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happy bdae to kak yaya.... radiah...? rhadiah...? radhiah..? i forgot how to actualli spell her name. bt she is known as YAYA!!! yaya!! muehehe~!! haPpy 19TH birtHdaY to her... my liL couz~ muackZ!!!

im so sleepy.... supposingly meet up sallyn bt didnt. change to tmr. went over to shidah's after work. i had.... waffles wif ice-cream & caramel toppings, grilled chickens with peppers, pizzas, fruit punchs and coffee wif carameL~ niCe right... yar! i so de full. it totally covers my lunch and dinner and supper. baby told me to be prepared for my training cz i gettin buLat aLreaDy. mom also said i getting de buLat liao. then ltr 14th gg out for makan again. Wah~*~

i so de tiRed... wnt to sLp ~ZZZZzzzzzz~~~***

missing you....

10yrs ago i had a surgery. and almost everyday, mom made me drink this tonic soup, made of ginseng and haruan. i knw dts de fish, haruan. but, i did not knw dt de english name for ikan haruan is.... Snake Head fish. knwing it now, i dn ever wnt another surgery. well, u cn use de fish to cook other dishes too la but, i aint gonna cook it.

mom bought me some small french breads, meat slices & cheese to make sandwich to bring to work. yay!
work has been good. although im still under training. at least, im doing good. still a new face at work, still getting acquaintant to some ppl there. found one veri friendly one, one veri soft one and others, still slowly slowly getting to knw. nothing major gg on yet bt still, im working good.
2dae, im feeling a lil kick in me. wonder wt got into me. i came to work, i went to de staff lounge for a hot cup of coffee, waited for de bell. started work after tt and teabreak time, i jz relax at de same corner. lunchtime, i went down to causeway pt, got mcd and ate while i walked back to de interchange to t8k bus back to work and i made it in time. jz 5mins b5 work starts. yay!
i didnt go for de evening teabreak as there were lots of work to do. i continued working and kept on looking at de time. tot of doing an hour OT bt i had to give way to my colleague for de measuring instrument i was using. and since i onli had little time wif baby today, i went off for dinner wif him at Siam Kitchen. de kway teow i ordered, whoa! HOT SIAK! baby said my face was turning red. bluekz!
had a little chat wif him for a little while b4 gg off.

came back to an empty apartment. well, mom was in de room bt ltr she went out to cold storage.
sigh... i think i better go turn in as for tomorrow i had to work.. BUT, after i transfer my mp3s... bluekz

1st time of de dae....

1st day of work. i like it de fact tt it's in woodlands. there are few buses tt goes there and de frequencies of de feeder are fast too. de onli thg is, i better don't late la. haha! yess! at work, 1st half of de day was just orientation and briefing. 2nd half of de day, sitting at my desk and reading up training books. all need for my knowledge. need to t8k note of them. onli manage to read 2 books. sigh.

after work, met baby at causeway where i went down to civic centre's library to return and look for a book on ms excel bt failed. went off to t8k photo after tt and off to al-ameen for dinner. called abang ipar down too. both me and abang were tired that our brains and and minds were whacking out. baby was de onli sane one there. haha. i wanted to ice-cream and abg ipar actualli went off to ntuc to get Deyrey's ice-cream. he said at 1st tt he'll buy and i cant choose. didnt knw he realli went to buy. he came back wif de big tub and it was Rocky Road. he said he wanted to get me something else bt dn hv. ltr, my milo shake also came. u knw how full i was... eating de ice-cream cz abang ipar wants me to eat it. hehe!!! THANK YOU ABANG IPAR! fed baby of my ice-creams. yup, on my milo shake also got ice-cream. nice right.

fell asleep on de way back tt baby had to send me back home, scaring tt i might miss my stop. mueehehe!! i wnt to t8k eat de ice-cream again.... ltr ar morning!
baby gg for blood test tomorrow. cant be with him and plus, it's his bdae....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!
MANY KISSES AND WISHES FOR YOU!!!!
INSYALLAH GOOD THINGS SHALL FALL UPON YOU!!!!

huNgRy

had an outing the other day. i was not feeling well. but i was surprised too. well mainly shocked but it was expected onli tt i never expected it to be realli happening. apparently half of de day was not good but it turns okay by de other half of the dae. we were all good. i love my baby.

was resting de whole dae de next day. de weather realli hot man! i hated it. i slept almost de whole day i think. no! i read my book too!

2dae, i went for an interview at coffee bean hq. i seem to like it. being surrounded by cakes. u knw wt i mn but then, i came back, i got another job which i could gain more knowledge on. so, i decided to t8k on it and yeah! im going for it.
i'll be starting a new job tomorrow and i hope i'll do well in it.... *prays*

i think im gonna go fry some stuffs...

reMind

i wasnt feeling so good yesterdae. all thanks to not enough sleep and waking up reali earli to go out. had an insurance-invetment briefing wif baby and frenz. i'm considering it though. it migh be good for me and de future but right now, im jz considering.
went off for an interview after tt. baby companied me. i had a test on ms excel and met up wif an engineer and i hope i'll get the job.
was realli hungry and tired. went home straight after tt. had brunch and had a nap straight away. my eyes realli couldnt take it. me and baby woke up around de same time. bt when i woke up, my whole head was in pain. it was so pain tt it became realli heavy. still i got up and had a shower, had dinner and later on took some paracatemol and ice cream soda. went off to bed and read my book. didnt took long where i got too tired and fell asleep. baby called for awhile and i went off back to sleep.
woke up feeling better. my head's feeling better. i could jz lie down and not feel any pain. i was feeling good.
looking forward to today's outing. baby bring his baby brother along. he's a cute little thing. wonder how things are gonna be. baby alreadi planned to go pizza hut haha!! since de day i said i wnt to eat pizza hut few weeks back.
wearing my new skirt today. yeah! like finally. but hor, im feeling kinda sleepy right now le... sigh... im drinking coffee and im suppose to be feeling awake not sleepy. plus the weather is like whoa! the heat is realli heating up. i need some windy moment man! where is the wind?
should i tie up my hair of let it down? guys of course would prefer to let it down bt i think i'll tie it up. it's like so hot out there. oh boy!
suddenly i dn feel the urge of going out cz yesterdae i forgot tt 2dae is baby's 2nd day off.

me NeoPet

look @ tt. at a moment of boredom, i got meself a Neopet.... muahahaha... it's an Aisha (whatever species tt is bt it's a neopet, u knw, like digimon and stuff) and her name is Zekigu.... basically I don't know what to do with it now but I think, it's gonna be abandoned. I don't know. Let's just one fine day, I might make use of her.

Species : Aisha
Colour : Blue
Gender : Female
Age : 0 hours
Level : 1

Health : 8 / 8
Mood : content
Hunger : bloated
Strength : strong
Defence : tough
Move : average
Intelligence : average

kanaRiya

anybody knws de anime Basilisk? well, i really like it the fact that they have nice music. downloaded the soundtrack and found realli nice music. The sound of the flute and everything are just so err.... dont knw how to describe but nice.

anyway, still have yet to go to the library. I've finished reading my book. maybe i'll drop by tomorrow. wanted to yesterdae but didnt cz baby was LATE.AGAIN! wanted to go today but was too tired.

on tuesday, had dinner with tj. it has been so long i've not seen him. haha!!! when he came to see me, he was wearing his work uniform. told him to let's jz go for de dinner wif de uniform bt he didnt want. he even brought his clothings and change.
b4 tt, babysitted aqilah wif yammie for a short while. she came while I was watching Shinobi. No subtitles but wth, i knw wt's happening anyway. So, the fightings were nice. not as detail as the anime la. like Duh!
yesterdae, picked up mom from hospital. there were relatives there. After the check-up, went to tekka market for brunch and bought veggies. got some tips from mom on how to make the basics of cooking ingredients and after that, went off back home. the whole day was realli hot that i felt realli sticky even after 2 cold showers.
came back home, watched anime, talked to kak sallyn and then went off for a short nap cz i knw baby will pick me up late. But i never thought that it'll be SO LATE that it got me pissed again. while we sat down over coffee, we had a talked abt our frenz and families and he told me that i'm a forgiving person. of course i am. i told him, if im not forgving, i would make a choice to tell him tt i dn wnt to go ut anymore cz he was late. he asked me y didnt i. well, because i made de choice of waiting cz im forgiving and im still patient. met xiong b4 we got to de coffee shop. i was nice to see him again. May and Xiong's sister was there too. Later on, I didnt realise they were at the same coffee shop and were 2 tables away from us. I saw another ex-colleague too. But didnt get to say hi to him cz it was just a glance and he was busy getting drinks and food for his girlfriend. I think. He still have the same stomach b4 he left the company. Muehehe!!!

2dae, met up with an ex-classmate, Maryann. We were in maths class. She stood me up for an hour but I had a nice meal when she got there. We talked about what we've missed out and all. It was all good and nice and fun talking to her again. She's moved and I'll be seeing her soon again, tt we stayed nearer. Hah!

I realli gotta lose those extra calories. I might get a heart attack anytime. Whoa!

I had another scary dream. Not the so scary one but this time it's like a dream that I had a miscarriage. And it's the 2nd time. And this time it's like.... my husband gg off for his overseas mission, i was running as fast as possible, when i got to the gate, he was alreadi in and i could onli see his back and walking away from me. his frens were there and they notice blood flowing down my leg. i looked down and suddenly i felt like fainting. i felt to the floor, his frens helped me and brought me to the hospital. i lose consiousness. when i got to the hospital, i go up and his frenz told me i had a miscarriage and i didnt even cry or feel anything at all.

delighted-fully-fun

had a realli nice day.... woke up at 8am in the morning! yess.... earli, realli. but! i stayed in bed and stayed asleep. finally got out of bed at 1pm. haha!! wt i did in bed for de 4-5 hrs? nothing much. but just simply thinking and going back to sleep and having dreams. continuatious. heh! got such word ar? "continuatious"?... okay... whatever.

waited for baby and he came exactly 2.30pm. oh boy! reached boat quay coffee bean's at 3.30pm. shasha was there alreadi. had our brunch and dessert there. talking nonsense mostly... like duh! then we discussed about the chalet, soming up with plans and ideas on what to do and what to bring and all. anybody have PS2 we could borrow for our chalet!? I PROMISE i will take good care of it! it was all fun. after almost 3hrs, err..or 2hrs?... we went off to look old change kee as shasha wnts to eat sotong. we got in to that shoes shop at peninsula... heh! not peninsula... dn knw la... shasha wnts to see the Pony shoes but there arent but we found pretty nice shoes. Klakowski. I think. a design from spain. they are very very nice shoes. they look really nice. no size for me and they all cost S$200+++. hmph! thk i buy a plin white sneakers and paint it meself! ltr on, walked all de way to bugis street as shasha wants bubble tea. she had a little trouble with the aunty but she got her bubble tea.

after she went off, me and baby start walking away and dazing off to don't know where. we ended up gg to glutton's bay, bought teh tarik take-away and sat by de stairs and drink up. looking at stars which don't look like stars. off to the big new marina square. i was starving for dinner and it was almost 10pm. made a waste trip dow to amk cz the halal western stall no more alreadi, i was pissed, tired and hungry, got to S11 and had mee goreng instead. IT WAS DELICIOUS... well, cuz i was hungry. like Duh!

came back, had a cold shower. So NiCe!... haha like ppl cares.... felt a little pissed after tt...baby's not happy abt it too... sigh... dn like Harmuni rice. dn like it... realli dn like it.... buy Harmuni rice no more... ever.... i'm all done here... doing laundry here so tt ltr morning can dry out... i'm gg bankrupt soon....

dis is diff.... hmph

You are SHIKAMARU!

Some people call you lazy, but that's simply not true. What you are is pessimistic. Regardless of the situation, you never fail to look on the dark side of things. You complain, bitch and whine constantly. But, you are strong and dependable. A true friend... at least, when it counts.

Why!? Why!? of all characters!

You are Sakura!


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trauma

oh boy! i dn knw where to start. i had a nice evening wif baby, walking to al-ameen where abg ipar appeared late. sigh. bt it was nice sitting there cz it's always windy down there. yay!

went thru something i dn like, or shall i say we dn like. straighten tthings out. talked about it. clear things. we have a long way to go and there are going to be more things that are going to occur.

something happened today and it was bad. girlfren, angel helped me and it is all fine now. baby was unhappy but i assured him. things are going to be fine.

it is really windy outside and it is realli nice. angel said she smell rain and i told her that it will rain tonight cuz why? because i said so. muahaha!!!

i'm missing my baby right now. I wish baby would hit him as hard as possiblee til he die and that even his soul could not roam around anywhere.

i need my baby hug right now :(

dere's a WaY

i was feeling moody today. but i was feeling okay after that. onli for awhile but i was still feeling a little moody and hot because the weather's hot.

had lunch wif shasha at sakae. muehehe!!! feel so nice. had the lunch buffet. it was good. after that, made a trip to the cold storage and popular bookshop and then off i'm back home. came back, continued frying mom's vegetable curry puffs and then sent some to bik sal's place. there, hang around and had a chat with bik sal all the way til 9pm.

i'm back home now. feeling fresh after a cold shower. my eyes sleepy. going for an interview tomorrow. At the same company which I'm suppose to be working in now. so, what's the deal? I don't know! Urgh! I'm feeling frustrated!
received a call from tj. he'll be joining the Stress Club soon enough. I'm sure but I knw he'll get his way out sooner. I really wish the best for him.

I'm missing my baby. Yup! Who doesn't. Called him before I came back. He just got up and he sounded surprise when I told him it's 9pm already. I love him.

think i'm gonna eat some of the curry puffs before retiring to my room.

figuring things out

i've always been patience and tolerating over everything and until now, i am still doing those 2 things. it's a part of my life. i can get kan-cheong at times but i try not to show it all the time like back then.
i love you... i love you always... no matter what you are, no matter what you go through... i am a part of your life now and so yhat is how it is going to be.....

yummy

it hasnt rain for few days already and it's realli bothering me. i hate the bright sun shining down on me when i'm not in the mood. right now, i want rain. i want it to be a rainy day 2dae. rain rain rain! and i want it to be windy. yes! i want rain and windy! it seems to be getting darker right now so, i guess it'll be raining soon.

darling dear still on de way and it realli ticks me off when he's late. he's always late. i thought i'm de one who's always suppose to be late. why is he taking over my role or lateness? urgh! but oh well. i want to watch Pirates Of Carribean again. I can't wait for the part 2 to be out because no actors other than Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom would make pirates look good. Hah!

bagaikan puteri

finally, i've changed the living room curtains. washed them and hanged them to dry. continuing with the other washing to be done and will go on to yammie's curtains to wash. same cycle again. soak, wait, rinse, spin.

then, do what? read book again.... the story's getting all interesting again. suddenly story books on family, friends and romance are stirring me up. although i still love reading thrillers and stuffs. but, no scary ghost story books for me please. i love going to the library again. it's like old times back when i was in school and after school.

i wonder how the future is gonna be. i am hoping for a good one. for the best one which i realli dreamt of. as for work, tj is starting on a new one tomorrow. i hope he'll be doing fine. as for me, i'll be waiting. yes, i have a confirmation but i'm still doing my waitings.

waiting and waiting and waiting.
waiting for what also i don't know. how i wish money could just fall from the sky and then i no need to work.
hah! don't everybody wish that. all the time. every millisecond, every second, every minute, every hour.

okay, like whatever.

.......missing sayang so much

oh! de title of this blog is just something that has nothing to do with the blog and i'm just putting it for fun.

BLA BLA BLA

good morning! good afternoon!... err.. good evening alreadi la! now wt time alreadi! 1621hrs already! anyway, I had an early night last night. Was really not feeling well. Right now, still feels tired le. How come ar?
I woke up like 1400hrs just now le. Actually no la, bt almost 1500hrs la. I think la. Alamak! Whatever la!

Nak tukar langsir living room to tak tertukar-tukar sey!

Eh! Like funny like that when I put malay words or sentences in my blog. Muahaha!!!
Tak faham sudah la! Go copy paste de words nd then go find online dictionary to translate the words! This one my blog, I put down any words I want.

Today Sunday sey. Basically, eversince I have not been working, everyday is like the same day for me. No weekend or weekday. All the same. sama-sama.
Bluekz!

I want to go read book ar!

simpLe & cLeaN

i'm feeling a little tired today. i dn knw why. i cant be feeling sick right? I jz got a good news and i dn wnt to be sick because i need to go thru de good news.

went for dinner with baby at newton circus which is still undergoing upgrading, which i totally forgot about it because i found de place a little different. bought another 2 pairs of ear-rings. yup! itchy me. baby spoilt one in de shop which we quickly ran out. well, actualli, i pulled him out.
still thinkiing wt to get baby for his birthday though. maybe i've found it la bt should i? hmm... oh well, wth. why not.

had a good chat with dad last night aftr his dinner. it was a rare moment of course. listening to his views and problems and all. telling him abt my baby and all, which in between, baby called. he felt asleep bt i told him to go back to slp since he'll be working de next day. and then, after he went to slp, me and yammie continued watching Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow and eating mee siam with hotdogs. yummy! grandma woke up to go toilet, she looked at us and just said something which didnt reali bothers us.

went to sleep after that. had another nice dream and saw something in my dream which was coincidental in reality. baby was realli cute 2dae. went down to le meridien shopping centre and harbourfront. bought meself a pair of skirt and pants and dad some t-shirts. bought MacD back for dinner.
Mom's cousin spotted us at Harbourfront's taxi stand, which later he quickly called us and put up the On Call sign up on his taxi. hehe!! He sent us back and it was free. Yeehehee!!!

Watched Pirates of Carribean: Curse of The Black Pearl. Aaah.... Who could more handsome and gorgeous and cuter if not for the duo, Johnny Depp and Orland Bloom... ["Sorry baby love! OnLy for 2daE"...]

I gotta KO now. I'm realli not feeling well. Oh boy... Goodnight ppl.
Goodnight, Sweet drmz, slp tight... Muackz

Jessica Simpson's Wordz....

Sometimes it's hard when you're so deep inside
To see all you can lose in a blink of an eye
Dreams could be shattered
You could be gone
How would I survive
Cause you're where I belong
My soul-believer
Without you, I don't know who I would be

Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you go

Sometimes I listen to a voice that isn't mine
I disconnect from everything inside
And I have made choices
And wasted all the days
I could have been with you
Where my heart stayed
I know you've waited faithfully
Blessing our love even stronger

Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you go

And I've been blessed
For every kiss
For every breath
(How could I let you down)
And I've been touched,
By hands I trust
My love is risen

Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you
How could I let you go

-Underneath


I don't need your strength anymore
cause you've made me strong
You may not see the woman in me
That you dreamed of
Holding me in your arms

All the days that you gave
All the moments you've saved me,
Praying for my life
Sacrificed, just to make me who I am on my own
You don't have to let go

You don't say it
But it's in your eyes
All the fears of good-bye
But I can promise
You'll always have a place, and a way to my heart

All the days that you gave
All the moments you've saved me,
Praying for my life
Sacrificed, just to make me who I am on my own
You don't have to let go

I can live
Cause you lived for me
And I can love
Because you loved me.

All the days that you gave
All the moments you've saved me,
Praying for my life
Sacrificed, just to make me who I am on my own
You don't have to let go

(Ooh ooh ooh)
You don't have to let go

-You Don't Have To Let Go

seasons

yess.... i have som much time in hand....

good morning people. i havent been updating for quite a while. actualli not so long la. but although i've been in front the pc most of the times these past few days, i've been lazy to update anything ar. muahaha!!!

anyway, my life is still struggling but am going and hoping to be a better one. i am looking forward eveyday to a new life and to a better life. everyday is an interesting day that which i must go through as i might miss something interesting out. So, i do not want to miss one out, especially those with my family, friends and my baby. My loving baby, Naruto44. Yup! Naruto44. He loves Naruto so much that I couldn't even stop him from watching it.

oh man! mom's turned on Star World and it's de 2nd repeat of American Idol. Oh man! I'm not gonna watch it again, right. No!!! I onli Chris Draughty's performance. He realli looks like Vin Diesel but tank god the voice's much better. I am sure he's gonna be in the finals. Yeah!

I'm hungry. But I don't feel like eating whatever is in the house right now. I feel just like having pattaya fried rice, strawberry roti pratas with whip cream, strawberry shortcakes, swensen's ice-cream... err, i forgot which one. the tall freckles one. it has cookies, choc chips, butterscotch ice-cream and chocolate ice-cream in random and with whip cream and a biscuit and cherry on top. YUMMY! and oh! not forgetting satay! I want to eat satay! I'm like craving alot of foods.

boring tuesday... IT's ONLY TUESDAY!

so how's it gonna be? should i be confuse? have i thought abt it?? think things straight?

yess... i have. i have thought about it, and i am sticking to it. i am sticking to it and i would not let anything happen. by you, or me or by anybody else.

im crazy....

dad wanted to clean my room just now but i stopped him cuz I need to change de curtains and stuff, so i thought this time i'll clean my room on my own. i mean, i havent don that for so mne... err... better dn say la.
mom told me nt to throw away de lower part of de vegetables if im cooking them. i said okay. cz grandma caught me doing it and she told mom abt it and so, mom told me about it. bluek!

Ashlee's Catch Me When I Fall

Is anybody out there, Does anybody see, That when the lights are off, something's killing meI know it seems like people care, Cause they're always around me, But when the day is done and everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself, Who will be the one who's there, And not ashamed to see me crawl, Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over, And it's empty everywhere, It's hard to face going back alone, So I walk around the city, Anything, anything to clear my head, I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
Who will be the one to save me from myself, Who will be the one who's there, And not ashamed to see me crawl, Who's gonna catch me when I fall
It may seem I have everything, But everything means nothing, When the ride that you've been on, That you're coming off, Leaves you feeling lost, Is anybody out there, Does anybody see, That sometimes loneliness is just a part of me
Who will be the one to save me from myself, Who will be the one who's there, And not ashamed to see me crawlWho's gonna catch me when I fall, Who's gonna catch me when I fall, Who's gonna catch me when I fall, And not ashamed to see me crawl, Who's gonna catch me when I fall

missing

oh wow! i can't sleep. sigh. wonder why. is it because i was nervous or because i drank coffee or because im excited or scared..... i want my baby with me.....

Saturdays....to Sundays

It's like now everyday is Saturday for me. Well, yesterday, was watching tv like whole day. Now! Just when was the last time I ever did that? Hmm!? Oh well, I was overwhelmed by the traditions and dances happening in Bali and those masks came on and I was watching them, fascinating them. These morning, I woke up, sweating. I was having a nightmare. I was somehow in this house and there was this old lady making costumes but somehow I felt an eerie feelings. Then I was in bed and I was under the blanket but I felt that something was coming at me and I was trying to scream but I couldn't. My voice just couldn't come out and my voice suddenly became coarse and I was still struggling to shout out. Suddenly I felt like the thing is coming. My hands were waving around and by the time I felt something something, it was my gandmother. She woke me up. My voice came out. I was reliefed. I didnt go back to sleep. I got up and had a shower. I was still feeling shaky after that.

Baby called after that while I was dozing off after reading a book. After talking, dozed off again after reading the book again. Haha!! Was really tired man! Slept all the way til 4pm. Got up and had mee rebus. hehe!!

Watched The Corpse Bride. A really funny one. Dad borrowed from his friend. After that, watched a lousy stupid hindi movie but like I told yammie, I watched it for the sake of Fardeen Khan only. Muahaha!!!

My days were basically just staying at home and laze. Laze til I can't anymore. My handphone bill this month shot up tremendously. 4 times of last month's. Haha!! Baby expecting a booming one too. Haha!! Oh well, I know now and will keep down. Talked to baby on the phone and was mom was nagging at me to to use the home phone and so which we both switched to the home phone.

You know, I really have a lot of time in my hand that I feel like changing my layout again. I feel so bad. I am so bad. I want a white one again. But, oh boy!

Gonna be meeting new people again soon. Baby's last day and so, a little celebration gonna be going on and we'll be expecting some happening interrogations and once again, me the centre of attractions of the moment.

hi-Lo

It's the 2nd day of not working day for me. Yes! It's a really weird feeling for me of not waking up early morning and getting ready for work and be almost or am late for work. It feels so different. I could sleep late and wake up late without anybody or should I say Mom, to nag at me every night to sleep early and waking me up all de time in the morning.
Right now, I woke up, go on the pc, ate breakfast and drink breakfast, heh!? drink breakfast? oKay, whatever shit! Then, do the laundries or something. ...oh no! i'm becoming lazy alright.
oh boy! oh boy! oh boy!

it's raining today! it's raining! it's dark! it's dark. oh man! aku memang mulut masin ar.

sad_memoRaBLe-thouGht!z

yesterdae, i went off for a half day. went back, showered. changed, got ready but was stood up! for an hour! when baby showed up, i was touch. haha!! yes, it may sound cheesy. very cheesy but touching. a present of a bunny soft toy and it was holding a box of something. i opened it and it was nice. very nice that i became shaky and i was very happy. my 1st white gold. put it on straight away and yay! i got a bunny soft toy again! better and nicer than the old one! he he!!! I got a name for it. hehe!! it's a female alright.

my 1st valentine celebration. it was sweet. baby wanted to make a memorable one for me and indeed it was memorable. from de cock uo of plan A and going through plan B, it was all so sweet. i Love it. ~i love my baby....

2dae, it was my last day at work. i didnt do de standard thing of golden handshake or big hugs but just goofing and playing ard and still doing my work. burst into tears at time. i got kinda emotional even after de office hours. it was sad to leave that place. it was realli sad. i grew attached to that place. not the working place, not the company but the companions i had. all thse 5 and a half years i've been there was a great one. me and ken, both, left de place 2dae.... yes! and we both did. at de same time. that's me, mike (whom i had a crush on) and ken-ken!!!..me & ken had a matchin colow today as it's our last day. well, we didn't call each other to decide on wearing red together la bt just coincidence....
suppose to go down bugis starbucks as sebastian wanted to go there but didn't. 1st, me have too mne things to carry back and2nd, sebas was realli not feeling well that it's better we go another day.
that was the last of it. i've left that place now and tomorrow, is the start of a holiday. a short holiday onli b4 starting another one. and once the new job starts, i'll be starting a new life from scratch again....

Serious....

1st thing I'd like to say Ryan Donowho is cute. Ryan who? Any of you who watch The O.C. season 3 would know who's Ryan Donowho. He is cute!

And yes, I've changed my layout. That Britney one was a temporary. Hehe...

Okay, mom was sent to the hospital again yesterday and I didn't even know that she was being sent. I thought she was just going to the clinic. But NO! she went to the hospital and by night, she was home. It was nothing serious. She was fine. She is just having a stiff neck and something to do with the ear. The right ear I think. Gotta go check it out again. She'll be going for another check-up soon. Sigh. No use sighing.

Darling might be feeling bad right now as I'm totally not in a good mood since last night. I made a rash decision this morning. I went off to cut fringes. Yes. I did. Again with the fringes. I missed my old looks la. So, gotta get into it.

I'm hungry but I don't feel like eating at all. I'm just not feeling good right now. Had a little heat argument going with Bik As on msn. A little something about mom that leads to late grandpa. I'm in my temperamental mood right now so, I just blurt out everything. Yes! And they are the whole truth. No use keeping them so long cuz it might just cause you internal injuries.

I think I'm gonna heat up yesterday's noodles and eat la. Yammie still not up sey!

Clocks

Good morning people. Yesh! it is the earli morning of a Saturday. Everybody in my household are asleep except for me. Tried looking for a nice The O.C. image to make my layout but too lazy, so, I stick with an old fren of mine, Ms. Britney Spears. Or shall I say, Mrs. Federline? ....Okay, that just sound not right.

Yesterday was 10th February 2006. I got my O Levels result. I came to work half day and there was barely anything to do. So I just sat at my desk, waiting for the right time to run to TJ's office to use his internet to check on my result. Before that, idiotic boss came in and told us that at 1500hrs there will be a meeting at the conference oom with the Material Director. Her name's Jennie, you know. Okay, no big deal. I don't care anyway. I'm boasting right now, yes, I'm leaving the company for good.
Not yet 1430hrs, I went down to TJ cuz he bought the AA batts I needed. I went on to use his internet and went on the SEAB website and wa-lah! There were my results showing on the monitor screen. As promised, TJ was there with me to see the results. Called darling straight away to tell him my results, which after that, Sebastian came down and I told him my results too, and together, TJ and Sebastian start grumbling at me. TJ grumbled the most. I couldn't take it that I start to weep. Well, I feel bad too. I felt I've let TJ down especially. I know what I should do and I have planned ahead.
1500hrs, ran off to the conference room. Half way Sebstian called me. When I got in, they have not started yet as the projector system was screwing up. Lousy piece of shit!
As the meeting starts, I listened but at the same time, smsing with me sista, frenz, darling and cousin. After an hour and a half, followed OJ out of the conference room. Basically, 2 stupid departments were arguing out their problems for stupid reasons. *Stupid people in Stupid world* Lousy ME! .....Whatever....ar! OKay! ~!@#$%^
Teabreak with my store guys, a visit to the Ladies, off to 2nd floor again. Chit-chatted with TJ 'til it's almost 1730hrs. Went back up to my desk, clear up my stuffs, pack up and ciao! Off to meet my sweet darling.

Darling was wearing his glasses! He look like a good boy, you know. Muahaha!!! I love him so much. Went down to Al-Ameen where I met his big bro. "ABANG IPAR!!!! YOU ARE SO THE GOOD-LOOKING!". I shouldn't have call him that but while I was talking to darling earlier, I accidentally blurted out "abang ipar" and since he was late, I called him "Abang Ipar" all the way. Muahaha!!! ....I so the CUTE!

Anyway, look at the comparison people. Observe. Picture #1 (left), is my cousin and Me. Picture #2 (right), is my boyfriend and Me.

I think I heard something from yammie's room. Guess she's not asleep! That makes it! I'm not the only one in the household who is not asleep! Muahaha!!... oKay, I hig already. Need to sleep liao! Caleld darling to wake him up 1st....bLeurGH!

I found an old photo of mine, taken at Kulai 2 years back on the 1st day of hari raya.... I miss this hairstyle.....tsktsk :(

old neo2

i got these from fida's site. I can't believe it. we all look so ccuuuttteee..... haha!!

we were all so innocent then.

just trying to look sweet.

de leftover psychos. sistas-kymmy & rach, me & fida!

me and fida in bLack!

this was on my bdae.

dt lipstick on me realli doesnt work and then, kymmy was fairer.

this is my fave neo2. i look good.

my sis commented something abt this. contradict? i thk dts it.

it was xmas time ar

okay! we were realli rawKiNg it!

frenz4eVa

darling woke me up earli morning after i went through 2 alarms. muahaha!!! it was realli windy this morning and thanks to the boys being recall back to camps, thebus was full all de time. go out earli also still late.

later at work, after teabreak, i went off to see doctor along with tj. It has been a long time since really got together and had a great talk. after seeing the doctor and getting our MCs, we walked all the way down to amk mrt and i pulled him to walked me to the bus-stop. hehe!! he's realli nice. he's still de same old people. being just frenz with him, makes me talk more openly with him. Oh well, not like open last time la. But it was realli nice. Both of us also will have a really long vacation before starting a new job.

darling was worried sick hearing me sick. i told him it was nothing bad or what, it's jz normal small food poisoning. i went back, pissed, took my meds, ate my lunch which i onli 1/4 of it, went off for a nap. i had a 4hrs nap when mom eventually came into my room and told me she wanted celery juice and more celeries. okay lor, so i got up lor. darling called. waited for him before we go off to get my stuffs. de more i wait, de more menu i get from mom, so, once darling called i got out of de house and meet outside. oh yeah!
got de sandwich, got the celeries, and darling got a cake for his brother. it's a Strawberry Shortcake. it looks so nice. yummy!

Post 5 random/weird stuff about yourself. List 5 fellow bloggers whom you want to do the same.Visit their blogs and tell them they've been tagged and ask them to read the rules in your blog.

Five weird/random stuffs you need to know bout me...

1. I have a fetish for guys butts.
2. I have a crooked spine.
3. I like playing reverse psychology.
4. I resigned without even finding a job 1st.
5. I like giving out lame jokes. (It's that weird?)

The next 5 peeps to continue the tradition are:
1) kak yam
2) shidah
3) fida
4) ling fang
5) sallyn

juMp

had a good day 2day. i mean, yesterdae, on sunday. well, it's past midnight. i woke up like 0900hrs. i got up, washed my face, brushed my teeth, made breakfast, ate them as i watched yakitate!. later, update my site and than back to tv. while watching Honey, i felt hungry for lunch. So, i decided to have fried rice. And so I did. I made fried rice with zuchinis! yeah! has anybody put that in b4? No right? Well, maybe somewhere out there have la. Than, I thought, what the hell, cook some dish for dad to eat later.... Mom got up and she was making noise cuz she thought I didnt want to run errand for her. Like what the fuck! I was waiting for her!

It's nice to see her happy there.Well, I went out after that. Met out with bik as and got shidah to come along to surprise her and yes, she did. Played ard with clavonian? calovian? i dn knw! it's de electric piano! it was realli fun! i even thought i was gifted when i created a nice tune but i totally forgot about it! Muahaha!! Should hve recorded it! Oh MAN! After that, we were off to toa Payoh. bibik wanted to eat at Fork & Spoon foodcourt and so, we went. After that, we all were really really full. I ate not much of th yong tau foo but i was realli realli full! I was! OMG! like OMG!

Went into Courts after that. Bibik wanted a canopy bed and when I look at it, it's really nice and I want it too. Okay, maybe not now but when I'm getting married, I will have the canopy bed. We went around more to see more beds, sofas, wardrobes, washing machines, fridges, mp3 players and later, while walking back, we were stuck on looking at earrings. I got 2 pairs while bibik got a pair. Shidah dear hv no lobang. I mean ear lobes. We were stuck at another stall but we didnt get anything. Went back, took the full train, I got down Yishun while they both at Khatib. Went to Cold Storage to get stuffs mom asked to buy.

Came back, pissed. I was pissed off that I almost want to give up on her! I will eventually. But I don't know when! Will I? Will I? I don't know.. Oh man!

Darling dear called me. He was really sweet. I love him so much. We're missing each other so much.

Okay, my sister has just bun up my hair with the new clip I bought. Haha!! // Okay ar, Lee Ryan is making me melt right now. His songs are damn nice man! One song actualli sound so jazzy that it got me on the move. Okay la, sleep now. tomorrow working man! And & it's pouring out there now....

Gone // Laughs

Meeting up my darling. He's so cute. Coming here all the way to meet me 1st. It was raining and as we walked all the way to Northpoint, I was so smart to point out the we walk under the blocks for shelters. Haha!!! Got into Starbucks for coffee. Oh well, before that, it was his time with Miss Tobacco. Ms Tobacco is this species which he loves more than me and that would eventually would bring him down sooner or later. I have to give that a stop! Anyway, as we were on the way to Starbucks, I suggested we go to Angel's and maybe we could have some luck with some red packets. Haha!!!

After the coffee session, off we went to Angel's. They were having their cny dinner which makred 7 days of cny. We had no choice but to eat up. Out of courtesy, I finished up the raw tuna which kinda gives me a hard time after that. It was embarrassing but it was nice fish. bLuek! Waited for Angel to go off together but she had been stopped and so, darling and me went off 1st.

We sat down and had a long talk. Yup! Very the long which realli is scaring me. I was there, feeling scared and worried and getting more sick and hungry thinking about it all. But it was a nice feeling I was having there, being just with him. I love him so much....

missing you//muackz

Gwen Stefani's : The Real Thing

I've seen your face a thousand times Have all your stories memorized I've kissed your lips a million ways But I still love to have you around

I've held you too many times to count I think I know you inside out And we're together most days But I still love to have you around

And you're the one I want and it's not just a phase And you're the one I trust, our love is the real thing

Don't go away My love (my love) I want you to stay In my life Don't go away My lover (my love) I'm happiest when we spend time

You're a salty water, ocean wave You knock me down, you kiss my face I know the storms will always come But I still love to have you around

Heavens knows what will come next So emotional, you're so complex A rollercoaster, built to crash But I still love to have you around

You're the one I want and it's not just a phase You're the one I trust, our love is the real thing

Don't go away My love (my love) I want you to stay In my life Don't go away My lover (my love) I'm happiest when we spend time (it's only you and I)

It's you there when I close my eyes And you in the morning I never thought you'd still be mine
Or I'd really need to have you around Don't go away My love (my love) I want you to stay In my life Don't go away My lover (my love) I need you, you're my love supply Don't go away My love (you're my love supply) I want you to stay In my life (every day, every night) Don't go away My lover (you're my love supply) I need you, you're my love supply

& so....

...it happened. I just couldn't time it. I just didn't know that it would be so fast but it happened. It's like another happiest day of my life once again and I'm loving it. I'm starting to have no worries but I feel like I need to say it out but it happened without me expecting it and it happened... & yes, this is de 1st.

Had dinner out wif new friends. yes. Was psychoed and had no other other choice but to join them at China Black. 1st time for me there. Got in early and was hoping to go off early and thank goodness I did but oh boy! another hung over baby. This time, I think I had a little too much. I mean, more like before. But I was still feeling oKay... yea baby!

couldnt sleep. onli managed 1 hour of sleep which i later woke up wif irritations in de eyes. I forgot to take out my contacts. Took it out, washed my face and feets, went back to sleep BUT! can't! for de next 2 hours I tried to sleep but I cant! So, i got up, showered, washed my hair, put on my clothes, ate breakfast and now drinking coffee. Oh boy! The pain is unbearable.

boo-hoo

staybing home realli is a bore. I wonder how many people survies....

speechless.... no title ar!

im getting kinda freezing right now. it's realli windy outside that im getting cold. did i mention that twice? anyway, Something's Gotta Give kinda getting little too irritated for me, gotta change de channel. Haha!! turned on CSI for yammie.

Oh damn! I have not washed the dishes.... Gotta do it after this b4 I go off to bed.

I'm starting to miss someone. I don't know which one but I am certain that is that one and not that other one. I wonder why because I'm still enjoying this like I don't want to go back into that other life for a new start of another thing again. You know what I mean.

Okay whatever!

I'm getting the itch again. I feel like cutting fringe again but then again I guess not because i might just regret it and I might jz keep on whine about it as de heat might cause some pop-outs on my forehead.
Anyway, asked fida out for coffee as I was bored. the other dae, onli went to macdonald's since onli fast foods are opened. at coffee bean~boat quay, sat there from like 1930hrs, fireworks came on at ard 2132hrs and when I see the time, it was 2323hrs! I was like realli surprised that me and fida got up and went off back! haha!!
Got really hungry. Took my dinner once i reached home. finished up pasta and gotta do the washing after this before gg off to bed.

did i just repeated the same line?

me and yammie exchanged handphones. but, we got too stuck to our lovely phones that we re-changed back to our own phones. haha!!! i want a flip-phone. I miss using one. Thanks to The O.C. ar! bloody-hell! make me want to have flip-phone again!

I really want one!!!! tsktsktsk!!!

Siti Sarinah & Siti Saiyidah <- wat a titLe ->

okay, seriously I forgot what year this is but I remember my uncle and mom already rented a van and so we took it for a trip to kota tinggi at last minute..

dis one was last yr, 2005, hari raya. haha!!

..and this was few days back. yr 2006. went to see Mocca at Esplanade. Haha!!

work was crazy. it was all wack tacky facky sacky haha! whatever you want to call it. haha! i even did facial mask a work! haha! u knw how cool is that. and since we did it i de production floor, we used the cold water from de water cooler to clean off my face but which later on i went to de toilet to thoroughly washed off and touch up again.

had chocolates and durian brownies which i find it unexpected but alreadi half in my mouth. things went on and it was realli fun to be all secretive and all. i was realli looking forward to 5.30pm to go off and when it's 5.30pm, i was going off happily! haha!!!

Met yammie and shidah and shasha for Mocca's gig at de outdoor stage of Esplanade and after de fireworks goes off in de middle of de performance, our stomachs starts singing louder that we went to Makansutra to have a bite.

Everything was expensive that we shared de half bottle of mineral water that I still had. Haha!! But it was fun la yesterdae. It was fun fun fun. Wackoey ar!

>biTedEduZt<

down low, ur slow. high above, ur in love. in d middle, ur d fiddle. <-got that from shasha's bLog. i loike dt.

why does everybody have to be around me so suddenly? why am i suddenly getting all the attentions that i wanted before? i do notwant it now cuz i don't feel like having it now. get away from me you lot! go away! seriously, i need my own time and i do it when i like it. who are you lot to say of me when you don't even know what i am going through!?

you!!! you are so irritating me that i am irritated of you right now. i've known ur true intention and i realli am looking down upon you right veri now. i cant see u as a fren right now although i am trying to be one. but nw u've proved me wrong and that's it. im out of de question forever!

and you so are the one very sweet ppl. u hv sound so shweet dt it melted me well. well, you you you are so you. i have nothing much to say. i am so happy and appreciate everything you've done. you knw i would be there for you too. you're now like my shining star. haha!! cant believe i said that. im so happy whenever hear for thee.

you are always there for me. before. not now. now, u still have that energy to help me around. i am glad that im still visible to you. im glad u still do wnt to keep in contact with me. u still hear my voice from afar and you still know what's going on even when i dn even knw how to start or end it. of wow! what can i say? you are making me miserable but do you knw when you are not anywhere near me, i feel at ease. i am so sorry but that is how i felt.

i have 3 weeks left. i am like being in amazing race trying to get that prize before everything ended. what should happen to me when that 3 weeks ended? what would happen to me if i just have to rot in de cell without any backups helping me? people say it'll be easy on me even if im not out there, well, i don't think so! like! hah! harLOw!

i am trying my best in everything right now although my body and soul and bones are dangling in that hell every half of de day and singing out songs of crapiness and madness of everything mixing into one head. bla bla bla.... goodnight!

-wack

I'm feeling guilty. I am trying very hard. i am so sorry if i've did anything wrong but i don't want to use you. i am your friend and you are my friend. i hope you do understand.

Anyway,.....
.....gurlz having fun

everybody seems to be updating and i have not! haha!! i get kinda too lazy nowadays. I've been feeling bored and sick of everything.
de kenduri that day was realli so much fun. we had a blast. everybody was tired and stuck down there that we couldnt anything much but to laugh at stupid lame jokes and talked about anything we dislike or like or whatever. sucks right! I don't know what the hell i am babbling.

Watched Victoria Secret's fashion show last night and Ricky Martin's Drop It On Me is really nice. I love the song. Makes me want to move my body! Oh yeah! And there was one part of the show where the models were walking down the runway, Aaron Carter's I Want Candy was played. It sound so wrong but it was remix so I sounded kinda okay to be played on the runway with models wearing kinky lingeries. Haha!!

Dad bought Howl's Moving Castle dvd. He bought Legend Of Zorro too. Think I'm gonna go in my room and watch the Howl's Moving Castle. Oh yay!

This Is ME

Does your name begin with: S
For you, it is pleasure before business. You can be romantically idealistic to a fault and is capable of much sensuality. But you never loose control of your emotions. Once you make the commitment you stick like glue. You could get jealous and possessive. You tend to be very selfish often regarding yourself as the only human being on the planet.. You like being the centre of attention. You are very caring sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. Turned on by soft lights, romantic thoughts. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role, or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the rightperson to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless.
You are kind nature & sweet which is found to be attractive by many. You are a good friend.

MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted Strong-willed and highly motivated Sharp thoughts Easily angered Attracts others and loves attention Deep feelings Beautiful physically and mentally Firm standpoint Easily influenced Needs no motivation Easily consoled Systematic (left brain)
Loves to dream Strong clairvoyance Understanding Sickness usually in the ear and neck Good imagination Good debating skills Good physical Weak breathing Loves literature and the arts loves travelling Dislike being at home restless Not having many children Hardworking High spirited Spendthrift


Taurus

Turn ons
Stability and dependability characterize Taurus. They like people who can blend and grow with them. If you have a Taurus partner you should appreciate all things bright and beautiful. They have an inherent artistic sense and are fond of color and music. Judge the life ith them from purely materialistic point of view. Enjoy everything luxurious that money can provide. Enjoy good food (better if you can cook to please them) and good drinks with them.

Turn offs
Taurus is very slow to anger (in fact you may s pend the whole life with them and still no spark) but you should not push your luck too much. Being unreasonable or aggressive with them may get you into trouble. Do not press him into a corner and if you do be prepared for a violent rage. Taurus is capable of violent outbursts though this is on very rare occasions. If you have a roving eye forget it because Taurus have can take the cake when it comes to being possessive. They can be suffocating when being possessive about you.

cutie-pie

Nick Carter. I don't know what's with me and him.... Good thing he's not with Paris Hilton anymore but oh boy! Watched him in 8 Simple Rules of Dating my Wife, or I think that's what the title is, he's so cute.

Got loads of chocolates at work. Yummy...

i miss you - im thinking of another you - im happy with you - im excited with another you

re-Edited

edited my layout... hehehe... it was raining heavy again just now!

Leavin' On A Jetplane

I'm ... I'm ... All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go, I'm standin' here outside your door, I hate to wake you up to say goodbye But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn, he taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn, Already I'm so lonesome I could die So kiss me and smile for me, Tell me that you'll wait for me, Hold me like you'll never let me go 'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane, I don't know when I'll be back again, Oh, babe, I hate to go I'm ... There's so many times I've let you down, So many times I've played around, I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing Every place I go, I think of you, Every song I sing, I sing for you, When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring So kiss me and smile for me, Tell me that you'll wait for me, Hold me like you'll never let me go 'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane, I don't know when I'll be back again, Oh, babe, I hate to go Now the time has come to leave you, One more time, oh, let me kiss you, And close your eyes and I'll be on my way Dream about the days to come, When I won't have to leave alone, About the times that I won't have to say ... Oh, kiss me and smile for me, Tell me that you'll wait for me, Hold me like you'll never let me go 'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane, I don't know when I'll be back again, Oh, babe, I hate to go And I'm leaving on a jet plane, I don't know when I'll be back again, Oh, babe, I hate to go But I'm leaving on a jet plane, (Ah ah ah ah) Leaving on a jet plane (Ah ah ah ah) Leaving on a jet plane

Thanks to Hasni dear, now I'm hooked to Leavin' On A Jetplane.... haha!! ... & dad came to me talking about his retrenched at Sime Darby and how late granddad got him to work temporarily at the American School while they were having a concert... So, what's de conclusion of the story? The kids in the concert were singing Leavin' On A Jetplane... haha!!! Oh! Did I mention that I have the 'N Sync version too?... Yes, I have... haha!! Anyway, that lizard which I snapped its tail back then, it keeps appearing like every morning... is it coming back to haunt me?

upside down... turn it UP!

okay, my Saturday seems to have turned to Sunday. I slept like early le on Friday night. About mn like that la, but in between I woke up cuz of the coldness and some smses. I woke up at 10am on de dot. Couldnt go back to sleep. So, I woke up, had breakfast, went on to the net and by 3pm, I felt kinda sleepy. Aiyoh! read book, fall asleep lor... Went on to sleep until almost 11pm. Bloody hell!! Woke up, watched tv, see Robert De Niro died and how cute Edward Burns is, shower, watched tv, read my book, washed blanket, eat and then... continue reading book again. Haha!! By 3am, go to sleep and today, 9am woken up by an incoming sms. Cannot go back sleep liao. So, wake up and file my nails. Hehe!! Been wanting to do it for a long time already and finally I did it! Haha!! Like big achievement like that.

It's dad's turn compaying mom to the market. Guess they're buying lots of heavy stuffs.

Looks like I'm gonna be awake the whole day today and I hope I can sleep earli tonight and wake up early tomorrow morning.

Teacher Aishah cut off her hair alreadi! Look nicey! I've been wanting to cut it short again but I don't want to regret again so this time, I'm gonna keep it long long long long......

Reunited once agaiN!

Early morning already, make me pissed off! I'm already feeling sian and just because you more sian doesnt mean you can vent it on me! Halo! When I'm sian, I would not pass it on to you le! I tell you why I sian. Okay, I made a mistake, but one small silly mistake, you're trying to be fussy about it. What are you trying to do? Giving me my own medicine isit!?

Chey!

But, I really thank you on your gift. I love it!

Full Metal Alchemist final conclusion. Almost brought me to tears. I'm gonna be a little spoil a bit. The brothers got back together! Yay! They got back together! They are back together! I thought they are not gonna be together again and Alphonse Elric grown up character look really cute! He looked just like Edward Elric. Yay! They got back together! Yay!

tick tock....

i swaer once i have money, i'll go back down to chinatown and do some shopping but that will have to be done in the day la because at night there'll be more people and it means more crowded. it's like worse than geylang la, but it's like Petaling St in KL bu aiyah! forget it la.
Went down to Chinatown for an interview. No sun today again but walking through Terenganu St, Pagoda St, Temple St was such a breeze. looking at those items being sold at the bazaar without feeling hot or pespiring, it was such a breeze. the wind blowing onto my face and my hair blown back. oh yes! i feel so good.
after the interview, i was hoping that it'll rain so hard and hope it'll be like the other days back then. I dn knw why. I wasnt just satisfied enough. Does working in chinatown mean so cheap?

Fuck it.

Going back to work tomorrow. Fucking sian. I don't like it. I thought I said I will just go to any job I could so that I could still have an income but why am I feeling unsatisfied? Oh my! I'm bad. Am I?
O levels results would only comes out in Feb/Mar for the private candidates, which is really taking a very long time. Oh well, I better not be complaining much and just take whatever comes in the way. Havent I told meself not to waste time anymore?
I still havent told dad that I've already tendered resignation at me current job and am looking for another job right now. I don't know if he really don't know or if mom has told him. I find it kinda hard to tell him. Sometimes, I find him to be really... urgh! Don't know what to say ar.

Should I eat now?
Nobody's online. So boring. the Amins having problem with the net again isit?

Man, which one should I watch later? Along Came Polly or America's Next Top Model? Mom wnts to cut off HBO. but I want it. So, when I get a job again, I'm gonna retake HBO and than I'm gonna add in Star Movies too.

Oh, Happy 17th Birthday to dearie Siti Nuraihan and Happy 18th Birthday to dearer Muhd Sufyan. Stay positive you 2. Stay Positive? Souns old skool. Oh well. Just go on the wrong track and don't waste your parents money. Alright. Waste only yours.

I'm starting to hate Friendster. It's lagging all the time. I hate it. Want to log out also lagging. Friendster is such a lagger man!

*Beep*

went to work, received my 5 years Long Service Award. And yes, I know what would I be receiving. A Sovil Titus watch. It's nice. Sweet and simple I must say. Mom liked it. Haha!! Told her she could have it if she wants it. Thought of exchanging it with my colleague cuz she got the blue one while I got the purple one. But when I looked at her blue, I thought, my purple's nicer. Hehe!!

Weather still as cold and monsoon as de last 4 days. Straight. Non-stop. Onli lighter than heavier than lighter than heavier again. Went my way to the library today, hoping that it won't close early as it's an eve of a public holiday. It's hari Raya haji tomorrow yup.

Came back, helped mom with the clearings in the kitchen as well as helping her preparing some things. The onions, the prawns and Dia. Haha!! Watched Dia cuz mom was watching it. Oh man! Although it's already season 3 now, the story is still as sickening as I remembered on de season 1 and 2. I mean, not sickening as I hate it but the characters of the drama realli makes u wnt to slap them or hate them or hit them or whatever la.

Anyway, I'm doing half of de laundries now. Will hang it out tomorrow morning la. Than, left abit of cleaning in the kitchen. Leaving it to yammie to finish it.

It's realli cool when u have you have ur aunts and uncles on MSN... haha!!!

/meNanGis semLm

finally felt sleepy ard 0500hrs. Had a realli nice dream but later woken up an incoming sms as de rain gets heavier and heavier and non-stop. sms came in from tj saying he's leaving and telling me to take care. i was like, huh!? i remembered he was leaving for HK. hehe!! can't wait for more goodies!

woken up by mom at 1000hrs. Went to Tekka's wet market. It's been zillion years since i've been there. And like before, mom, just put the things bought one side and asked me to wait while she get more stuffs. I'd already promised her I'll company her but was feeling kinda unwilling with the rain going on heavy non-stop, i had no choice but to get up and followed her. Well, was standing in front of a meat stall where there was no one at all, for onli a second i ran off due to the foul smell. But when I was walking pass those stalls of beefs, muttons, chickens, fishes... haha!! When I'm married, I'm gonna bring my kids to those wet markets too! Yes! The tekka one. I remember going there dn knw hw mne zillion times. With mom, with grandma. And with late grandpa last time, always get something to eat one le! hehe!!

Feeling kinda sleepy now. Don't know want to slp or not. The mussels are being soaked in de water right now. Mom said to leave it like that. Okay lor.

Oh man....!!! ....miss him

juz for fuN!

daNciNg aLoNE

i'm sorry i cried today. i wasnt being a good girl i almost totally forgot where i stand now. i'm sorry. i hope you understand.

went off from work, drenched, few minutes later, the rain just stopped. ridiculous. totally making me wnt to kill the weather. Only if I could.
My jeans were wet all the way and I was feeling the discomfort when I got to my destination. waited for another 45 mins than I went on to the office that I need to. Went for the interview. For the 1st time, I was in the interview for total of 2 hours. Well, I had to do some tests also la. Interviewed by 2 people individually and as the time goes by, I was freezing sick. I walked out of the building and the wind was strong. The river and sea? well, are just right behind the building. I smsed fida before that that I could see her workplace from the meeting room i'm in. Took the bus back home and again in the aircon, freezing! And my head starts spinning. I am feeling dizzy.
Reached home, showered, saw Ashlee Simpson's L.O.V.E. mv, ate, watched tv, lied down, update blog... offLine

"Listening to Kuch Kuch Hota Hai"

Came back to work. As usual. Arrived at 0750hrs in the morning. Sat at thestaircase together with the same 2 guys, sebastian and oj. just like how wewere yesterday night. We were sitting right in front of a clinic which I'vechecked is under our company's. So, I thought, why not the 3 of us go in andget an MC but thinking, see how la. This morning, Sebastian came to mesaying he still feel bad due to his flu and OJ was complaining that his backis aching and his arm is aching. I told them both, yesterday the clinic wasjust right in front of us and why have none of us not gone in.

Work was bored. Beat up by tj again. Oh man! I was just doing a re-enactmentof meself to OJ yesterday. Due to vulgars were involved. Haha!! My banglewas thrown off and temporarily confiscated.

The big pimple on my forehead, on mah! Why does it have to be on theforehead again! TJ put on the pimple cream for me, he was laughing andeverything cuz he said it was like a bindhi already. Chey! An original grown bindhi I have.

Accompanied OJ for his cny shopping, along with sebas!. Got some chocolates from Sebas and Coffee Bean by OJ hehe!!! It was realli fun going out with them. It's been such a long time. Saw a jacket at Esprit. Tried it on and damn it look good. Sebas thought so too. Gonna bring him along when I'm gonna get it as can get some discount with his Esprit Visa. hehe!! Gotta get more shirts too at Factory Outlet. The place to get shirts. Haha!! That's what I think la.

Checked out the place where I'm suppose to go for interview tomorrow. Got the idea where it is already and how to get there, But no harm getting there earlier! Hehe!! In case I get lost.

People are hinting me to stay but I've made up my mind. Sigh. I don't know.I just got to think straight now. I can't live on people anymore. Thinking of it, I'm totally broke now.

Old times... Good times....

Okay, so basically this might not be the way to start a book. Buy hey! I am not starting a book. I am just typing out whatever I feel like typing on my blog. I am a single Asian woman, aged 24 which am going to be 25 years of age soon and I believe am getting older, not younger and there is no time to waste anymore. Well, I feel I have wasted my life long enough. At the age of 18, I wasted my parent money. At the age of 20 I got a permanent job and I wasted the money on

spending. A lot.

At the age of 22, got into a puppy love relationship with a Chinese-Malaysian guy and ended after one and a half year. Got sad and befriended another Chinese guy. Apparently, he is Malaysian too but became a Singapore PR. Got into a relationship, which I know, that will not last long but with a crazy hope in mind, I went on with it. Ended a year later with a guilt feeling and a terrible feeling.

Tried losing weight. Went for a jog, took a visit to the gym. Lose a little but later gained a little more after that due to certain circumstances.

Went back to school too. Took up part-time studies on ‘O’ level courses. Took on 5 subjects. English Language, Elementary Mathematics, Combined Science (Physics/Chemistry), Malay Language and History. It was really giving me a hard time. Skipping Physics classes, which I regretted later. Skipped English Language because it was boring. Went to every Mathematics class and got to know a really cool gal there and were stuck onto each other for a while. Chemistry class was fun when doing all those experiments. Learned them and I did well in the practical exam, which I hope I did. Oh well. Stopped going to History classes too and did my own readings. Only that when the time came, I found myself sitting for History paper, alone! Yes!

2005 ending and it was a bad ending. Not really all so bad but I managed to have more time for my friends and family. I went on a last minute Genting trip with Fida dear on the 1^st 3 days of fasting month. Went on to Tambun water theme park at Perak with Uncle Jasman and wife and friends and cousin, Teacher Aishah. It was really fun! And the best part was that we ended up being in Cameron Highland for the 1^st time. It was amazing and due to the rainy season, the coldness was really freezing. Came back Singapore feeling mpv-lagged and down with fever and sore throat. It was sickening. I hate it. I even start wearing contact lenses to beautify myself and went on putting on eyeliners like nobody business again.

Went back to work with the Stock-take going on. It was all going on smoothly but slow as many time were wasted….

Reminiscing (is that the right spelling?) back, there were many good times but at the same time, too many sorrows that I had just kept for too long. Keeping them for so long has made me really unbearable of the going on around me.

So, I hope, for this 2006, something will happen. Not the bad, but the good. I hope something good will happen. I just have to stop making stupid mistakes and not waste anymore time. I am not going to make any resolutions because they don’t really work on me.

I really should have type all this out even before the New Year starts but hey! It’s only the 3^rd January 2006 and I am not even at work. Oh well, Happy New Year too all!

And oh! I want a new phone and I got my eyes set on a piece of LG's P7200....

more metLing

yammie called me back to the room! Shah Rukh Khan, Hrithik Roshan and wives at Koffee with Karan. Seeing the end credits, it's actally a year 2004 show.

take a BreaK

went out to Zuraidah's engagement and it was freaking hot! The sun was shininy so damn bringhtly and luckily there were shades when I walked through the carpark. Waited for Nana and when she same, oh boy! she's shorten her hair le! Missed her with the long hair actually though. But her hair looks dry still even after treatment. Looks kinda really frizzy. Sorry Nana, but it's the truth. Met up with Sallyn and family the Zuraidah's.
Zuraidah looks the same still and for the 1st time, I'm, I mean, we're seeing her with make-up. Haha!! When I look at her, reminded me of my yellow eyeshadow. Havent worn them for long tim. Haha!!
Went to get baby pressie's for Siti's little girl whom which has just gone out of her mother's womb 3 weeks ago. When we got in Northpoint, the weather was hot. Freaking hot. But when we got looked out, it was raining. Freaking heavy cats and dogs. Nana got some t-shirts at OP and they seem to have nicer designs now. Havent been there to get any tees. Gonna get some soon and more shirts at Factory Outlet. Stumbled upon one when I was out with me cous the other day.
After Siti's, went off to airport for Popeye. Didn't go back to change. With my black kebaya on, I went straight to airport. Hoping to see Lindsay before that but I got there kinda late so, went straight to Popeye, meeting Fida and Lianne there. Was really freaking hungry. I just don't know what happened to me but I seem to be hungry today.

Oh boy!!!

Teacher Aishah! Don't melt too much k... Cuz, I'll be melting too! Haha!! OK! Whatever!

Crapness!

The strongness is there! Haha!! Lameness... Duh! Whatever!

Ok! Crap! madness! Shut up!

Mom, realli, enough already!

New Year - 2006

Happy new year to everybody. My friends, my family, my colleagues, my whoever who knows me la! My memoirs of 2005 are best to be forgotten as the very sweet thing are the needles that are pricking my heart.
2006 is here, I hope something good will happen to me and the same to all of you out there.

I bet all of you had agreat new year out there. Like every year, I would spend it at home, watching tv or sleeping. Haha!!! My plasma was being good yesterday that I get to watched 13 Going 30. Yup! It's a nice sweet movie. Than there was Blair Witch 2 on ch5 but I didnt watch it. It was kinda scary. And watching Micheal Jackson Number Ones on Star World. I was thinking on how scared I was everytime I watched Thriller. haha!! I was a kid then! And finally, while the new year comes, I celebrated it by watching Harry Potter And The Prisoner of Azkaban on HBO. Muaahaha!!! Too tired after that that I felt asleep.

Going to a friend's engagement later and meeting another friend who has just given birth to a baby girl. yay!

Wonder what to do now. I can't go back to sleep. Another not working day tomorrow. So sian....