"The Reason...", remember this song?

you say, you're not breaking up with me.... yet.

you say, i am your very... very good friend.

you say, slowly you want to... get out of my life.

you say, you're not... breaking up with me.... yet.

you say, you're... confuse.

you say, you... promise.

you say, you're... confuse.

But.....

you say, you're not... breaking up with me.... yet?

you said, im de one running away from the facts. i am now hurting and crying due to your so-called confusing mind and sudden thoughts. You did not stick to what you've promised before and now you are expecting me to do the same to what you are saying right now? I am one fucking bitch right now who feels like fucking hell kill you! But I hate myself cuz I've fallen in love with you. You came with unreasonable, or shall I say, no answer by saying you are confuse. Confuse or confused? You are kept saying them. Questions keeps on popping out of my head due to your sudden thoughts and your confusing mind. You don't want to answer them because you say you are confuse. I am waiting for that definite answer but you say, let nature takes it course. What do you mean by that when actually you are confuse? Can't you make up your mind? You said that I am running away from the facts because I asked you if we could carry on. You are still confuse, that's why you can't answer to that....

siput - snaiL

i had snails on de 5th december 2005 2042hrs .... more pictures will be update ltr on our dinner....

You are 60% Taurus

How much do you match your zodiac sign?

moViEs

i thought of getting Star Movies or HBO. Mom opened the bill today and there were some brochures inside. She asked me to take Star Movies or HBO since there's a free 3 months. So, I told he to get HBO and yeah!
Watched The Big Fish. Always wanted to watch it and when I finally got to watch it, I thought it was a happy ending movie but no!
I seem to have lost lots of tears lately. My eyes has never dry up....

i wnt another layout la

sHeLL

...... shouLd i?

.........am I thiNkIng rigHt?

............maybe i shouLd?

................i feel i can't .......eNd it?

My HaPPy eNdiNG

honestly, i am not feeling good. i've been feeling bad. i believe de time is near for the both of us. it could just be anytime. as I've said, whatever happen, happens. I would not say much. Saying that it's impossible. i've pictured de endngs. many times and i'd run down with tears. over and over again. when we talked today, my tears came down again. i couldnt stop it. it just keep falling out non-stop. i can't promise you that I will not breakdown but I promise you, you will be my friend forever. To this day, I am very happy. To this day, I am gLad that I've met you. To this, I will never forget. I'll cherish it. Every single secs, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years.

:) Happy 1 year Anniversary, dear....

before it's MN....

did I say that my pLasMa is back in business? yup! is it! it's back! i don't know why but it can be watch now and Im so happy!

Anyway, went over Sallyn's. Udah was there too to get some stuff. Helped sallyn with the cooking, well, hehe, not realli helped. Talked, talked, talked, ate, ate, ate, talked, talked, lazed, talked, ate, talked... haha!!! Nana came too. Shidah couldnt make it, Rozaimah was late, apprently me and Nana couldnt wait any longer cuz it was getting too late and she was still stuck in traffic jam at JB.
Went off for the 2nd consecutive time of the screening of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. It's just too exciting and there were exciting movie-goers too! the non-stop asking girlfren and the boyfren was willing to tell her wt was happening and what was gonna happen. The little kids/babies wh simply jz cried at some points. The guy who kept gg to the toilet cz he was just too weak to control his bladder, another who kept on looking at his watch by pressing the little light on on his watch to see the time and also, those who simpLy jz do not know how to follow de simple rules of tuning off their handphones. Incoming calls and incoming messages were simply known to everybody in the theatre. hank goodness, it was me and nana's 2nd time watching it, so, we were cool.

The little gathering may be short of people but it was realli nice. The food were nice. The chats were nice. It was like an old feeling of hanging around. I mean, the last time we did was like when we were in secondary schl & now we are like young adults. In a relationship, married, with kids and stuffs.
Rozaimah called while I was on the way home. Nice to hear from her though.

Im feeling kinda hungry right now but im restricting.

I want to sleep//

buT wiLL I?

aNyway, de Peppermint Mocha at Starbucks is so NICE! got de hot one since i ddnt ask whip cream, maybe I should ask for it de next time.

Gokusen

ara~ ara~ ara~ i cant stop crying at Gokusen! de drama is funny yet a tear-jerker. don't mind me for being emotional but dt is how i am.... hehe

realli dont knw wt to do

havent had 2 days mc for a veri long time. and im becoming too lazy alreadi. woke at 6am, did my usual exercises, went back sleep after that, woke up at 10am all thanks to de dumping of the contruction stuffs, went online, showered, went online again and spent de whole afternoon watching Gokusen. Then watched tv, fold de clothings, took a nap, and back to watching Gokusen. Now it's 11pm, i want to go into my room, touch my nail polish and then try to sleep.

aiyah. tomorrow working and seriously im gonna kill im tomorrow!

Hung uP!

hey baby, watcha doing? hehe

mom seems to be up earli today.

on MC 2dae, and yesterdae too. Went to work as normal when I felt something terrible. Went off for a quick visit to the clinic and came back wif a 2 days MC. Went off back home, dropped my bag, took the neccessay stuffs and off to the salon to rebond my hair. Yes! I finally did it.

The sun is shining is brightly today. I hope it'll be nice.

I came back home after the visit to salon, watched tv. Whose Line Is It Anyway was on and it was realli funny when the screen blackout. The sound was still there but the screen but come and gone and later it just goonnneee. Then wait for a little longer, it came back and then it was gggoooonnnneeee. I wanted to cry. Wehn dad called back I told him about it and since that, I was watching in de living room.

TSKTSKSTK

i am so sad.

Dad says see how it goes. If really cant be done, he'll present me with a 29".

TSKTSKTSK

But oh well! I still have the sound system.

Guess Im gonna go shower now.

Good Morning ppL!

"mai kan-cheong le!"

i have jz got home. from? well... nowhere. Why? You see, I have my last exam paper today. Science (Phy/Chem). I do not want to be late and so, I woke up early. I woke up earli morning at 7am. Took a quick shower, grabbed my skirt and t-shirt and wore my shoes and dashed off in a cab. I told the cabby, "Good morning, Northbrook Sec Sch, pls". Uncle looked at me and I said, "Ave 11 there." Uncle got delighted and drove off. I took out my timetable to check the school address and then, my eyes caught on the timing of today's paper. it was written '1400 hrs'.

BEST!

i imagine my whole face turns red and slowly my whole body starts freezing. I whined out to uncle that I got the timing of my paper wrong. Uncle start to laughed. He LAUGHED le. Well, in a situation like that, who don't find it funny. Smsed tj and expected, he said, "you very blur le". haha!! realli le. Then I told uncle to drop me at Northpoint but later changed of mind again, I decided to come back home. But as we drove pass McDonald's I was like, damn! But hell care. I came back home now. Drinking a hot cup of milo, blogging, listening to Madonna while the others are still asleep. I might go back to sleep anytime though. Or maybe not. hehe!!

& here I thought I could escape from the construction noisssseeesssss!

me watching The OC and suddenly dad wants to test his Daewoo surrond system and oh boy! Gotta stop halfway!

And are we still going out?

my day ur day

hmm... i was on a bus yesterdae. it went pass Jalan Kubor and than Jalan Pisang and than Jalan Kledek. Eh? isit Jalan Kledek 1st or Jalan Pisang. Either one la but I know Jalan Kubor went pass 1st. Scary thing is, de lane of Jalan Kubor looks as eerie as it's road name. Yes it is.

While I was on de way back from the supermarket, I received a call. Someone had just went through my friendster and asked if I'm still looking for a job and apparently yes. And so, that evening, although I was lazy, I still went for it. Took the bus to Golden Mile and it took me like 1.5hours? I reached the place like almost to 8pm. Like, URGH! That was the 1st time I've been to an interview at night. The interviewer actualli asked me if I'm not worried if it's a fake inerview or something, well, I told him if it is, then I would just have to kick his ass out. Muahaha!! Sounds like a tough gal I am. *winks*
Finished the interview, de interviewer showed me the bus-stop which I could take to Bugis. I fund a right bus though that realli brings me to Bugis. Yeah! but instead, i dropped at City Hall and took 857 at Capitol Building. Yey!
In the bus, I was tired and some bloody guy came up to me asking if I have a friendster account. Well, since it's just friendster, I gave him my username. Onli. I was not into the mood of talking at tha moment, plus, that guy is not my type. I can tell that he is younger than me and still playing around with his friends. Sorry sir but I love tj more than ever.
Isit right to say it out like that? OMG

TJ just called me asking if i'm free todae though. I've told him im gg for hari raya visit but, i'll be free after that la. Told him to give me a call later as I only could meet him up later. yay!

yeah! yey! yay! -> which one?

Madonna new songs rocks! im digging. yeay! muaahah!!! //cRaP ar Kak Rin <- someone always say that to me.

F4

haha!! i'm watching F4. I can't believe it! well, it's so exciting. I mean, the Japan drama vers is much more exciting than the Taiwan one. Well, de Taiwan one followed draggily from the manga, or de anime.
Anyway, whatever it is, it was fun. The girl is much more prettier than barbie hsu who played tsukushi. And Matsumoto Jun, he played Domyouji well. He did great, just exactly how de character would be, but hor! his face ar! doesnt fit de role ar! he best stick to Young Kindaichi. Why didnt they get Takizawa Hideaki, i thk he fit it either or Yamashita Tomohisa? eh! wait! Yamashita Tomohisa will fit Hanazawa's character but then, Oguri Shun, rather than seeing him playing all those stupid characters in other drama, I like this one best! I mean, he's realli looking suave. Okay, I like him in Snow... err, what's dt drama? He played a deaf boy. I have tha vcd though. I remember that show was realli damn sad!
As for the 2 extra fren, a chinese-japanese guy & an english educated guy, looking kiddos and sleek, well, they're okay for extras ar. Heh! there's gotta be a better Johnny's Jr. kid out there.
But this one, realli exciting ar. Watched up to 3rd episode now.
I'll be waiting for the rest.
I don't think they would not do this one to a whole lot many many episodes and cut them short la.

MTV Hits now realli are playing cool old school music video. My sista had jz called me up to my room, yelling for me and when I got it, N Sync's err, what's dt song? I forgot siak! it's their 1st xmas song ar. Dn knw ar wt.

I hope i get that job. I hope for de best for me in the future.

=sorry=

looks like there are lots to be done before you can go. 2 weeks coming up fast. stay still for awhile. aite! muackz

LOVE baby!

yes, i do like commercial songs. i love ashlee simpson's L.O.V.E. ....call me cheesy, lame, whatever.... i love this song....

I'm talkin' bout love
All my girls stand in a circle and clap your hands this is for you
Ups and downs highs and lows no matter what you see me through
My boyfriend he don't answer on the telephone
I don't even know where the hell he goes
But all my girls we're in a circle and nobody's gonna break through

L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Did you hear me say
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Im talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O

I'm talkin' bout love, say you'll be my girls for life
Girls for like
Oh hold off I need another one
I think you, you do too
Grab my bag, got my own money
Don't need any man in this room
My boyfriend he'll be calling me now anytime
I need all girls to keep him off my mind
So hold up we need another one
What we got is all good

L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,LO
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talking bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O

I'm talkin' bout love
I'm talkin' bout love
Love is an energy, love is a mystery
Love is meant to be true
Love is a part of me, love is the heart of me
Love is the best thing we do

L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O

life?

seriousli, why you can do this, i cannot do this? why why you can do that, i cannot do that? why you can call me and i cant call you? why when i call you, you don't answer? why when you call me, i have to answer? why when i sms you, you don't answer? why when you sms me, i have to reply?

i found a nice book but damn! i forgot that i've left my IC in my pencil case. I couldnt borrow the book. It was saddening. Gotta go back there again tomorrow and hope the book still there.

work was sian. i was concentrated on doing my work. but i was cold. no change at all. bloody fucking operation director came in making a whole lot of noises again! blaming de logistic on not having the ball rolling when actualli it's all the damn fault of the stupid programming manager! fucking shit to all you people.

you promised.... i hope u do

seriousli dn knw wt to put for title

got hold of tj's exilim on friday night. couldnt meet outside so i had to go back down work to meet him up. walked around to meet up my store guys. hasni was yelling at me from the carpark, "jalan raya, dalam banyak2 rumah, akder rumah lain kah nak pergi?".... hahaha!!! well, wt to do. i had to to get the digicam. tj showed me every single thing i need to do, need to keep, need to take care and oh boy! the weather was hot.

saturday was de day. the once-a-year family hari raya visitings. the one which we do every year, rent a bus and than start visiting houses of our grandaunts and granduncles and the final house will be either one of the hosts. like this year, it's Bik Sal's house. Wonder next yr whose?
It was a fun trip, although there were some missing people who couldnt make it, but it was still fun but it was really tiring and, i mean, a realli tiring one and also, the weather, oh boy! we were hoping that it'll get dark and realli windy and maybe rain a little, but it didnt. it was hot and sunny all the way. thank you to mr. cool fan, it was a big help....
there were unneccesary tensions and screaming going on at some points which was realli ridiculous. well, you know i know and unneccesary lame lousy jokes were given out. well, you know i know.

laugh people! idiots! *slaps forehead*

it was realli tiring that we were realli wanting for a long cold shower. i was even dragging myself on de way back that i headed to the shower without even cooling myself first or what. just being under that cold shower realli a damn nice feeling. and when I start putting shampoo on my hair and start scrubbing my head and stuff, and oh boy! it was realli nice.
And Saturday night movie was great. Frequency. I was realli tired and all but I stayed up to watch it. Next week, another nice movie, I Am Sam. Gotta watch that one.

Sunday was a lazy day. I woke up earli as I need to head to the toilet. Got up earli, went on to the pc to resize de pixs and upload them (click here to see them) and than, went off to watch CSI on AXN and than went on to continue watching tv and than helped mom a little and than went on pc and than helped mom and than watched tv, message my frenz to come over but i know they won't come, tj called and than yammie's frenz came over and i watched tv again and than a little nap ....oh boy! it's starting to rain! gg to work in a little while though.... anyway, had a little nap, woke up by cik su's smses, run off to yammie's room to watch tv, The Truth of Cats & Dogs were coming on. Bik As came over and later, nyai's Anak Saudara came. Haha!! It was funny. You know I know. Than finally, Yammie's, erm, close frenz came over. I mean, the 3 people la. Haha!! They're cute.
Watched Mujhse Dosti Karoge on Central. The last time I watched that movie was on Zee TV and there was no subtitles and can you imagine, how draggy it was. I could barely understand what they were saying. But when I watched yesterdae, it was exciting and I have never felt so excited from watching a hindi movie for damn long time. Okay, so I still love those kinds of hindi love stories but they gotta have their plot in different ways. I mean, the storyline still the same but they got to change the tensions and feelings and scenes or whatever in a different way. Yesterdae night, it was realli exciting.
Also, I felt a little embarrased. I was sitting in the living room, on the red chair, with my legs up on the cushion and one leg, folded up on my other knee and Wan just came out slowly walking... towards me, I thought he wanted to go toilet or something but he passed me my handphone. Bloody hell, I felt so embarassed and out of manner. I mean, the way I sit. Plus, I was wearing shorts. Sigh. Okay, I am feeling a little bit out of place for awhile but after that I thought, what the hell! Muaahahaha!!!! Im bad. Then I remembered that he's older. Show some respect, k Siti!

Gonna be 1100hrs, gotta get to work. I was too tired and there was this stupid headache I got. I smsed my senior storekeeper and went off back to sleep. Informing my storekeeper and tj too. tj gg for interview todae. Wish him good luck. Wonder if i'd get to see him later.

....... i'm thinking of getting MC though.

bLueK//

break off

in the end, star wars is just another love story that creates all the troubles for all troubles. Anyway, just finished watching Revenge Of The Sith and that was what I thought.

No exams today. Thank god. After going through the trauma of having sitted for History paper all alone in the school hall, was realli such an experience. Went for English in the morning. Came back for a shower and han buzz off back to school for Physics and than stayed behind for History which I was suppose to sit for with 3 other candidates. But apparently, they didnt showed up which means, after the private and school candidates left, I was the only one left in that school hall for another 2 and half hours, writing out and answering every damn questions. Well, not all exactly.

Went off to visit wak ri and wak kam after that at night. it was great. a family out, just de 4 of us. and the cats. oh yes, the cats. bujang la oh bujang. An egoistic he is.

wanted to sleep late but couldnt. in de end, went to sleep at 2am. haha!! cannot tahan ar!

dad did unexpected. I didnt knw what is it until he called me to yammie's room quietly. When I saw it, I thought, it was realli unexpected. Delivered the news to yammie later. I hope she's feeling okay.

get over it

found a nice song by avril lavigne, Get Over It. it is nice. unfortunately, i like the song.

so what if it's avril lavigne? i like ashlee simpson's Boyfriend too.

had de 1st Science paper 2dae. Surprisingly, i didn't know that it is only 1hr 15mins. haha... i was earli and this time, i took the bus.

after de paper, went off to meet up maryann, that chicky girl she is. talked and planned and stuffs. walked around, got meself a deodarant. badly need one. the problem comes again. applied a part-time job at an ice-cream parlour. oh boy. nicey.

went back in the bus, fell asleep, missed the stop. had to go down to the interchange and took de feeder bus back. sigh, money wasted. realli ar!

dad called, he thought i was out when actualli, he was in the living room and i was in my room, just woke up from sleep and as expected, 6pm, tj called. he was on de way home. i was feeling bored from his words for the past few days so i was expecting de same todae and apparently, he only gave out half of it. i feel so bad after that but i was realli sick of it.

but then again, am i being paranoid?

"Maybe"

2dae is gonna go by veri fast and im gonna just put on that big smile on my face. gotta get more glue to paste that big smile on me. it was paper 1 of maths just now. oh boy! i think im getting good at angles now and seems like im getting bad at algebra. upside down siak! used to be the opposite you know.

look at my english, it's so bad. it's not even properly used. i mean, written. aiyoh! siti sarinah! buck up please! u're having English paper on Wednesday le! yar! aLong with History and Science. Why ar? Science 3 different days?

okay, somehow im getting sick of it. sick, sick, sick, sick. said nothing but de same thing which kinda realli pisses me off. if it's a parent of mine, i would have taken some pills and not wake up anymore, or best, forever.

okay, and so tj said get into Engineering. He said, or get into BA, Business Administration or Logistics. Apparently, they may be good for my future, well, I... err, consider ;)

came back home like 11am and got a call from poor sebastian. all alone. haha!!! Jennife on MC, Johnny on MC and even big Dato' Desmond also MC. Like damn. There was nobody doing data entries and not much manpower around since there're still crates from KNT coming in. Well, I had no choice but to cancel my full day leave today to a half day leave. Did my studies there too but not much as there were so much things to do, like so suddenly.

"heaven"

oKay. Back when I was in secondary school, I wanted to get into Mass-Communication. Okay, looking at the market now, Engineering might be the best course to get in to.

Which one should I go into? The one that I've been dreaming to get in to or the want which has the easiest job opportunity?

Should this blog even be titles Heaven? or Burning Up?

Does it even make sense?

I don't think so. L-A-M-E. I knwo.

Look! I don't even know hot to spell "know"/.

And I have Elementary Mathematics Paper 1 in 8 hours time.

does it feel like it's a Sunday?

went off to work yesterdae for half day. cleared off my leftover filings before i start my leaves. did like 80% of my exam preprations. haha!! came back home feeling rather tired yesterdae. wanted to take a nap but mom and grandma are having them. So, I had to stay up in case if there any guests coming.
Watched tv, read a book, listening to me mp3, watched Maid In Mahattan, ate breakfast-cum-lunch, feeling frustrated over him and than guest came. Served drinks and bla bla, watched a lil bit of Basilisk and finalli, it was 6pm, i took a nap. I just couldnt help it. I just gotta sleep. I slept and slept and slept. Grandma tried to wake me up like twice. She wanted me to get up and eat dinner and shower but I just ignored and continued sleeping.
Slept, slept, slept and slept. Woke up at 6.32am and it was raining. I went back to sleep. Slept, slept, slept and it's 9am. I slept, slept, slept and it's 11am. Finally, I got up. Grandma was happy that I finally woke up.
Took a long shower. Heat up the foods and took my breakfast. A heavy one. Rice with sambal goreng, rendang daging and lauk lemak. WOAH!
Watched Blood ep 3, no subs, sickening. browsed thru and than watched ep 4, veri nice, ends fast. And now, updating my blog. Gotta change the layout. It's killing my eyes....

Listening to Harry Potter's theme song. haha!! Yammie downloaded them.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

seriously, it's de most tiring and happening hari raya of the year. and not surprisingly, on de 1st day, all of us are wearing old baju kurungs. haha!! of course, no need waste money, de old ones still new thins. err, aper aku berbual.
mom even found a vegetable she bought yesterdae to fry noodles. mom kept lying down and up and so on. me and yammie were serving, with de help of our cousins. hehe!!
especially de time when our house was full-house. totalli fulled til there was no single place to sit in de living room. we were just looking at our guests coming in non-stop.
but, hey, hari raya sey. watcha expect.
we even have kueh-chang on hari raya. for the 1st time. err, i think not. err, i don't know.

took a shower just now. can't stand de heat. realli hot man. my hair, i mean, my head.... feels so good when i stood under the shower.

anyway, found something from tyra banks show. for those girls who had to go through a break-up.... http://tyrashow.warnerbros.com

Eight Stages of Healing After a Breakup

What should you expect after the big break? Marni Kamins and Janice MacLeod, authors of “The Breakup Repair Kit,” say if you're grieving over your loss, get ready for the Eight Stages of Healing. These stages are normal parts of the healing process so the healthiest thing for you to do is let them run their course rather than using your energy to try to fight them off. Or, if you want, you can ignore all your feelings, push them away, keep dating the same type of loser over and over - your choice!

These are stages not steps and you may not experience each stage in order.

1. Stage 1 – SHOCK: “What the…? Are we really not together anymore? Am I sure? Maybe it was all a dream. Maybe he’s really left for a season and I will go into the bathroom and see him showering.” Your mind is deciding to deny your pain because it is too painful to process the truth. Chill and avoid drastic behavior like massive shopping sprees, tattoos and nasty haircuts.

2. Stage 2 – DENIAL: “I seriously think we were meant to be together. Deep down I know we’re just on a break.” Sure. Keep telling yourself this. Torture yourself because it feels good, like playing with a loose tooth or overusing tweezers. Just don't call him and pretend you never broke up.

3. Stage 3 – NUMBNESS: “I am so surprised at how easy he was to get over. I’m not even crying. In fact, nothing in my life seems to matter anymore. I’m not hungry or passionate about anything. Go figure.” Your mind is protecting you from overwhelming thoughts. Napping is good during this stage.

4. Stage 4 - FEAR: “What if I never date again? Will I end my days alone in a dusty old house knitting booties for the children I never had?” Talk about your fears with a friend who can snap you out of your extreme thoughts.

5. Stage 5 - ANGER: “Wait a minute. We never did any of those things we said we were going to do. It was all talk. What a schmuck. It was all his fault. I can’t believe I was stupid enough to love such a low-life hairy ball of earwax.” Let out anger in healthy ways with juicy revenge fantasies.

6. Stage 6 - DEPRESSION: “I have no one to go to brunch with anymore. And if I did, I’d rather stay in my bed and eat Chunky Monkey.” If the despair is unbearable or leads to suicidal thoughts, don’t wait to get professional help. Get it now.

7. Stage 7 - UNDERSTANDING: “I learned so much from him and I’m really glad I’m not dating him anymore. I guess we weren’t meant to be together.” Ahh, we are seeing the light.

8. Stage 8 – ACCEPTANCE: “He was not perfect but neither was I. We were meant to be together for the time we were together.” Now bring on the other fish in the sea. I’m fabulous!” You go girlfriend.

"quotes"

"....men believed that pressures of time and stress at work were to blame for their forgetfulness." -Liang Min, Dare magazine, October 2005 issue

"..."If you cared about me enough, you would have remembered." It's very hard for us men to deal with the "If you cared enough" argument because the concept of forgetting an anniversary often does not, in our own scheme of logic, equate to us not caring." -Liang Min, Dare magazine, October 2005 issue

"We men, on the other hand. care about YOU, not the date. The date to you, could be the memorable moment when you knew he was the one. But to many of us, that date will be just another Tuesday. Sorry, but many guys don't think anniversaries are that big of a deal, ...." -Liang Min, Dare magazine, October 2005 issue

Got those quotes from Dare magazine, October 2005 issue. Girls, take note of those things. We should understand our guys. Like my guy, he is one of those as the above. I have got to understand those things and sometimes I just had to resort to make him remember our dates or whatever due to his forgetfulness but at times, we just have to understand their situations.

Compromise.

Heaven

Ayumi Hamasaki's Heaven is so nice. It's also the soundtrack to the movie Shinobi.

Anyway, felt a little sleepy today but I didnt oversleep today. I woke up on time to go to work and as always, took time to choose what to wear. Haha!!
As the surprise-surprise that tj wants to give me, I knew it was nothing but, I guess, well... I dyed my hair blue-black, and he dyed his hair brown! And with his outfit todae and hairstyle, he's realli realli sexy & gorgeous. Can I use gorgeous for a guy? He looks realli like a "big brother" of a bike gang. Haha!! At one point, he changed his hairstyle and it was realli ugly that it makes him look like an ah beng siak! I insisted he redo his hairstyle. Thank god for me keeping hair wax at work. But, mine not de harden one la.

Okay, Im loving tatu's All About Us. So what's about Lesbians? Haha!!

Free preview to a movie tomorrow, Domino. Keira Knightley. Yes ah!

Go bath now.... 10.30pm got American Next Top Model.

Kingdom of Heaven

I've finally watched it. And until now, Jerusalem is still in war. People are still fighting over Jerusalem. Christians, Jews, Muslims. I mean, what are with those people? Can't they just live in peace in one land and in harmony?

I hope those statemens won't put me in trouble though.

tempted to touch - rupee

started my childish-jealousy-boredom-moody self again 2dae. tj looking realli japanese but i love the style.

wore the gundam seed destiny tee dt he gave me.

i forgot to bring a jacket.

lil bit of de dye fell on my t-shirt and stained it. thank god it's a lil bit. tj spotted them. well, i knew it would happened.

Moon Child

When I got back home last night, Moon Child was on Channel U. I've always wanted to watch that movie. 2 reasons. Japanese rockers, Hyde of L'Arc En~Ciel was in it and GACKT! oh yeah! They were great. It was sad.... They died in the end. It's realli. Oh boy. Hyde, he was kinda soft and Gackt, I heard him spoke Chinese in the Dohmoto Brothers show before but he could speak more. I want to watch it again cz I missed the 1st hour.....

Oh, tj got his haircut in Japan and damn nice siak! Like Joe Odagiri!

Off to work now. Woke up late. Well, watched the move until like 2.30am. Realli long siak the movie.

ouch!

had flu vaccination jab today. i was scared. yup! after a long time of no needles poking into my skin for 10yrs, i've become scared of needles. a nurse was hugging me and stroking me hair and asked me what i like and stuff to cool me down. a sissy i am lil bit, i almost cried. hehe!!! paisey!
everybody there, incl. the HR ppl were laughing at me.

my baby's back. yeah! he got a damn cool haircut! love it. been bothering him to cut and now finally he did. he got me an poster of an original drawing, drawn by an artiste of a brand AN A & an original Gundam Seed Destiny t-shirt. It's nice. funny thg, he asked me if it's ok. I mean, de
gifts he got. were they enough. he still have some keychains he said. asked me if i wnt. haha!! they're nt realli nice though but, de t-shirts enough. am gonna wear it tomorrow... hehe!!!

dyed my hair blue-black de other night. de smell of Garnier's hair dyes realli kills me. oh boy! de smell is still on me hair now. Although i've washed my hair few times. & de next day....

I had science (phy/chem) practical exam. Oh boy! my first time. How do I feel?
Nervous, of course.
I even though of not going. Even thought of not coming. Thought of being absent. But, I did not. I went. I reached Orchid Park Sec, I walked to the reporting class and went to the lab and there I am, seated at the right hand corner of de front desk. All alone. De table behind me was empty. Beside me, empty. No one. Loads of them didnt turn up. Oh well. Later, after awhile, the invigilator wrote on the board, "Pls take note that everybody are to be quarantined until 1.30pm after the exam."... I though, yeah right. Thank goodness I brought my book cuz my fren warned me about the quarantined.
Over in the hall where a whole lot of us, private students and students of Orchid Park were quarantined, I chat up with a girl. Well, she kinda followed me as she was alone. So, instead of just reading my book, I chat her up. She didnt bring any books or wateva. So, we chatted all de way until 12.30pm. After that, I buried meself into my book.
When time's up, i hurriedly went to get my handphone. Poor little things they are, kept in envelopes and stuff into plastic bags. those gadgets look like plastic toys bought from the market.
As I got mine, there were 3 missed calls and 1 sms. Hehe!! It was my tj.

Slept all de way once I got home and off to maths class after that.

It was a cold day and a cooling night.

coMing bacK woRk tmR. aiyah.

hopes for the best, huh?

somehow, my boredom-ness is here again. Not that I don't have anything to do. I do. But, I feel like as if i'm at the point of limitations. I'm too stupid to think like that. I feel so tire out of doing anything. I feel that I do not have any motivations to do anything anymore. I feel tired of just moving and nothing's change.
Stupidly, I'm basically saying all that to myself. I whined to myself that I'm hopeless ad I poor those people who kept on encouraging me. I am so sorry everybody. I hope by saying this, I'm not letting those people down. Because right now, I am really really trying my best.

Well, went on MC today. Had gastric. I guess, I am a gastric queen now. Sigh. I don't feel motivated to go back to that current workplace of mine too. It's too sickening to be there. The people just suck and all they want to do is just help themselves to the gossips and stupid untrue news. Erm, isnt that gossiping too?
One would just be too busy creating rumors and spread them non-stop and embarras others when he didnt know that he's actualli hurting that person's feelings while when people actualli do the same to him, he feel fucked up that he wants to screw that person up & down. Well, I think it's uselss because a person like him is useless and I wish I could screw him up & down. Well, actualli i've sabo-ed him once when I made him go to the conference room, meeting up face to face wth a customer and the big shots. Ha ha ha!!! That was hilarious. I've not done that for a long time.
I'm feeling rather eekiness right now. I'm having migraines too nowadays which really is bothering me. I guess, I've had enough sleep for the day and would like to feel fresh for the next and next and next days. Gotta be ready for the following papes which I need to be acquaintance with.

I wish I could speak Japanese, in all dialects of course, I wish I could... you know, maybe I should just stay in one corner until I found a bottle with a genie in it and than i would rub it and than de genie would come out and than it would grant me 3 wishes.

Hahaha!!! Stupid people only will think stupid things like that. Don't you think so?

I really need to think things through. Sigh. I'mm too busy day-dreaming and night-dreaming!

Siti! Wake up!

Everything's so difficult. People say so easy but it is so hard! You know! It's like you got an egg and the shell is so hard to crack that you get so frustrated. And when you could finally crack it open, there's already a chick inside it.

I'm babbling nonsense again.

Seriously, I'm just tired. I'm just giving useless and stupid excuses and I'm just practicalli, plain lazy.

Conclusion.

Cold as in a "cold feeling"

i guess, "call you back later" means "see you tomorrow". i really gotta remember that now. somehow, i'm kinda tired. waiting and understanding, waiting and understanding, waiting and understand.

Went back to work today. Really not in the mood. It was cold. The office was cold. Hate it when it's cold.

spoilt

does being rich means you have to be a spoilt-brat? does being rich means you could say whatever you want? does being rich means you could do whatever you want?

if those are what being rich means, I rather not. Because, whatever you do to other people, the same thing might happen to you too. Don't you think?

But, if watching Rich Kids: Cattle Drive is a sin, then I'm sorry because I'm hook on it.

Seeing those bitches and jack-asses on the mountain trying to get those herds moving are really fun!
I think that Fabian is hot and Noah Blake is suave... haha!!

I'm crazy.

I need a break. Again!

mine, isnt it?

i don;t remember you helping with the stool. think frst before you talked, is that okay? im asking nicely.

anyway, if it's my room, than it's my room you're seeing.

mine, isnt it?

i find it sickening. all they know is just talked. they don't help but they just talked.

okay, so, they can't help due to certainties. so, okay, i keep quiet but why must they talked? i mean, shut up! it's my room! if you are going into my room, than you're going to see my room! i don't care anymore. and since when did you help with the tools? i don't remember you doing it. think first before you talk. i've been keeping quiet all this while, so, you keep quiet too!

moBlog

try it. after awhile, i have finally figure it out! thanks to my stupidity, it
took me a week to figure out how to actualli to moblog.

haha!! don't you know it's kinda cool to blog without a laptop or a pc or wateva but onli with just
ur handphone. of course, you might need those plans with lots of SMSes and MMSs.

haha!! check it out... moblog.com.sg

check out mine...

Still hurts

i dn knw why but im feeling rather tired. im feeling veri veri tired that i had a nap this afternoon. i was having a heavy headache and i even felt cold. nearing to break fast time, mom woke me up. once i could consume food, i took 2 panadols and had my break fast right after that.

i've been in front of my pc since then. watching Naruto (catching up you know), The O.C., somehow that new guy looks kinda cute. And then now, watching Bleach (catching up you know). I also had pancake and egg just now. And now I feel like having curry.

Maybe I'll cook some little curry for meself. Hehe...

brain~freeze

im back. from the freezing genting highland.

never knew it was so damn cold until we reached there. went on 5th Oct '05. it was raining heavily when i was gg to de designated pick up point. it was raining heavily badly that i came up with a fre alternative movements on how to get to toa payoh. in de end, i took a feeder bus to yishun mrt and took train from there. to avoid getting wet much. when fida came to meet me, she was wet. oh boy! got onto the bus at abt 6.45am and off we go to genting at 7am. there were hassles no hustles. the custom chekpoints were amazingly empty. happening.

we were asleep in the bus all de way in the journey. yup! and only to find out later that I do not have auto-roam. so, with fida's help, i called mom and then starhub and got my auto-roam activated. it was a blessing cz tj called me few hours later. it was a lovely sound to hear after a very long journey which we still have wait another few hours b4 getting to genting. when we got there, it was cold. veri veri cold. veri cold like when i was in my office. but colder and the air was fresher. anyway, when we got to First World Hotel to check-in, to our another surprise, there was not many peeple and we do not need to queue. Just when I got my number to go to the check-in counter, Fida was already at the counter, calling out to me to be hurry cuz our number was alreadi called.
Haha!! madness! Got into our room 10 mins later and yeah! it was at de 10th floor and it's not veri high! yeah! When we got into our room, de room was a standard one. It was small as before but this time the toilet they're separated.
What I mean is that, toilet bowl another room and shower another room. And the sink, outside. Well, talking about a cheap trip. At least, you got a place to stay, right? we laid down in our beds, get under our blankets, turned on the tv and watch th brazilian drama. or isit spanish? now that I think of it. But I still think it's a brazilian drama. after that, continued to Thailand drama. Haha!! The Thailand drama sucks actualli. There were alot more music and their story and the way they act were funny. Anyway, went for karaoke after that. Singing and screaming songs after songs, I received a sore throat after that.
With the 4 drinks that we got, Fida had to finished up de 3 ice-lemon teas while I filled up my water bottle with another one more cup left. And the titbits, i packed the rest of them for break fast. By the time we got out, it's 6.30pm. while we were walking back to first world, we found a rainbow which looks so damn nice. had Marrybrown for break fast. the vegetable salad is so damn nice. I thought I wanted to take de coleslaw but i saw vegetable salad, so i took it and fida tot it was nice too. Haha!! Went around for a little shopping. Got meself a flowery shirt. Than after some other browsings, went over to Starbucks to chill. Haha!! funny thing is, because the weather was really chilling, we got too chilled. What de hell am I babbling? I bought meself, instead a hot cup of coffee, I got Espresso Frap. Haha!! And a Tuna Tom Yam Danish pastry. It was so nice cause the pastry was so hot and eating it in the cold weather was so nice. After that, of back to our room, showered and rest. Not really rest but, talk and watch tv and jz lie down in our bed til we lost in our dreams.

The next morning, I quickly woke fida up as I need to go sahur. it was alreadi 5am and i didnt knw that the macdonalds was on 24 hours, so, instead we went to first worl cafe and wasted RM21 on their little servings food. Sigh. Got back to our room and back to sleep. Woke up at late afternoon. Went to get our movie tickets and than start wondering what to do next. Walked and walked, we ended ourselves in the arcade. the only place where we sweat ourselves out.
Haha!! I asked fida along to play that drum things and my sticks were bad, it was broken. when i tried fida's, it was too hard. haha!! played some games and after that, i asked fida to teach me how to play pool. And so, off we were to play pool. I did okay in pool. I cant say that i suck at it cz it was my 1st time playing. fida was a nice teacher, she was a patient one. haha!! i practiced
and practiced and in de end we played and we stayed in there until like 6pm. we continued walking around before finding a place for break fast. my decision again, so off we go to Pizza Hut. spent like RM74 there. Packed back our pizzas and desert. Went around to get some other stuffs needed, than off to Starbucks again for coffee and than off to our room for our beds and tv. Yeah! At 11pm, we got out and off to our movie. FlightPlan. It's a damn good movie. I bet dad will get the dvd. Well, de most will rent it. The movie's good. The cinema was a warming place. If there's no hotel in genting, i would sneak meself into that cinema theatre and sleep in there. Went to MacD to get some food for earli sahur but instead, I just got a cup if coffee only. Went back to our room after that.
Can't sleep. More tv. CSI Miami, CSI Vegas, Alias, malay dramas and than, Love's Labour's Lost. Seem like a nice movie. Almost to 4am, Fida still can't sleep, dragged her along to macD with me to get some food. I got meself a cup of coffee again and McEgg. After that, tried to sleep but still can't. Few hours later, forced meself to sleep and yeah, I did. Woke up de next morning, showered, prepared to go back but instead of checking out at 12 noon, we checked out later. I wanted to leave at 2pm bt fida says after the malay drama (that we were watching).
We got out after that, leaving the keys in the room, which we thought is a big problem but apparently it's not. so, off we go to the arcade, to redeem back our RM3. but, we both have RM1 left. So, one last game and got our RM3 back.

Haha!! Walked around again and than off to the coach bay to wait for our bus. Our bus were approximately 40-50 mins late. It was freezing. It was raining so damn heavily that the fog was surrounding us. When we saw de bus arriving, we were 2 happy people. Hoping that it'll be warmer inside but no! It was still cold. So, we just drowned ourselves in our sleep. Hurting our backs and legs.

Got to Lucky Garden around 7.30pm. I had fishball noodle and cup corn and fried tuna sandwich. Nice! It was fulling. When I got back home, I wasn't in the mood to talk or anything. All I did was just showered and than, SLEEP! Pixs of our trip here.

With You+

it's de 1st dae of fasting month. Happy Fasting Month to all Muslims out there. Have fun!

That sounds like I'm mocking people le. So bad! Well, dont take de wrong idea, because im not.

Anyway, got some stuffs I need to carry for my trip later. I never thought my luggage could be light. And i didnt know that i have a big bag that can act as a luggage. hehe!! i guess i have too much bags stuffed under the wardrobe. but i guess my luggage's gonna be heavier when i come back later.

a man was scolded by de bus driver. he ran into de bus by de back exit. de driver called out to him and got him to come forward. the passenger just kept on saying sorry and gave an excuse that de bus wants to run off and he was trying to catch on it. de driver told him off fo doing that because that is not the right way.
sigh.
some people really ar... si-beh kiasi.

im feeling hot. realli hot. it's de 5th alreadi. if my calculation is right, i'll be having it by end of this week. well, i just need to be prepared.

2 more hours to waking de others up.

hmm.... what other animes should i watch?

there're still loads. or, should I go and take a rest?

miss you ~da

kill me

woke up like 6am in the earli morning. but still laid in bed all the way til 8am. woke up, showered, went out to SGH and waited for hours for my turn to see the doctor. The nurse was starting to guide me on how to change to the x-ray gown but I told I knew the procedure and so she went on guiding the other patient. After that, waited for like an hour.
After that, off to Bukit Merah for lunch. Had chicken rice. The kai lan, seems like i was eating them aLone. Serious! Onli when it's finishing, dad took some. I mean, it was like just like in front of him all de time bt he didnt took it.
Anyway, off to Ikea after that and got my rack and yammie's bed. I was okay with anything and didn't bother much cuz I can't realli have my room designed or arranged my own way.
After that, mom and ad headed off to town while I headed down to sim lim square and oh boy! I didn't know that Burlington Square was just beside it! I didn't know. & I didn't know there was a nearer bus-stop to take 851. But oh well, at least I get to walk down the blackstreet market, just in case I might find something interesting down there.
In the bus, I was asleep all the way. As I walked home, yammie was walking out. She going for training. Yup! I think.

Right now. I'm bored. I am so bored.

I guess you are really busy. Sometimes I don't understand just why a little phonecall would cause you much trouble. Is it really so troublesome that it might kill you? Will something just comes out from the phone and attacks your eardrums?
Am I realli such a nuisance to you?

goodnight people.

open letters

i found a piece of paper which me and me fren communicated through once while we were studying at amk's mcdonald.

seriously i'm kinda sleepy

have you seen new mcr video?

bf company gfs to study ar??

i think it is la!

seriously, do you want to move on to a park?

they're trying to cheer hr up but seems like they knw they're wasting their time.

The any /*-+. the other guy then the girl sitting beside me only. wow like soap opera like that.

actually, de girl beside you went off jz nw feeling fed-up. than de office guy ask, "so stress meh?". they thought she go toilet but de other gal say no than all go look for her. leaving de one guy. so poor! haha!!
@ least de office guy is helping out now.

it's so funny to see de boyfriends companying the girlfrenz & looking bored! ha ha ha! if my boyfren is here, he'll be torturing us & giving us chemistry questions!!! eek!

there are 2 boys & 2 girls each. What d'you thk?
one's bz with dinner. one hopelessly playing with the handphone.
if frenz, they could study together. but one guy seems like jz cm back from work!

no la i think they just frenz. they like no chemistry together. .. haha// no really like not touchy touchy like that. then the other guy from work just extra!!

of course no touchy touchy la! siao!

but seriously no chem like that. hai don't know la. why don't you just ask them. now STUDY!!

in the end he's all ALONE!!!

Over

seriously, here i am wondering and thinking and what are you doing? i know you too well but it's like i wnt to know more of you. i bet there are more than what you are right now. but, don't you want to know me more? well, actually you know too well. too very well. you know what my heart says, you could read my face and my mind. you could just know everything. i hate it sometimes but if u dn, i'll miss it.
tell me, where are you now?

my goodness!

I am worth $1,064,000 on HumanForSale.com

questionz/quizzes

Your Japanese Name Is...

Midori Sato

What's your Japanese
Name?

Your French Name is:

Dominique Allaire

What's Your French
Name?

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog. You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head. Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent. You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

What's
Your Blogging Personality?

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People
See You?

You're an Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

What Kind
of Kisser Are You?

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You tend to take more than give in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

jessica! jessica!

i wonder if any of you remember. In the Newly Weds, Jessica Simpson was eating tuna and he was asking Nick if she was eating chicken or fish, when she knows that she's eating tuna. She was asking Nick that because the brand that packs the tuna fish is called "Chicken by The Sea". So, while I saw this one advertisement (a new Salmon Steak by Ayam Brand), it kinda got me thinking. Are there any girls, girlfriends or wifes, when they eats the tuna fish out of Ayam Brand, would they ask their boyfriends of husbands if it's actualli fish or chicken, although they know that it's tuna [fish].

you get what i mean?

p/s {to all of u who dn knw Malay,} "Ayam" means "Chicken".

1 mth rehaB

i slept at 3am in the morning on thursday. slept onli 3hrs, woke up at 6am and went off to work. at work, i had severe headaches for the whole dae. pLus, the aircon and the weather were too coLd and i just couldnt take it. by the end of the day, i resort to 2 tablets of panadol and became a zombie. skipped school and head home straight. stopped by a coffee shop and bought mee goreng. when i got back, i ate de mee goreng, had a shower and by 8.30pm, i had fallen into a deep deep deep sleep. yes. a sleep that is so deep that i didnt even realise that people had been into my room.

on friday, work was oKay. I tried to maintain my cheerfulness after a meeting session. it was frustrating and oh boy, it realli makes my blood boil. was suppose to meet out with nana but she couldnt make it. and dt night, i went out to Rudy's solemnization. Rudy and his wife did a small ceremony. Francis got his car out. Picked up tj from work and than came down to pick me up and off we go to Woodlands. And when we got to woodlands, i was non-stopping talking about going to eat seafood in JB. haha!! Wouldn't it be cool.
When we got to Rudy's place, tj and francis felt a litle awkward but thank goodness for them, i was there to make them feel easy and comfy. After the photo-taking with Rudy and wife, off to home we went. Hehe!!!
Wanted to try and create dvd but I was too tired. So, I just create data discs and off to bed after that. Oh, I was having my detoxing tea while burning the disc. So nice. So Sweet.

This morning, woke up at 6am, my handphone's alarm went on. I forgot to reset it earlier. So, I got up to turn it off and took the phone by me. I tried o go to sleep but I couldnt. Need to go toilet and wewe. Later, about half an hour later, off to the toilet again to detoxicate. Before, smsed tj good morning. hehe!! When I went back to bed, tj replied asking why woke up so earli.... haha... later, he offered to go over to his office to study since i was looking for a place to study. so, i got up, wash my face, brush my teeth, went for a run, came back, relax, watch anime and than showered and than off i go.
When I reached, there was onli tj and francis. they were expecting me. hehe!! it was cool to be the both of them. They're cool! i kept a low proFile to be there. don't want to show my face around much. so, i was in the office almost the whole time. other than that, i was just off to the toilet, gone to the canteen to buy food and also off to buy coffee for meself and de 2 guys.
5+pm, went off. Went out with tj. it's been a long time. didnt manage to get my rechargeable AAA batts, bt since tj's going tmr, i ask him if he could stop by to get them for me. haha!!
shasha dear transferred back my $20.20 to my account.

Haha!!

it's so funny. I didnt know how to transfer money and she taught me how. my colleague taught me too. than, when i transferred for the 1st time, i actualli transferred to her onli $0.20. like what de fuvk! haha!!! funni siak, i quickly went back to de atm and transferred de $20 to her.

haha!!

i love you aLL pPL! am gonna have some hot miLo nw and change.... before that, wash my hair!

So TRUE!

Modern inventions have speeded up people's lives amazingly. Motor-cars cover a hundred miles in little more than an hour, aircraft cross the world inside a day, while computers operate at lightning speed. Indeed, this love speed seems never-ending. Every year motor-cars are produced which go even faster and each new xomputers boasts of saving precious seconds in handling tasks. Then there is the speed with which we access information wherever we are. Pocket computers and mobile phones enable us to log on to news or contact our friends in seconds, even from some mountain tops.

All this saves time, but at a price. When we lose or gain half a day in speeding across the world in an aeroplane, our bodies tell us so. We get the uncomfortable feeling known as jet-lag; our bodies feel that they have been eft behind in another time zone. Again, spending too long at computers results in painful wrists and fingers. Mobile phones also have their dangers, according to to some scientist; too much use may transmit harmful radiation into our brains, a consequence we do not like to contemplate.

Out behaviour, also, has felt the impact of modern technology. people seem to be in a rush, and increasingly impatient. Automatic doors on the lifts never open quickly enough for us and we tap our feet impatiently if our computers take an extra few seconds to access information on the internet. Even some of our clothes reflect this impatience, for we need to acquire the right 'look' as quickly as possible. Who wants to wear denim jeans as stiff as tin when you can uy them pre-washed, pre-faded and pre-patched at the knees?

The obsession with saving time results in many people trying to imitate computers in an effort to handle several taskes simultaneously - multi-tasking, as it is called. They talk to somebody on the telephone, listen to somebody else nearby, and look at a computer screen, all at the same time. Frequently, the efficiency of their work suffers. Speed of thinking , too, is often confused with intelligence itself. The student who takes pains to weigh up a question before answering will not be considered as smart as those who snap their fingers and glibly claim they know he answer.

However, what we do with the time we saved? Certainly not relax, or so it seems. We re so accustomed to constant activity that we find it difficult to si and d nothing, or even just one thing at a time. Perhaps the days are long fone when we might listen quietly to a story on the radio, letting imagination take us into another world.

There was a time when some people's lives were devoted simplu to the cultivation of the land or the care of cattle. No multi-tasking there; their lives proceeded at a much gentler pace, and in a familiar pattern. There is much that we might envy about a way of life like this. Yet before we do so, we must think of the hard tasks our ancestors faced: they farmed with bare hands, often lived close to hunger, and had to fashion tools from wood and stone. Modern machinery has freed people from that primitive existence.

Technology has also made work in factories far less tedious, with machines performing the dull, repititive taks previously carried out by human hands. The computer, too, has brought major advantages in printing processes. No longer has each individual letter of every word to be set by hand in wooden blocks, ready for the printing press to 'read'. Such is the speed of a computer printer that an author can out the finishing touches to a book and see it printed on the same day. The motor-car has been blamed for its polluting effects and its demands for more and more roads, but it has banished the time-consuming and uncomfortable journeys endured in horse-drawn vehicles.

Despite the hold that speed has on out lives, its attractions are beginning to dwindle. Countries have abandones thoughts of ultra-fast, supersonic passenger aeroplanes, and shaving minutes off journeys by road does not win the approval of society as a whole. Possibly the world's long fascination with seed is finally ending.

F-U-G-L-Y

i might bt bad-mouthing some ppl in here today. why? because i feel like. why? i guess im feeling kinda grumpy today because i slept like about 3am because i was like studying all night and because i don't feel sleepy maybe because of the coffee i drank at kfc earlier. but maybe la, i might be dissing off some people. i don't know. if it comes to mind, it'll be in it.

i wore the wrong t-shirt yesterdae. i was feeling kinda slacky de past few days and been trying to look slacking but eventualli it turned out to be a disaster. i just couldnt wake up earli. my handphone died on that when my fren actualli woke me up, i couldnt feel de vibration of my phone and the tone that comes out from it when the sms came in. i was still sleeping. but dad woke me up. i even took the time to turn on the pc before i head off for work and it was alreadi like 7.30pm and i was like still slacking and tj was like messaging me why i'm still at home and im like he he he and im like dazed off after that.
as usual, after work, went off to hang out with tj and de rest in the office. listening to the same old stories over and over again almost brought me to sleep. well, for awhile, it did. but the voices of their loudness. eh! or the loudness of their voices? kinda woke me up, so i was like poking and tickling him. he pulled me ear and it was red and it was hot and i couldnt take it. 6.30pm. i was off and i was all aLone. i hate being aLone. but sometimes, we need to be aLoNe.

Studying in KFC was bad. It was so damn cold. it was cold cold cold. yup! it was. i didnt bring any jacket and i ended up finishing the 3 chickens faster thatn i thought and even bought a cup of coffee. stayed in there for like 3-4 hours almost, i thk.

Went on home straight, showered, the weather was coLd. I was reaLLi coLd. went on my pc and found a downloaded file missing! Did deleted it? Move it? I did not. I did search both automatically and physically but I just couldn't find it! Wonder where it goes? Hmm... Don't tell me the Ghost Bug has into my pc? I hope im not scaRing any people right now. But, is there a bug called 'Ghost'? If there is, let me knw pLs.
Oh weLL, i redownload the same file again and continue with watching Mean Girls. I don't want to spoil my mood, so, I watch Mean Girls. The movie was really mean and I realli love it.
Wanted to sleep after that, but I couldnt. So, I studied. and I studied and studied and that's how I end up sLeeping at 3am.

And that's de story goes. haha!! Siti siao aLreadi.

Came to work like normaL. kiNda earLi. found out tj came earLi too. so, went dwn to visit. he gave a comment on my looks today and i felt good. but i dn feel good. i was so damn tired that my head is aching and i feel like i cant eat or drink anything all. Others see me saying i look veri tired. earLi morning aLreadi got people pissed me off. Mike was de same concerning question. Hehe. luv him. he's so cute.
another person pissed me off again duRing teaBreaK. Me not happy, pLus me not feeLing good. So, i took off. calling out to him was hopeLess. they were too busy having fuN. I took off and off i go to my desk.
right now, at this very moment as i typed out all these every single words, im having a major headache. well, not realli major la. but like minor la but nt so minor la. so, ok ok la.
when jennifer came from making her IC, she asked me if i've done anything to my hair. a Girl from FinaNce asked me de very same question and practicalli, i've not done anything to my hair! I simply jz wet my hair, didnt comb it or brush it. i jz spray it a little with the After Wax Spray and that's it. my hair's having de messy look and i love it. and ppl insisted that I did something to it. It was frustrating having the same question over and over again when im feeling grumpy.
plus, de shipping guy. he knows how to print but he dont knw what to do when his printing goes wrong. im sick and tired of helping him. fuck him. he uses printers for more thatn 13 years in the company and he knows nothing? i wonder how does his shipping partners help him then.

right now, the grumpiness and the headacheness and that laziness and the hungryness are all in one together. but I don't feel like eating at all. I don't feel like doing anything at all. im trying to concentrate on my work for awhile but i hate it when im concentrating on doing something, someone else will come and distracts me. fuck that!

i love you all. muacks!

my day is de dae

it feels like i've got the break i wanted but then again, feels like don't think so.

slept earli last night. got up in de middle of the night for toilet break. it was 3am and i found mom not sleeping. said she couldnt sleep and got up again. got to know she went back to sleep 30mins later. i was alreadi in bed by then. caught a glimpse of daylight at 10am but went back to sleep but 1 and half hour later, dad woke me up. he and mum were off to a wedding-under-void-deck. i got up after that.
brush my teeth, was my face, turn on de pc and watch The OC. continued on to make breakfast ad watch Ghost In The Shell SAC 2nd Gig. conitnued watching til dad came back. He did the vaccuming while i ran off to my room to do some notes. dad came to my room and vaccumed it while i continued back to de pc and watch my anmes. yammie went out and me parents went off for their naps. me had me lunch and now that's alreadi in the late afternoon, erm, evening alreadi, im gonna go shower and than off to my room. Maybe I'll sleep for awhile oh I'll just continue doing my notes.

Somehow, it feels as if I've got my breaks but then again, I don't think so.

drooPy

seriousli, i am feeling rather tired this few weeks. not enuff sleep? i don't know. it seems to be enuff. but i am damn tired and sleepy all dae.

had some awesome days and non awesome days.

i wonder when's the renovationz gg to finish. sigh. im sick and tired of it. i cant be home and have some quietness. but although i do get the quietness at work, i cant lie down and sleep. why? because i'm at work la! idiotiK.

wore a shirt to work after so long and i look kinda good. he he.... went to airport with fida dear. got her to bring me to Popeye and oh boy, the chickens were good. damn good. it's funny that we talked and talked, especially me, but once i got the chicken, we were quiet. i was silent.

haha!!

once i got back home, caught dad and mom watching Seven Swords. dad bought the dvd. Maybe I'll catch it tonight. After I had my shower, I didnt delay any minute, I just hit off to dreamland. it feels so good lying down in my bed, sunken in, hugging my pillow, the cold wind from my window blowing in.
morning woke up, gone to High St Centre and I tell you, it sucks. The 1st interview ever that sucks. Im not gonna work there. Even if they call me.
Straight off to work after that. Got to work, lazed around for awhile and than off for lunch. Although the big boss bought lunch for us, we still went dwn cz, me and sebas were too hungry. We ate the main, and than, went back up to have our 2nd meal, KFC. the chickens were satisfying but oh boy, chickens, 2 days in a row. Realli full man! not onli me, but Hasni too. Oh Boy! We could barely walk.

I need my detoxicating tea!!!

Haha!!

I ended work at 5pm and off back home straight. I just couldnt make my stop to anywhere else but just home. I miss my pc. I need to download some things, and I do get some message from yammie. Yes gaL, me downloading now. 2 & 3. Doing some laudries too now.

Eyes, rub rub rub....

everybody sing aLong to Boulevard of Broken Dream now! YEAH!

''oik! u havent call me le

bargains

work was okay overall. he he... i feel okay. had dinner with maryann after work and oh boy thanks to her going into the giordano bazaar sale, i got meself buying 2 pair of pants which costs S$15 each. well, i've never bought a pair or pannts less than $20. Well, maybe others have but me not. pLus, de last time i bought a pair of pants was like err, last yr? yup! the S&K jeans. still wearing them.
Went to Muji and bought a shirt too. Than i remembered, I had a St Micheal light purple shirt. Hmm, wonder where it goes?

time of your life

i was wondering what the hell tj was calling me todae. onli jz nw i know. he was calling me Gara. the character fron Naruto. why? cz I had my reddish-purple eyeliner on me. haha!! I thought I put on de black one than i'll be call Gara. But nope.

Well, whatever.

Feeling kinda sleepy right now. It's windy and raining heavily outside. Sickeningly good weather to sleep in ut too bad! Im at work. I was called for an interview but I can't make it. Maybe tomorrow. So, I should be able to make it tomorrow. Hehe!!

What should I wear tomorrow than?

casts: sarah, karin, tim, dick, harry, paul, sean.

sarah sounds like in a good mood todae. whatever karin thinks, she don't care anymore. the guys are busy with the crates and other packing stuffs. oh boy!
karin feels like she's in a good mood today but she's kinda sleepi. she feels good too but her company somehow blew her down. well, that's what she felt.

wo-wa!! XD

dad woke me up today. it's either he himself wants to wake me up of mom might have asked him to wake me up. he he!! i've been waking up late de pass 2 days. i dn knw wt's wrong with me. tj was not happy with me skipping skl yesterdae.
but i had a blast yesterdae at home. i mn, it's like de whole gang are back together online. one by one came in (thanks to me adding them into our conversation). i was a bit too outspoken he he. sorrie abt that *winks to nana*. anyway, later, one by one left.

it was a cooling night last night. there were lightnings and thunders and red clouds and strong wind but in the end, never rain. but the cold wind stays.
and me, sleeping by de window, didnt turn on de fan but stays under de blanket all night.

anway,
casts: sarah, karin, tim, dick, harry , paul, sean.

karin came to work kinda 4 mins late while sarah came in later around 20 mins later. tim, dick and harry were not ard to be seen as always in de earli morning. than tim came in, as fast as could, he got out of the office. dick came in, shouting about. he ran out of the office as fast as he could after that. harry appeared. he start working as always, packing the things that he needs to pack. paul stays at his cubicle to finish up his project. no one disturbs him and he doesnt want to be disturb. sean went off to find tim.
sarah called out to harry to help her issue some things to the other dept. as always, dick appeared to help too but disappers after everything were done. things went back to normal. karin sits at her desk doing her reports while karin do her own things as well.

teabreak time. tim came in, looking for harry. both of them than hand in hand went off to the toilet to pee, wash their hands, brag about like old womens. sean joined them later.
in canteen, karin sat down with other colleagues, not joining her usual company. she looks around and found sarah joining tim, paul and sean. well, as expected, the guys were avoiding her.

starts work again as normal. everybody back to their own desks, to their own cubicles, to their own minds. sarah kept on eyeing karin, making sure she was doing her job. well, karin did but at de same time, she was gg thru some websites and applying for jobs. oops!

afternoon teabreak, karin went off to find her company. got her drink and sarah was looking at her, staring at her while she start lighting her cigarette and drinking her hot cup of coffee. karin couldnt be bothered by sarah. she follows her company off to the corner to have a nice chat with the other colleagues.

Rise - Origa [Ghost In The Shell S.A.C. 2nd Gig]

I'm a soldier, znachit ya I otvyetchik i sud'ya Ya stoyu na dvukh kontsakh ognya Ogibaya virazhi, obgonyaya smyert' i zhizn' Ya byegu srazit'sya s tyen'yu lzhi

skol'ko b nityey nye plyol obman pokazhyet lik svyeta istina

Save your tears for the day when our pain is far behind on your feet come with me we are soldiers stand or die

Save your fears take your place save them for the judgement day fast and free follow me time to make the sacrifice we rise or fall

I'm a soldier, born to stand in this waking hell I am witnessing more than I can compute

pray myself we don't forget lies, betrayed and the oppressed please give me the strength to be the truth

people facing the fire together if we don't, we'll lose all we have found

Za myechtoyu nakray propasti Lish' tol'ko tak mozhno mir spasti

Ty nye plach', Slyozy spryach', Ved' nastanyet novyy den' Tvoy ogon' Sogryevat' Budyet tysyachi syerdets A syeychas podnimis' Spryach' podal'shye bol' i strakh Pobyedit tot, kto prav Znay, chto vsyo v tvoikh rukakh

1st time heard this song, i like it. thought it was jap. but it's not. it's russian language. happening!

-Ghost Of You-

that's the title of My Chemical Romance new single. The video! Superb. I hate war movies. But the video follows my favorite war movie, Saving Private Ryan. Which was kinda stupid. Many dies cuz of one private. Anyway, the video, makes me cry. Why? War movies always makes me cry.

Go catch it people. It's nice. A superb one.

toilet bReaK

im feeling kinda like a zombie right now. i kept on rubbing my eyes since last night. especially my right eye. it's realli itching non-stop.

if i were to get sore eyes, it won't be itching right?

anyway, dt bitchy didnt talk much. she's back, yes. found out from sebastian about the morning fuck from her. haha. poor him. they seem to be abandoning her todae. bad ppl they are. haha.

i came in half-day. realli damn tired. i couldnt sleep well last night. by de time i woke up, it was 0700hrs and i decided to give it a pass. came in, settle down for awhile, met tj and hang out. it's nice. had mooncakes for the 1st meal of the dae. yup!

okay, im basicalli yawning non-stop. looks like when im home, i'll be on my bed. nope. most probably, in front of the pc watching Ghost In The Shell S.A.C. 2nd Gig. haha. de 1st 13 episodes are still downloading but i watch the others anyway. Donwloaded Pretty Cure, now I find the show kinda boring. Feels like it was a waste of time downloading them. Still waiting for Ghost In The Shell S.A.C. 1st Gig too. The OC 3 episode 2 doesnt seem to have any movement. Hopeless. Should I go back to the usual? Maybe I should. I'll give it a try at the other sites.

After work, gotta go to some watch shop and get mom's watch a new battery. Plus, want to take out one strip of the bracelet.

Sigh, I feel so gooey... I want to die. I wonder how Rach's doing right now? Has she thrown it yet? Has she done it yet? Has she make a movement yet? She's the best.

miss you da

good morning!

im up. yup! all bight and earli. haha. it's onli like 0140hrs earli wee morning. hehe. i fell asleep like 9pm jz nw cz i was too tired. bt de weather kinda woke me up. it was hot and my head was itching. so, i got up for a shower and dinner. yup, i woke up due to hungry too.

johnny bravo on tv now. eek! irritating. he and his mama!

im gonna continue watch tv now. let's see what time i'll go to sleep.

gd afternoon/evening/night

it has been a long time. a veri veri long time. what? it has been a veri long long time i've not woken up at 3pm. it's so late in the evening. later afternoon.
well, im having a nice feeling of course. bt not so good la als. having a little headache there. gonna drink coffee. coffee is the medicine of course. it goes thru with you when u're stress, when u're sad, when u're sick, when u're hot, when u're cold. coffee. coffee is de best thing ever in de world. it is the best.

waste my time preparing to go out but never mind. im cool. im gonna just stay in my room, turn on my tv nd tonight, gonna re-prepare my mp3 cd again. if onli i could create an atrac cd.

sickening!

a little late here, but Ashlee Simpson's Autobiography album is not bad.

=Could Strife+ my Luv_

i've striked off some of my photos there. cz of the linking problems, i havent been able to upload them yet again and find them a better space. hmm. i'll be re-uploading them up again as soon as possible.
there're gonna be new photos up too. taken wih my new samsung e630c. i hope to get that data cable as soon as possible and upload the photos.

i thk, coffee do wonders sometimes. i barely have a headache after drinking a cup of coffee.

watched Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. It was nice. I'm gonna get the dvd if it's out here. I'm gonna blast it on my dvd player. The sound was incredible. The story was incredible. It happened after the 2 yrs ago happening by Sephiroth. Thank goodness for feedback on de starting of the show. I guess those who played Final Fantasy VII knows what was going on. Well, I don't play the game, must be nice.

Wishing for a PS2 now. Well, PS3 is coming out.