tt he got his asst to to get me to assist him yes i did. he taught me some reports and it was merely of waitings. i was practically waiting and asking him if there are any or is there any report/reports he wnts to teach me and do. everytime i have to wait, not knowing that he was exporting those reports for me. my boss was there walking ard and back and forth to his desk which is directly in front of me and de general manager whose room is behind me and he keeps coming in and out today.... i was desperately wanting to do something that i kept bugging my officer asst for more reports to give me. and he kept on saying de reports are still being export to excel and thati have to wait. by the time i got them, it was already 1600hrs+ and i can onli do them halfway cz i was in no mood to stay behind. pLus, it was raining and if i stayed, who knows it might get rainy again later on an i would have to wait again.

after work, i dragged meself to woodlands civic. went to the library, got a book and then off to pharmacy to get something..... off to bik as's place after that to get my baju kurungs. yup! each for S$28. blue and brown. diff colors but same flowers..... mueeheheheheheeh!!!!

came back home with grandma.... now feeling sleepy... talking with my boyfren right now... going to sleep soon.... muackz!

seMuSiM

......everything were good. everything went well. now we are all just waiting. waiting and being patient is just the onli best thing we could do right now. pray to god and wait for the moment. hope for the best. hope for the good. hope tt everything will be alright.

had a great talk, had a great time, had a great day... felt so tired. turned in quite earli and got up real earli.

things were great. helped dad carried de pLasma which mom ltr got so worked up. met baby for dinner and spent a little more time. he came up to my front door as i wanted to pass him something. mom was stunned tt she ran off but told her he's onli waiing outside as im not asking him to come in.... muahaha!!! it was a funni incident ar.

talked wif mom and she's worked up again abt me helping dad carried de pLasma from my room and to the living room. she's too worried over and my dad... sigh.....

we hit 2 mths and @ de same time, i was hit by a passing bicycle... bLueKz

Bila Kau Tiada by Nurul & Ajai

Aku jadi resah bila kau tiada Melihat sekeliling apa adanya
Hanya wajahmu bermain di sisi Ku manusia... manusia harus begini

Harus ku rasai apa kau rasa Bila kau tiada aku sengsara
Tepikan segala keraguanku Manusia... manusia harus alami

Kerana aku cinta padamu Kerana aku mengharapkanmu
Berikan kesempatan Pada diriku yang merindu
Yang merindu bila kau tiada

Tak daya melawan rindu di hati Ubati resah ini oh kekasihku
Jangan biarkan ku sendiri lagi Aku jemu... aku jemu tanpa wajahmu

Biarlah semua kita rasai Agar kita tahu apa ertinya
Cinta yang tersemai di sanubari Demi cinta
Demi cinta... ku lalui segalanya

i want to emo2 jiwang... y!? cannot ar!

got it from yammie's.... love de pixs....

masih terserlah wajah ayumu

Cepat benar engkau pergi Hujan masih belum berhenti Banyak benar soalan ku tadi Hatimu terusik kini... ooo Sebagai kekasih ku Layak aku bertanya Sekuat mana cinta mu Adakah insan lain di hati mu selain ku

Sayang bukannya sehari dua Percintaan kita ini Yang dipersudah dipateri Sayang jangan ikut perasaan Marah jangan disimpan Ku hanya ingin menduga Dan kini aku tahu Satu kekasihmu hanya aku

Marilah kasih aku dendangkan Lagu yang pernah mencuri hatimu Ooo.. marilah kasih biar kusimbah Api kemarahan yang membakar di benak Di benak mu...

Terpaksa ku berlari Memintas mu dari pergi Akan ku belai rambut mu yang basah Masih terserlah ayunya wajah mu Walau pun marah Walau pun marah, ayu wajahmu
Masih terserlah... ooo...
Ayu wajahmu...

- Exist

mungKiN [maybe]

we had a really good time yesterdae. tt answers to why i couldnt go to work earli today. muahaha!! well, not realli. wanted to watch V for Vendetta but the time were all too late, so we caught Dorm instead. the Thailand horror movie. oh well. so much for horror. but it was a realli nice movie.

Before the movie, had a meeting wif baby's fren, kama to sign up for my insurance things. Yup... I did it. There are more which i would still consider for later in the future.... Baby insisted on having teacher aishah to join us for dinner and not known to her, we have other plans aLong.
After the dinner, we brought her to k-box @ suntec for a karaoke session. it was GREAT! it FUN! and me, with the sore throat, was having so much fun too. muahaha!!! bubbly cous shasha was realli cute and she was realli rawking the place tt it brought laughters for bothe baby and me. things were all going so great and so fun and i realli wish we could do it again and i'm sure that we would be... in the future.... anyway, i chose Anuar Zain's Mungkin. me and shasha love the song and de karaoke video was the music video itself. Watching the video, singing aLong to the soNg really brought me to teaRs... It was realli touching.

Some things are realli emotional to me and something i'm experiencing would realli relate to some tune. i am hoping for the best as we have said earlier. things are going to be fine and we would go through things together and im yours no matter what. i know you've said tt last part jz to m8k me joy and i knw u are worried of me. but Do u know i'm worried of you more....i'll wait for u....
Biarkanlah saja diriku sendirian tanpamu
Biarkanlah aku merindu sekian lama
Bukan maksud untuk membisusepi tanpa kata
Terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian

Mungkinkan bersama dua jiwa ini
Dalam mencari cinta sejati nan suci
Mungkinkah segala derita di jiwa
Akan terabat kini

Biarkanlah saja diriku sepi tanpa kata
Terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian

Hanya satu pintaku
Sabarlah menanti
Ku kan pulang bersama
Cinta...

Mengapa Harus Cinta by Vince

Mendungnya pagi ini Bagai memahami erti Lambaian lembut mu Memisahkan kita
Hati pernah bersatu Kasih pun terbina Namun cita membawamu Oh jauh dari ku
Mengapa harus cinta Perlu ada yang berpisah oh oh Tak ku, mungkin mengerti
Mengapa harus kasih Pastikan jua berakhir oh sayang Tak sanggup ku menanggung pilu ini
Masih di fikiran Pertama mata bertemu Di hati terasa Oh debaran cinta
Keayuan wajahmu Merdunya suara Kini tinggal oh kenangan Hingga ke akhirnya
Ikhlas ku berdoa Pada yang Esa Kan ku kenalApa erti selamanya

something

waiting for my baby to pick me up right now. woke up eari this morning to go shen siong wif mom. had to wake up yammie few times b4 she finally wakes up.

me and mom now talking abt kain songket. there's a purpose now. i've asked mom and dad to go Terengganu. Yesh, gonna pulled yammie aLong too. im gonna bring my family up somewhere. somehow....

99.9%... hit it aLreadi!

muahaha!!! best! i was sick and this time, i thought i had enough rest but i guess i didnt. i was having fever the whole day on thursday tt i felt bad to leave my officer aLone to do de investigation. so, i stayedand helped him despite others telling me to go for mc. oh well, i did though. the next day. and being sick, resting, in bed de whole day after taking each meds, realli, oh boy!
i hate de moment.

my voice is slowly recovering back. every morning, my throat hurts badly but after tt, after it all clears, my throat's fine. just feeling uncomfortable with all those phglems inside. still getting them out. bluekz!

i feel better now. after so much rest but too bad, it's saturday today and sunday tomorrow. cant go back to work.

watching APM 2006 last night. i didnt knw abt it until mom turned it on, tts when i sat down at de sofa to watch it, while waiting for meself to doze off.
cant watch pLaSma right now cz it's dead again. still can be watch but i dn wnt dad to get a replacement now as it still can be watch. Well, maybe i'll get my own replacement though. Once I have enough money. But come to think of it, I seem to have lots of things I want to have and need.

Anyway, I'm going back to my room right now and read up whatever book there is for me to read. I'm bored. I hate it. Being broke and no work to go.

work.... work...

my engr officer asst is so cute. i'm naming him winnie the pooh. why? he looks like winnie the pooh and he sound like winnie the pooh. muehehe!!! i assisted him de whole day today and oh boy! as im typing this... my eyes are getting sleepy. im getting drowsy... oh boy! oh boy! oh boy!

i better go lie down....

i want psp & a nu phone!

hello ppl.... missing my baby like always.... working's tiring. training. scary. bt did oKay. went back to work on saturday and on sunday too. after work, went off to sallyn's. went down to IMM wif her and Af. muahaha!!! Af was so cute and naughty and carrying him alone was realli like an exercise training for me. my arms now are aching. i feel like im carrying some weights. toLd sallyn, i'll anytime go over and look after Af and carry him aRd. muahaha!!! he realli cute la... wnt to pinch pinch his cheeks. he's learning to walk though.

i had a great time wif sallyn and Af.
went off back home after de tRiP from IMM due to sleepiness and tiredNesS.

@ woRk 2daE, i feLt so sLeepy tt i aLmost wnt to faLL asLeeP while continue reading de training guiding books. thank goodness for teabreak, i quickly grab a cup of coffee.... =) i felt better after tt cz i had work to do by then.... yeaH!

after woRk, it was raiNing bt still managed to hv dinner wif baBy. i was reaLLi huNgRy. oh yeah! aNd i was fuLL. nothing much in sembawang shopping centre but tt skl uniform shop is sTiLL deRe... oh yeah.... anybody still buy skl uniforms there? haha

raiNboW

happy bdae to kak yaya.... radiah...? rhadiah...? radhiah..? i forgot how to actualli spell her name. bt she is known as YAYA!!! yaya!! muehehe~!! haPpy 19TH birtHdaY to her... my liL couz~ muackZ!!!

im so sleepy.... supposingly meet up sallyn bt didnt. change to tmr. went over to shidah's after work. i had.... waffles wif ice-cream & caramel toppings, grilled chickens with peppers, pizzas, fruit punchs and coffee wif carameL~ niCe right... yar! i so de full. it totally covers my lunch and dinner and supper. baby told me to be prepared for my training cz i gettin buLat aLreaDy. mom also said i getting de buLat liao. then ltr 14th gg out for makan again. Wah~*~

i so de tiRed... wnt to sLp ~ZZZZzzzzzz~~~***

missing you....

10yrs ago i had a surgery. and almost everyday, mom made me drink this tonic soup, made of ginseng and haruan. i knw dts de fish, haruan. but, i did not knw dt de english name for ikan haruan is.... Snake Head fish. knwing it now, i dn ever wnt another surgery. well, u cn use de fish to cook other dishes too la but, i aint gonna cook it.

mom bought me some small french breads, meat slices & cheese to make sandwich to bring to work. yay!
work has been good. although im still under training. at least, im doing good. still a new face at work, still getting acquaintant to some ppl there. found one veri friendly one, one veri soft one and others, still slowly slowly getting to knw. nothing major gg on yet bt still, im working good.
2dae, im feeling a lil kick in me. wonder wt got into me. i came to work, i went to de staff lounge for a hot cup of coffee, waited for de bell. started work after tt and teabreak time, i jz relax at de same corner. lunchtime, i went down to causeway pt, got mcd and ate while i walked back to de interchange to t8k bus back to work and i made it in time. jz 5mins b5 work starts. yay!
i didnt go for de evening teabreak as there were lots of work to do. i continued working and kept on looking at de time. tot of doing an hour OT bt i had to give way to my colleague for de measuring instrument i was using. and since i onli had little time wif baby today, i went off for dinner wif him at Siam Kitchen. de kway teow i ordered, whoa! HOT SIAK! baby said my face was turning red. bluekz!
had a little chat wif him for a little while b4 gg off.

came back to an empty apartment. well, mom was in de room bt ltr she went out to cold storage.
sigh... i think i better go turn in as for tomorrow i had to work.. BUT, after i transfer my mp3s... bluekz

1st time of de dae....

1st day of work. i like it de fact tt it's in woodlands. there are few buses tt goes there and de frequencies of de feeder are fast too. de onli thg is, i better don't late la. haha! yess! at work, 1st half of de day was just orientation and briefing. 2nd half of de day, sitting at my desk and reading up training books. all need for my knowledge. need to t8k note of them. onli manage to read 2 books. sigh.

after work, met baby at causeway where i went down to civic centre's library to return and look for a book on ms excel bt failed. went off to t8k photo after tt and off to al-ameen for dinner. called abang ipar down too. both me and abang were tired that our brains and and minds were whacking out. baby was de onli sane one there. haha. i wanted to ice-cream and abg ipar actualli went off to ntuc to get Deyrey's ice-cream. he said at 1st tt he'll buy and i cant choose. didnt knw he realli went to buy. he came back wif de big tub and it was Rocky Road. he said he wanted to get me something else bt dn hv. ltr, my milo shake also came. u knw how full i was... eating de ice-cream cz abang ipar wants me to eat it. hehe!!! THANK YOU ABANG IPAR! fed baby of my ice-creams. yup, on my milo shake also got ice-cream. nice right.

fell asleep on de way back tt baby had to send me back home, scaring tt i might miss my stop. mueehehe!! i wnt to t8k eat de ice-cream again.... ltr ar morning!
baby gg for blood test tomorrow. cant be with him and plus, it's his bdae....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!
MANY KISSES AND WISHES FOR YOU!!!!
INSYALLAH GOOD THINGS SHALL FALL UPON YOU!!!!

huNgRy

had an outing the other day. i was not feeling well. but i was surprised too. well mainly shocked but it was expected onli tt i never expected it to be realli happening. apparently half of de day was not good but it turns okay by de other half of the dae. we were all good. i love my baby.

was resting de whole dae de next day. de weather realli hot man! i hated it. i slept almost de whole day i think. no! i read my book too!

2dae, i went for an interview at coffee bean hq. i seem to like it. being surrounded by cakes. u knw wt i mn but then, i came back, i got another job which i could gain more knowledge on. so, i decided to t8k on it and yeah! im going for it.
i'll be starting a new job tomorrow and i hope i'll do well in it.... *prays*

i think im gonna go fry some stuffs...

reMind

i wasnt feeling so good yesterdae. all thanks to not enough sleep and waking up reali earli to go out. had an insurance-invetment briefing wif baby and frenz. i'm considering it though. it migh be good for me and de future but right now, im jz considering.
went off for an interview after tt. baby companied me. i had a test on ms excel and met up wif an engineer and i hope i'll get the job.
was realli hungry and tired. went home straight after tt. had brunch and had a nap straight away. my eyes realli couldnt take it. me and baby woke up around de same time. bt when i woke up, my whole head was in pain. it was so pain tt it became realli heavy. still i got up and had a shower, had dinner and later on took some paracatemol and ice cream soda. went off to bed and read my book. didnt took long where i got too tired and fell asleep. baby called for awhile and i went off back to sleep.
woke up feeling better. my head's feeling better. i could jz lie down and not feel any pain. i was feeling good.
looking forward to today's outing. baby bring his baby brother along. he's a cute little thing. wonder how things are gonna be. baby alreadi planned to go pizza hut haha!! since de day i said i wnt to eat pizza hut few weeks back.
wearing my new skirt today. yeah! like finally. but hor, im feeling kinda sleepy right now le... sigh... im drinking coffee and im suppose to be feeling awake not sleepy. plus the weather is like whoa! the heat is realli heating up. i need some windy moment man! where is the wind?
should i tie up my hair of let it down? guys of course would prefer to let it down bt i think i'll tie it up. it's like so hot out there. oh boy!
suddenly i dn feel the urge of going out cz yesterdae i forgot tt 2dae is baby's 2nd day off.

me NeoPet

look @ tt. at a moment of boredom, i got meself a Neopet.... muahahaha... it's an Aisha (whatever species tt is bt it's a neopet, u knw, like digimon and stuff) and her name is Zekigu.... basically I don't know what to do with it now but I think, it's gonna be abandoned. I don't know. Let's just one fine day, I might make use of her.

Species : Aisha
Colour : Blue
Gender : Female
Age : 0 hours
Level : 1

Health : 8 / 8
Mood : content
Hunger : bloated
Strength : strong
Defence : tough
Move : average
Intelligence : average

kanaRiya

anybody knws de anime Basilisk? well, i really like it the fact that they have nice music. downloaded the soundtrack and found realli nice music. The sound of the flute and everything are just so err.... dont knw how to describe but nice.

anyway, still have yet to go to the library. I've finished reading my book. maybe i'll drop by tomorrow. wanted to yesterdae but didnt cz baby was LATE.AGAIN! wanted to go today but was too tired.

on tuesday, had dinner with tj. it has been so long i've not seen him. haha!!! when he came to see me, he was wearing his work uniform. told him to let's jz go for de dinner wif de uniform bt he didnt want. he even brought his clothings and change.
b4 tt, babysitted aqilah wif yammie for a short while. she came while I was watching Shinobi. No subtitles but wth, i knw wt's happening anyway. So, the fightings were nice. not as detail as the anime la. like Duh!
yesterdae, picked up mom from hospital. there were relatives there. After the check-up, went to tekka market for brunch and bought veggies. got some tips from mom on how to make the basics of cooking ingredients and after that, went off back home. the whole day was realli hot that i felt realli sticky even after 2 cold showers.
came back home, watched anime, talked to kak sallyn and then went off for a short nap cz i knw baby will pick me up late. But i never thought that it'll be SO LATE that it got me pissed again. while we sat down over coffee, we had a talked abt our frenz and families and he told me that i'm a forgiving person. of course i am. i told him, if im not forgving, i would make a choice to tell him tt i dn wnt to go ut anymore cz he was late. he asked me y didnt i. well, because i made de choice of waiting cz im forgiving and im still patient. met xiong b4 we got to de coffee shop. i was nice to see him again. May and Xiong's sister was there too. Later on, I didnt realise they were at the same coffee shop and were 2 tables away from us. I saw another ex-colleague too. But didnt get to say hi to him cz it was just a glance and he was busy getting drinks and food for his girlfriend. I think. He still have the same stomach b4 he left the company. Muehehe!!!

2dae, met up with an ex-classmate, Maryann. We were in maths class. She stood me up for an hour but I had a nice meal when she got there. We talked about what we've missed out and all. It was all good and nice and fun talking to her again. She's moved and I'll be seeing her soon again, tt we stayed nearer. Hah!

I realli gotta lose those extra calories. I might get a heart attack anytime. Whoa!

I had another scary dream. Not the so scary one but this time it's like a dream that I had a miscarriage. And it's the 2nd time. And this time it's like.... my husband gg off for his overseas mission, i was running as fast as possible, when i got to the gate, he was alreadi in and i could onli see his back and walking away from me. his frens were there and they notice blood flowing down my leg. i looked down and suddenly i felt like fainting. i felt to the floor, his frens helped me and brought me to the hospital. i lose consiousness. when i got to the hospital, i go up and his frenz told me i had a miscarriage and i didnt even cry or feel anything at all.

delighted-fully-fun

had a realli nice day.... woke up at 8am in the morning! yess.... earli, realli. but! i stayed in bed and stayed asleep. finally got out of bed at 1pm. haha!! wt i did in bed for de 4-5 hrs? nothing much. but just simply thinking and going back to sleep and having dreams. continuatious. heh! got such word ar? "continuatious"?... okay... whatever.

waited for baby and he came exactly 2.30pm. oh boy! reached boat quay coffee bean's at 3.30pm. shasha was there alreadi. had our brunch and dessert there. talking nonsense mostly... like duh! then we discussed about the chalet, soming up with plans and ideas on what to do and what to bring and all. anybody have PS2 we could borrow for our chalet!? I PROMISE i will take good care of it! it was all fun. after almost 3hrs, err..or 2hrs?... we went off to look old change kee as shasha wnts to eat sotong. we got in to that shoes shop at peninsula... heh! not peninsula... dn knw la... shasha wnts to see the Pony shoes but there arent but we found pretty nice shoes. Klakowski. I think. a design from spain. they are very very nice shoes. they look really nice. no size for me and they all cost S$200+++. hmph! thk i buy a plin white sneakers and paint it meself! ltr on, walked all de way to bugis street as shasha wants bubble tea. she had a little trouble with the aunty but she got her bubble tea.

after she went off, me and baby start walking away and dazing off to don't know where. we ended up gg to glutton's bay, bought teh tarik take-away and sat by de stairs and drink up. looking at stars which don't look like stars. off to the big new marina square. i was starving for dinner and it was almost 10pm. made a waste trip dow to amk cz the halal western stall no more alreadi, i was pissed, tired and hungry, got to S11 and had mee goreng instead. IT WAS DELICIOUS... well, cuz i was hungry. like Duh!

came back, had a cold shower. So NiCe!... haha like ppl cares.... felt a little pissed after tt...baby's not happy abt it too... sigh... dn like Harmuni rice. dn like it... realli dn like it.... buy Harmuni rice no more... ever.... i'm all done here... doing laundry here so tt ltr morning can dry out... i'm gg bankrupt soon....

dis is diff.... hmph

You are SHIKAMARU!

Some people call you lazy, but that's simply not true. What you are is pessimistic. Regardless of the situation, you never fail to look on the dark side of things. You complain, bitch and whine constantly. But, you are strong and dependable. A true friend... at least, when it counts.

Why!? Why!? of all characters!

You are Sakura!


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trauma

oh boy! i dn knw where to start. i had a nice evening wif baby, walking to al-ameen where abg ipar appeared late. sigh. bt it was nice sitting there cz it's always windy down there. yay!

went thru something i dn like, or shall i say we dn like. straighten tthings out. talked about it. clear things. we have a long way to go and there are going to be more things that are going to occur.

something happened today and it was bad. girlfren, angel helped me and it is all fine now. baby was unhappy but i assured him. things are going to be fine.

it is really windy outside and it is realli nice. angel said she smell rain and i told her that it will rain tonight cuz why? because i said so. muahaha!!!

i'm missing my baby right now. I wish baby would hit him as hard as possiblee til he die and that even his soul could not roam around anywhere.

i need my baby hug right now :(

dere's a WaY

i was feeling moody today. but i was feeling okay after that. onli for awhile but i was still feeling a little moody and hot because the weather's hot.

had lunch wif shasha at sakae. muehehe!!! feel so nice. had the lunch buffet. it was good. after that, made a trip to the cold storage and popular bookshop and then off i'm back home. came back, continued frying mom's vegetable curry puffs and then sent some to bik sal's place. there, hang around and had a chat with bik sal all the way til 9pm.

i'm back home now. feeling fresh after a cold shower. my eyes sleepy. going for an interview tomorrow. At the same company which I'm suppose to be working in now. so, what's the deal? I don't know! Urgh! I'm feeling frustrated!
received a call from tj. he'll be joining the Stress Club soon enough. I'm sure but I knw he'll get his way out sooner. I really wish the best for him.

I'm missing my baby. Yup! Who doesn't. Called him before I came back. He just got up and he sounded surprise when I told him it's 9pm already. I love him.

think i'm gonna eat some of the curry puffs before retiring to my room.

figuring things out

i've always been patience and tolerating over everything and until now, i am still doing those 2 things. it's a part of my life. i can get kan-cheong at times but i try not to show it all the time like back then.
i love you... i love you always... no matter what you are, no matter what you go through... i am a part of your life now and so yhat is how it is going to be.....

yummy

it hasnt rain for few days already and it's realli bothering me. i hate the bright sun shining down on me when i'm not in the mood. right now, i want rain. i want it to be a rainy day 2dae. rain rain rain! and i want it to be windy. yes! i want rain and windy! it seems to be getting darker right now so, i guess it'll be raining soon.

darling dear still on de way and it realli ticks me off when he's late. he's always late. i thought i'm de one who's always suppose to be late. why is he taking over my role or lateness? urgh! but oh well. i want to watch Pirates Of Carribean again. I can't wait for the part 2 to be out because no actors other than Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom would make pirates look good. Hah!

bagaikan puteri

finally, i've changed the living room curtains. washed them and hanged them to dry. continuing with the other washing to be done and will go on to yammie's curtains to wash. same cycle again. soak, wait, rinse, spin.

then, do what? read book again.... the story's getting all interesting again. suddenly story books on family, friends and romance are stirring me up. although i still love reading thrillers and stuffs. but, no scary ghost story books for me please. i love going to the library again. it's like old times back when i was in school and after school.

i wonder how the future is gonna be. i am hoping for a good one. for the best one which i realli dreamt of. as for work, tj is starting on a new one tomorrow. i hope he'll be doing fine. as for me, i'll be waiting. yes, i have a confirmation but i'm still doing my waitings.

waiting and waiting and waiting.
waiting for what also i don't know. how i wish money could just fall from the sky and then i no need to work.
hah! don't everybody wish that. all the time. every millisecond, every second, every minute, every hour.

okay, like whatever.

.......missing sayang so much

oh! de title of this blog is just something that has nothing to do with the blog and i'm just putting it for fun.

BLA BLA BLA

good morning! good afternoon!... err.. good evening alreadi la! now wt time alreadi! 1621hrs already! anyway, I had an early night last night. Was really not feeling well. Right now, still feels tired le. How come ar?
I woke up like 1400hrs just now le. Actually no la, bt almost 1500hrs la. I think la. Alamak! Whatever la!

Nak tukar langsir living room to tak tertukar-tukar sey!

Eh! Like funny like that when I put malay words or sentences in my blog. Muahaha!!!
Tak faham sudah la! Go copy paste de words nd then go find online dictionary to translate the words! This one my blog, I put down any words I want.

Today Sunday sey. Basically, eversince I have not been working, everyday is like the same day for me. No weekend or weekday. All the same. sama-sama.
Bluekz!

I want to go read book ar!

simpLe & cLeaN

i'm feeling a little tired today. i dn knw why. i cant be feeling sick right? I jz got a good news and i dn wnt to be sick because i need to go thru de good news.

went for dinner with baby at newton circus which is still undergoing upgrading, which i totally forgot about it because i found de place a little different. bought another 2 pairs of ear-rings. yup! itchy me. baby spoilt one in de shop which we quickly ran out. well, actualli, i pulled him out.
still thinkiing wt to get baby for his birthday though. maybe i've found it la bt should i? hmm... oh well, wth. why not.

had a good chat with dad last night aftr his dinner. it was a rare moment of course. listening to his views and problems and all. telling him abt my baby and all, which in between, baby called. he felt asleep bt i told him to go back to slp since he'll be working de next day. and then, after he went to slp, me and yammie continued watching Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow and eating mee siam with hotdogs. yummy! grandma woke up to go toilet, she looked at us and just said something which didnt reali bothers us.

went to sleep after that. had another nice dream and saw something in my dream which was coincidental in reality. baby was realli cute 2dae. went down to le meridien shopping centre and harbourfront. bought meself a pair of skirt and pants and dad some t-shirts. bought MacD back for dinner.
Mom's cousin spotted us at Harbourfront's taxi stand, which later he quickly called us and put up the On Call sign up on his taxi. hehe!! He sent us back and it was free. Yeehehee!!!

Watched Pirates of Carribean: Curse of The Black Pearl. Aaah.... Who could more handsome and gorgeous and cuter if not for the duo, Johnny Depp and Orland Bloom... ["Sorry baby love! OnLy for 2daE"...]

I gotta KO now. I'm realli not feeling well. Oh boy... Goodnight ppl.
Goodnight, Sweet drmz, slp tight... Muackz

Jessica Simpson's Wordz....

Sometimes it's hard when you're so deep inside
To see all you can lose in a blink of an eye
Dreams could be shattered
You could be gone
How would I survive
Cause you're where I belong
My soul-believer
Without you, I don't know who I would be

Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you go

Sometimes I listen to a voice that isn't mine
I disconnect from everything inside
And I have made choices
And wasted all the days
I could have been with you
Where my heart stayed
I know you've waited faithfully
Blessing our love even stronger

Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you go

And I've been blessed
For every kiss
For every breath
(How could I let you down)
And I've been touched,
By hands I trust
My love is risen

Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you
How could I let you go

-Underneath


I don't need your strength anymore
cause you've made me strong
You may not see the woman in me
That you dreamed of
Holding me in your arms

All the days that you gave
All the moments you've saved me,
Praying for my life
Sacrificed, just to make me who I am on my own
You don't have to let go

You don't say it
But it's in your eyes
All the fears of good-bye
But I can promise
You'll always have a place, and a way to my heart

All the days that you gave
All the moments you've saved me,
Praying for my life
Sacrificed, just to make me who I am on my own
You don't have to let go

I can live
Cause you lived for me
And I can love
Because you loved me.

All the days that you gave
All the moments you've saved me,
Praying for my life
Sacrificed, just to make me who I am on my own
You don't have to let go

(Ooh ooh ooh)
You don't have to let go

-You Don't Have To Let Go

seasons

yess.... i have som much time in hand....

good morning people. i havent been updating for quite a while. actualli not so long la. but although i've been in front the pc most of the times these past few days, i've been lazy to update anything ar. muahaha!!!

anyway, my life is still struggling but am going and hoping to be a better one. i am looking forward eveyday to a new life and to a better life. everyday is an interesting day that which i must go through as i might miss something interesting out. So, i do not want to miss one out, especially those with my family, friends and my baby. My loving baby, Naruto44. Yup! Naruto44. He loves Naruto so much that I couldn't even stop him from watching it.

oh man! mom's turned on Star World and it's de 2nd repeat of American Idol. Oh man! I'm not gonna watch it again, right. No!!! I onli Chris Draughty's performance. He realli looks like Vin Diesel but tank god the voice's much better. I am sure he's gonna be in the finals. Yeah!

I'm hungry. But I don't feel like eating whatever is in the house right now. I feel just like having pattaya fried rice, strawberry roti pratas with whip cream, strawberry shortcakes, swensen's ice-cream... err, i forgot which one. the tall freckles one. it has cookies, choc chips, butterscotch ice-cream and chocolate ice-cream in random and with whip cream and a biscuit and cherry on top. YUMMY! and oh! not forgetting satay! I want to eat satay! I'm like craving alot of foods.

boring tuesday... IT's ONLY TUESDAY!

so how's it gonna be? should i be confuse? have i thought abt it?? think things straight?

yess... i have. i have thought about it, and i am sticking to it. i am sticking to it and i would not let anything happen. by you, or me or by anybody else.

im crazy....

dad wanted to clean my room just now but i stopped him cuz I need to change de curtains and stuff, so i thought this time i'll clean my room on my own. i mean, i havent don that for so mne... err... better dn say la.
mom told me nt to throw away de lower part of de vegetables if im cooking them. i said okay. cz grandma caught me doing it and she told mom abt it and so, mom told me about it. bluek!

Ashlee's Catch Me When I Fall

Is anybody out there, Does anybody see, That when the lights are off, something's killing meI know it seems like people care, Cause they're always around me, But when the day is done and everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself, Who will be the one who's there, And not ashamed to see me crawl, Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over, And it's empty everywhere, It's hard to face going back alone, So I walk around the city, Anything, anything to clear my head, I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
Who will be the one to save me from myself, Who will be the one who's there, And not ashamed to see me crawl, Who's gonna catch me when I fall
It may seem I have everything, But everything means nothing, When the ride that you've been on, That you're coming off, Leaves you feeling lost, Is anybody out there, Does anybody see, That sometimes loneliness is just a part of me
Who will be the one to save me from myself, Who will be the one who's there, And not ashamed to see me crawlWho's gonna catch me when I fall, Who's gonna catch me when I fall, Who's gonna catch me when I fall, And not ashamed to see me crawl, Who's gonna catch me when I fall

missing

oh wow! i can't sleep. sigh. wonder why. is it because i was nervous or because i drank coffee or because im excited or scared..... i want my baby with me.....

Saturdays....to Sundays

It's like now everyday is Saturday for me. Well, yesterday, was watching tv like whole day. Now! Just when was the last time I ever did that? Hmm!? Oh well, I was overwhelmed by the traditions and dances happening in Bali and those masks came on and I was watching them, fascinating them. These morning, I woke up, sweating. I was having a nightmare. I was somehow in this house and there was this old lady making costumes but somehow I felt an eerie feelings. Then I was in bed and I was under the blanket but I felt that something was coming at me and I was trying to scream but I couldn't. My voice just couldn't come out and my voice suddenly became coarse and I was still struggling to shout out. Suddenly I felt like the thing is coming. My hands were waving around and by the time I felt something something, it was my gandmother. She woke me up. My voice came out. I was reliefed. I didnt go back to sleep. I got up and had a shower. I was still feeling shaky after that.

Baby called after that while I was dozing off after reading a book. After talking, dozed off again after reading the book again. Haha!! Was really tired man! Slept all the way til 4pm. Got up and had mee rebus. hehe!!

Watched The Corpse Bride. A really funny one. Dad borrowed from his friend. After that, watched a lousy stupid hindi movie but like I told yammie, I watched it for the sake of Fardeen Khan only. Muahaha!!!

My days were basically just staying at home and laze. Laze til I can't anymore. My handphone bill this month shot up tremendously. 4 times of last month's. Haha!! Baby expecting a booming one too. Haha!! Oh well, I know now and will keep down. Talked to baby on the phone and was mom was nagging at me to to use the home phone and so which we both switched to the home phone.

You know, I really have a lot of time in my hand that I feel like changing my layout again. I feel so bad. I am so bad. I want a white one again. But, oh boy!

Gonna be meeting new people again soon. Baby's last day and so, a little celebration gonna be going on and we'll be expecting some happening interrogations and once again, me the centre of attractions of the moment.

hi-Lo

It's the 2nd day of not working day for me. Yes! It's a really weird feeling for me of not waking up early morning and getting ready for work and be almost or am late for work. It feels so different. I could sleep late and wake up late without anybody or should I say Mom, to nag at me every night to sleep early and waking me up all de time in the morning.
Right now, I woke up, go on the pc, ate breakfast and drink breakfast, heh!? drink breakfast? oKay, whatever shit! Then, do the laundries or something. ...oh no! i'm becoming lazy alright.
oh boy! oh boy! oh boy!

it's raining today! it's raining! it's dark! it's dark. oh man! aku memang mulut masin ar.

sad_memoRaBLe-thouGht!z

yesterdae, i went off for a half day. went back, showered. changed, got ready but was stood up! for an hour! when baby showed up, i was touch. haha!! yes, it may sound cheesy. very cheesy but touching. a present of a bunny soft toy and it was holding a box of something. i opened it and it was nice. very nice that i became shaky and i was very happy. my 1st white gold. put it on straight away and yay! i got a bunny soft toy again! better and nicer than the old one! he he!!! I got a name for it. hehe!! it's a female alright.

my 1st valentine celebration. it was sweet. baby wanted to make a memorable one for me and indeed it was memorable. from de cock uo of plan A and going through plan B, it was all so sweet. i Love it. ~i love my baby....

2dae, it was my last day at work. i didnt do de standard thing of golden handshake or big hugs but just goofing and playing ard and still doing my work. burst into tears at time. i got kinda emotional even after de office hours. it was sad to leave that place. it was realli sad. i grew attached to that place. not the working place, not the company but the companions i had. all thse 5 and a half years i've been there was a great one. me and ken, both, left de place 2dae.... yes! and we both did. at de same time. that's me, mike (whom i had a crush on) and ken-ken!!!..me & ken had a matchin colow today as it's our last day. well, we didn't call each other to decide on wearing red together la bt just coincidence....
suppose to go down bugis starbucks as sebastian wanted to go there but didn't. 1st, me have too mne things to carry back and2nd, sebas was realli not feeling well that it's better we go another day.
that was the last of it. i've left that place now and tomorrow, is the start of a holiday. a short holiday onli b4 starting another one. and once the new job starts, i'll be starting a new life from scratch again....

Serious....

1st thing I'd like to say Ryan Donowho is cute. Ryan who? Any of you who watch The O.C. season 3 would know who's Ryan Donowho. He is cute!

And yes, I've changed my layout. That Britney one was a temporary. Hehe...

Okay, mom was sent to the hospital again yesterday and I didn't even know that she was being sent. I thought she was just going to the clinic. But NO! she went to the hospital and by night, she was home. It was nothing serious. She was fine. She is just having a stiff neck and something to do with the ear. The right ear I think. Gotta go check it out again. She'll be going for another check-up soon. Sigh. No use sighing.

Darling might be feeling bad right now as I'm totally not in a good mood since last night. I made a rash decision this morning. I went off to cut fringes. Yes. I did. Again with the fringes. I missed my old looks la. So, gotta get into it.

I'm hungry but I don't feel like eating at all. I'm just not feeling good right now. Had a little heat argument going with Bik As on msn. A little something about mom that leads to late grandpa. I'm in my temperamental mood right now so, I just blurt out everything. Yes! And they are the whole truth. No use keeping them so long cuz it might just cause you internal injuries.

I think I'm gonna heat up yesterday's noodles and eat la. Yammie still not up sey!

Clocks

Good morning people. Yesh! it is the earli morning of a Saturday. Everybody in my household are asleep except for me. Tried looking for a nice The O.C. image to make my layout but too lazy, so, I stick with an old fren of mine, Ms. Britney Spears. Or shall I say, Mrs. Federline? ....Okay, that just sound not right.

Yesterday was 10th February 2006. I got my O Levels result. I came to work half day and there was barely anything to do. So I just sat at my desk, waiting for the right time to run to TJ's office to use his internet to check on my result. Before that, idiotic boss came in and told us that at 1500hrs there will be a meeting at the conference oom with the Material Director. Her name's Jennie, you know. Okay, no big deal. I don't care anyway. I'm boasting right now, yes, I'm leaving the company for good.
Not yet 1430hrs, I went down to TJ cuz he bought the AA batts I needed. I went on to use his internet and went on the SEAB website and wa-lah! There were my results showing on the monitor screen. As promised, TJ was there with me to see the results. Called darling straight away to tell him my results, which after that, Sebastian came down and I told him my results too, and together, TJ and Sebastian start grumbling at me. TJ grumbled the most. I couldn't take it that I start to weep. Well, I feel bad too. I felt I've let TJ down especially. I know what I should do and I have planned ahead.
1500hrs, ran off to the conference room. Half way Sebstian called me. When I got in, they have not started yet as the projector system was screwing up. Lousy piece of shit!
As the meeting starts, I listened but at the same time, smsing with me sista, frenz, darling and cousin. After an hour and a half, followed OJ out of the conference room. Basically, 2 stupid departments were arguing out their problems for stupid reasons. *Stupid people in Stupid world* Lousy ME! .....Whatever....ar! OKay! ~!@#$%^
Teabreak with my store guys, a visit to the Ladies, off to 2nd floor again. Chit-chatted with TJ 'til it's almost 1730hrs. Went back up to my desk, clear up my stuffs, pack up and ciao! Off to meet my sweet darling.

Darling was wearing his glasses! He look like a good boy, you know. Muahaha!!! I love him so much. Went down to Al-Ameen where I met his big bro. "ABANG IPAR!!!! YOU ARE SO THE GOOD-LOOKING!". I shouldn't have call him that but while I was talking to darling earlier, I accidentally blurted out "abang ipar" and since he was late, I called him "Abang Ipar" all the way. Muahaha!!! ....I so the CUTE!

Anyway, look at the comparison people. Observe. Picture #1 (left), is my cousin and Me. Picture #2 (right), is my boyfriend and Me.

I think I heard something from yammie's room. Guess she's not asleep! That makes it! I'm not the only one in the household who is not asleep! Muahaha!!... oKay, I hig already. Need to sleep liao! Caleld darling to wake him up 1st....bLeurGH!

I found an old photo of mine, taken at Kulai 2 years back on the 1st day of hari raya.... I miss this hairstyle.....tsktsk :(

old neo2

i got these from fida's site. I can't believe it. we all look so ccuuuttteee..... haha!!

we were all so innocent then.

just trying to look sweet.

de leftover psychos. sistas-kymmy & rach, me & fida!

me and fida in bLack!

this was on my bdae.

dt lipstick on me realli doesnt work and then, kymmy was fairer.

this is my fave neo2. i look good.

my sis commented something abt this. contradict? i thk dts it.

it was xmas time ar

okay! we were realli rawKiNg it!

frenz4eVa

darling woke me up earli morning after i went through 2 alarms. muahaha!!! it was realli windy this morning and thanks to the boys being recall back to camps, thebus was full all de time. go out earli also still late.

later at work, after teabreak, i went off to see doctor along with tj. It has been a long time since really got together and had a great talk. after seeing the doctor and getting our MCs, we walked all the way down to amk mrt and i pulled him to walked me to the bus-stop. hehe!! he's realli nice. he's still de same old people. being just frenz with him, makes me talk more openly with him. Oh well, not like open last time la. But it was realli nice. Both of us also will have a really long vacation before starting a new job.

darling was worried sick hearing me sick. i told him it was nothing bad or what, it's jz normal small food poisoning. i went back, pissed, took my meds, ate my lunch which i onli 1/4 of it, went off for a nap. i had a 4hrs nap when mom eventually came into my room and told me she wanted celery juice and more celeries. okay lor, so i got up lor. darling called. waited for him before we go off to get my stuffs. de more i wait, de more menu i get from mom, so, once darling called i got out of de house and meet outside. oh yeah!
got de sandwich, got the celeries, and darling got a cake for his brother. it's a Strawberry Shortcake. it looks so nice. yummy!

Post 5 random/weird stuff about yourself. List 5 fellow bloggers whom you want to do the same.Visit their blogs and tell them they've been tagged and ask them to read the rules in your blog.

Five weird/random stuffs you need to know bout me...

1. I have a fetish for guys butts.
2. I have a crooked spine.
3. I like playing reverse psychology.
4. I resigned without even finding a job 1st.
5. I like giving out lame jokes. (It's that weird?)

The next 5 peeps to continue the tradition are:
1) kak yam
2) shidah
3) fida
4) ling fang
5) sallyn

juMp

had a good day 2day. i mean, yesterdae, on sunday. well, it's past midnight. i woke up like 0900hrs. i got up, washed my face, brushed my teeth, made breakfast, ate them as i watched yakitate!. later, update my site and than back to tv. while watching Honey, i felt hungry for lunch. So, i decided to have fried rice. And so I did. I made fried rice with zuchinis! yeah! has anybody put that in b4? No right? Well, maybe somewhere out there have la. Than, I thought, what the hell, cook some dish for dad to eat later.... Mom got up and she was making noise cuz she thought I didnt want to run errand for her. Like what the fuck! I was waiting for her!

It's nice to see her happy there.Well, I went out after that. Met out with bik as and got shidah to come along to surprise her and yes, she did. Played ard with clavonian? calovian? i dn knw! it's de electric piano! it was realli fun! i even thought i was gifted when i created a nice tune but i totally forgot about it! Muahaha!! Should hve recorded it! Oh MAN! After that, we were off to toa Payoh. bibik wanted to eat at Fork & Spoon foodcourt and so, we went. After that, we all were really really full. I ate not much of th yong tau foo but i was realli realli full! I was! OMG! like OMG!

Went into Courts after that. Bibik wanted a canopy bed and when I look at it, it's really nice and I want it too. Okay, maybe not now but when I'm getting married, I will have the canopy bed. We went around more to see more beds, sofas, wardrobes, washing machines, fridges, mp3 players and later, while walking back, we were stuck on looking at earrings. I got 2 pairs while bibik got a pair. Shidah dear hv no lobang. I mean ear lobes. We were stuck at another stall but we didnt get anything. Went back, took the full train, I got down Yishun while they both at Khatib. Went to Cold Storage to get stuffs mom asked to buy.

Came back, pissed. I was pissed off that I almost want to give up on her! I will eventually. But I don't know when! Will I? Will I? I don't know.. Oh man!

Darling dear called me. He was really sweet. I love him so much. We're missing each other so much.

Okay, my sister has just bun up my hair with the new clip I bought. Haha!! // Okay ar, Lee Ryan is making me melt right now. His songs are damn nice man! One song actualli sound so jazzy that it got me on the move. Okay la, sleep now. tomorrow working man! And & it's pouring out there now....

Gone // Laughs

Meeting up my darling. He's so cute. Coming here all the way to meet me 1st. It was raining and as we walked all the way to Northpoint, I was so smart to point out the we walk under the blocks for shelters. Haha!!! Got into Starbucks for coffee. Oh well, before that, it was his time with Miss Tobacco. Ms Tobacco is this species which he loves more than me and that would eventually would bring him down sooner or later. I have to give that a stop! Anyway, as we were on the way to Starbucks, I suggested we go to Angel's and maybe we could have some luck with some red packets. Haha!!!

After the coffee session, off we went to Angel's. They were having their cny dinner which makred 7 days of cny. We had no choice but to eat up. Out of courtesy, I finished up the raw tuna which kinda gives me a hard time after that. It was embarrassing but it was nice fish. bLuek! Waited for Angel to go off together but she had been stopped and so, darling and me went off 1st.

We sat down and had a long talk. Yup! Very the long which realli is scaring me. I was there, feeling scared and worried and getting more sick and hungry thinking about it all. But it was a nice feeling I was having there, being just with him. I love him so much....

missing you//muackz

Gwen Stefani's : The Real Thing

I've seen your face a thousand times Have all your stories memorized I've kissed your lips a million ways But I still love to have you around

I've held you too many times to count I think I know you inside out And we're together most days But I still love to have you around

And you're the one I want and it's not just a phase And you're the one I trust, our love is the real thing

Don't go away My love (my love) I want you to stay In my life Don't go away My lover (my love) I'm happiest when we spend time

You're a salty water, ocean wave You knock me down, you kiss my face I know the storms will always come But I still love to have you around

Heavens knows what will come next So emotional, you're so complex A rollercoaster, built to crash But I still love to have you around

You're the one I want and it's not just a phase You're the one I trust, our love is the real thing

Don't go away My love (my love) I want you to stay In my life Don't go away My lover (my love) I'm happiest when we spend time (it's only you and I)

It's you there when I close my eyes And you in the morning I never thought you'd still be mine
Or I'd really need to have you around Don't go away My love (my love) I want you to stay In my life Don't go away My lover (my love) I need you, you're my love supply Don't go away My love (you're my love supply) I want you to stay In my life (every day, every night) Don't go away My lover (you're my love supply) I need you, you're my love supply