& so....

...it happened. I just couldn't time it. I just didn't know that it would be so fast but it happened. It's like another happiest day of my life once again and I'm loving it. I'm starting to have no worries but I feel like I need to say it out but it happened without me expecting it and it happened... & yes, this is de 1st.

Had dinner out wif new friends. yes. Was psychoed and had no other other choice but to join them at China Black. 1st time for me there. Got in early and was hoping to go off early and thank goodness I did but oh boy! another hung over baby. This time, I think I had a little too much. I mean, more like before. But I was still feeling oKay... yea baby!

couldnt sleep. onli managed 1 hour of sleep which i later woke up wif irritations in de eyes. I forgot to take out my contacts. Took it out, washed my face and feets, went back to sleep BUT! can't! for de next 2 hours I tried to sleep but I cant! So, i got up, showered, washed my hair, put on my clothes, ate breakfast and now drinking coffee. Oh boy! The pain is unbearable.

boo-hoo

staybing home realli is a bore. I wonder how many people survies....

speechless.... no title ar!

im getting kinda freezing right now. it's realli windy outside that im getting cold. did i mention that twice? anyway, Something's Gotta Give kinda getting little too irritated for me, gotta change de channel. Haha!! turned on CSI for yammie.

Oh damn! I have not washed the dishes.... Gotta do it after this b4 I go off to bed.

I'm starting to miss someone. I don't know which one but I am certain that is that one and not that other one. I wonder why because I'm still enjoying this like I don't want to go back into that other life for a new start of another thing again. You know what I mean.

Okay whatever!

I'm getting the itch again. I feel like cutting fringe again but then again I guess not because i might just regret it and I might jz keep on whine about it as de heat might cause some pop-outs on my forehead.
Anyway, asked fida out for coffee as I was bored. the other dae, onli went to macdonald's since onli fast foods are opened. at coffee bean~boat quay, sat there from like 1930hrs, fireworks came on at ard 2132hrs and when I see the time, it was 2323hrs! I was like realli surprised that me and fida got up and went off back! haha!!
Got really hungry. Took my dinner once i reached home. finished up pasta and gotta do the washing after this before gg off to bed.

did i just repeated the same line?

me and yammie exchanged handphones. but, we got too stuck to our lovely phones that we re-changed back to our own phones. haha!!! i want a flip-phone. I miss using one. Thanks to The O.C. ar! bloody-hell! make me want to have flip-phone again!

I really want one!!!! tsktsktsk!!!

Siti Sarinah & Siti Saiyidah <- wat a titLe ->

okay, seriously I forgot what year this is but I remember my uncle and mom already rented a van and so we took it for a trip to kota tinggi at last minute..

dis one was last yr, 2005, hari raya. haha!!

..and this was few days back. yr 2006. went to see Mocca at Esplanade. Haha!!

work was crazy. it was all wack tacky facky sacky haha! whatever you want to call it. haha! i even did facial mask a work! haha! u knw how cool is that. and since we did it i de production floor, we used the cold water from de water cooler to clean off my face but which later on i went to de toilet to thoroughly washed off and touch up again.

had chocolates and durian brownies which i find it unexpected but alreadi half in my mouth. things went on and it was realli fun to be all secretive and all. i was realli looking forward to 5.30pm to go off and when it's 5.30pm, i was going off happily! haha!!!

Met yammie and shidah and shasha for Mocca's gig at de outdoor stage of Esplanade and after de fireworks goes off in de middle of de performance, our stomachs starts singing louder that we went to Makansutra to have a bite.

Everything was expensive that we shared de half bottle of mineral water that I still had. Haha!! But it was fun la yesterdae. It was fun fun fun. Wackoey ar!

>biTedEduZt<

down low, ur slow. high above, ur in love. in d middle, ur d fiddle. <-got that from shasha's bLog. i loike dt.

why does everybody have to be around me so suddenly? why am i suddenly getting all the attentions that i wanted before? i do notwant it now cuz i don't feel like having it now. get away from me you lot! go away! seriously, i need my own time and i do it when i like it. who are you lot to say of me when you don't even know what i am going through!?

you!!! you are so irritating me that i am irritated of you right now. i've known ur true intention and i realli am looking down upon you right veri now. i cant see u as a fren right now although i am trying to be one. but nw u've proved me wrong and that's it. im out of de question forever!

and you so are the one very sweet ppl. u hv sound so shweet dt it melted me well. well, you you you are so you. i have nothing much to say. i am so happy and appreciate everything you've done. you knw i would be there for you too. you're now like my shining star. haha!! cant believe i said that. im so happy whenever hear for thee.

you are always there for me. before. not now. now, u still have that energy to help me around. i am glad that im still visible to you. im glad u still do wnt to keep in contact with me. u still hear my voice from afar and you still know what's going on even when i dn even knw how to start or end it. of wow! what can i say? you are making me miserable but do you knw when you are not anywhere near me, i feel at ease. i am so sorry but that is how i felt.

i have 3 weeks left. i am like being in amazing race trying to get that prize before everything ended. what should happen to me when that 3 weeks ended? what would happen to me if i just have to rot in de cell without any backups helping me? people say it'll be easy on me even if im not out there, well, i don't think so! like! hah! harLOw!

i am trying my best in everything right now although my body and soul and bones are dangling in that hell every half of de day and singing out songs of crapiness and madness of everything mixing into one head. bla bla bla.... goodnight!

-wack

I'm feeling guilty. I am trying very hard. i am so sorry if i've did anything wrong but i don't want to use you. i am your friend and you are my friend. i hope you do understand.

Anyway,.....
.....gurlz having fun

everybody seems to be updating and i have not! haha!! i get kinda too lazy nowadays. I've been feeling bored and sick of everything.
de kenduri that day was realli so much fun. we had a blast. everybody was tired and stuck down there that we couldnt anything much but to laugh at stupid lame jokes and talked about anything we dislike or like or whatever. sucks right! I don't know what the hell i am babbling.

Watched Victoria Secret's fashion show last night and Ricky Martin's Drop It On Me is really nice. I love the song. Makes me want to move my body! Oh yeah! And there was one part of the show where the models were walking down the runway, Aaron Carter's I Want Candy was played. It sound so wrong but it was remix so I sounded kinda okay to be played on the runway with models wearing kinky lingeries. Haha!!

Dad bought Howl's Moving Castle dvd. He bought Legend Of Zorro too. Think I'm gonna go in my room and watch the Howl's Moving Castle. Oh yay!

This Is ME

Does your name begin with: S
For you, it is pleasure before business. You can be romantically idealistic to a fault and is capable of much sensuality. But you never loose control of your emotions. Once you make the commitment you stick like glue. You could get jealous and possessive. You tend to be very selfish often regarding yourself as the only human being on the planet.. You like being the centre of attention. You are very caring sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. Turned on by soft lights, romantic thoughts. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role, or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the rightperson to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless.
You are kind nature & sweet which is found to be attractive by many. You are a good friend.

MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted Strong-willed and highly motivated Sharp thoughts Easily angered Attracts others and loves attention Deep feelings Beautiful physically and mentally Firm standpoint Easily influenced Needs no motivation Easily consoled Systematic (left brain)
Loves to dream Strong clairvoyance Understanding Sickness usually in the ear and neck Good imagination Good debating skills Good physical Weak breathing Loves literature and the arts loves travelling Dislike being at home restless Not having many children Hardworking High spirited Spendthrift


Taurus

Turn ons
Stability and dependability characterize Taurus. They like people who can blend and grow with them. If you have a Taurus partner you should appreciate all things bright and beautiful. They have an inherent artistic sense and are fond of color and music. Judge the life ith them from purely materialistic point of view. Enjoy everything luxurious that money can provide. Enjoy good food (better if you can cook to please them) and good drinks with them.

Turn offs
Taurus is very slow to anger (in fact you may s pend the whole life with them and still no spark) but you should not push your luck too much. Being unreasonable or aggressive with them may get you into trouble. Do not press him into a corner and if you do be prepared for a violent rage. Taurus is capable of violent outbursts though this is on very rare occasions. If you have a roving eye forget it because Taurus have can take the cake when it comes to being possessive. They can be suffocating when being possessive about you.

cutie-pie

Nick Carter. I don't know what's with me and him.... Good thing he's not with Paris Hilton anymore but oh boy! Watched him in 8 Simple Rules of Dating my Wife, or I think that's what the title is, he's so cute.

Got loads of chocolates at work. Yummy...

i miss you - im thinking of another you - im happy with you - im excited with another you

re-Edited

edited my layout... hehehe... it was raining heavy again just now!

Leavin' On A Jetplane

I'm ... I'm ... All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go, I'm standin' here outside your door, I hate to wake you up to say goodbye But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn, he taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn, Already I'm so lonesome I could die So kiss me and smile for me, Tell me that you'll wait for me, Hold me like you'll never let me go 'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane, I don't know when I'll be back again, Oh, babe, I hate to go I'm ... There's so many times I've let you down, So many times I've played around, I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing Every place I go, I think of you, Every song I sing, I sing for you, When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring So kiss me and smile for me, Tell me that you'll wait for me, Hold me like you'll never let me go 'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane, I don't know when I'll be back again, Oh, babe, I hate to go Now the time has come to leave you, One more time, oh, let me kiss you, And close your eyes and I'll be on my way Dream about the days to come, When I won't have to leave alone, About the times that I won't have to say ... Oh, kiss me and smile for me, Tell me that you'll wait for me, Hold me like you'll never let me go 'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane, I don't know when I'll be back again, Oh, babe, I hate to go And I'm leaving on a jet plane, I don't know when I'll be back again, Oh, babe, I hate to go But I'm leaving on a jet plane, (Ah ah ah ah) Leaving on a jet plane (Ah ah ah ah) Leaving on a jet plane

Thanks to Hasni dear, now I'm hooked to Leavin' On A Jetplane.... haha!! ... & dad came to me talking about his retrenched at Sime Darby and how late granddad got him to work temporarily at the American School while they were having a concert... So, what's de conclusion of the story? The kids in the concert were singing Leavin' On A Jetplane... haha!!! Oh! Did I mention that I have the 'N Sync version too?... Yes, I have... haha!! Anyway, that lizard which I snapped its tail back then, it keeps appearing like every morning... is it coming back to haunt me?

upside down... turn it UP!

okay, my Saturday seems to have turned to Sunday. I slept like early le on Friday night. About mn like that la, but in between I woke up cuz of the coldness and some smses. I woke up at 10am on de dot. Couldnt go back to sleep. So, I woke up, had breakfast, went on to the net and by 3pm, I felt kinda sleepy. Aiyoh! read book, fall asleep lor... Went on to sleep until almost 11pm. Bloody hell!! Woke up, watched tv, see Robert De Niro died and how cute Edward Burns is, shower, watched tv, read my book, washed blanket, eat and then... continue reading book again. Haha!! By 3am, go to sleep and today, 9am woken up by an incoming sms. Cannot go back sleep liao. So, wake up and file my nails. Hehe!! Been wanting to do it for a long time already and finally I did it! Haha!! Like big achievement like that.

It's dad's turn compaying mom to the market. Guess they're buying lots of heavy stuffs.

Looks like I'm gonna be awake the whole day today and I hope I can sleep earli tonight and wake up early tomorrow morning.

Teacher Aishah cut off her hair alreadi! Look nicey! I've been wanting to cut it short again but I don't want to regret again so this time, I'm gonna keep it long long long long......

Reunited once agaiN!

Early morning already, make me pissed off! I'm already feeling sian and just because you more sian doesnt mean you can vent it on me! Halo! When I'm sian, I would not pass it on to you le! I tell you why I sian. Okay, I made a mistake, but one small silly mistake, you're trying to be fussy about it. What are you trying to do? Giving me my own medicine isit!?

Chey!

But, I really thank you on your gift. I love it!

Full Metal Alchemist final conclusion. Almost brought me to tears. I'm gonna be a little spoil a bit. The brothers got back together! Yay! They got back together! They are back together! I thought they are not gonna be together again and Alphonse Elric grown up character look really cute! He looked just like Edward Elric. Yay! They got back together! Yay!

tick tock....

i swaer once i have money, i'll go back down to chinatown and do some shopping but that will have to be done in the day la because at night there'll be more people and it means more crowded. it's like worse than geylang la, but it's like Petaling St in KL bu aiyah! forget it la.
Went down to Chinatown for an interview. No sun today again but walking through Terenganu St, Pagoda St, Temple St was such a breeze. looking at those items being sold at the bazaar without feeling hot or pespiring, it was such a breeze. the wind blowing onto my face and my hair blown back. oh yes! i feel so good.
after the interview, i was hoping that it'll rain so hard and hope it'll be like the other days back then. I dn knw why. I wasnt just satisfied enough. Does working in chinatown mean so cheap?

Fuck it.

Going back to work tomorrow. Fucking sian. I don't like it. I thought I said I will just go to any job I could so that I could still have an income but why am I feeling unsatisfied? Oh my! I'm bad. Am I?
O levels results would only comes out in Feb/Mar for the private candidates, which is really taking a very long time. Oh well, I better not be complaining much and just take whatever comes in the way. Havent I told meself not to waste time anymore?
I still havent told dad that I've already tendered resignation at me current job and am looking for another job right now. I don't know if he really don't know or if mom has told him. I find it kinda hard to tell him. Sometimes, I find him to be really... urgh! Don't know what to say ar.

Should I eat now?
Nobody's online. So boring. the Amins having problem with the net again isit?

Man, which one should I watch later? Along Came Polly or America's Next Top Model? Mom wnts to cut off HBO. but I want it. So, when I get a job again, I'm gonna retake HBO and than I'm gonna add in Star Movies too.

Oh, Happy 17th Birthday to dearie Siti Nuraihan and Happy 18th Birthday to dearer Muhd Sufyan. Stay positive you 2. Stay Positive? Souns old skool. Oh well. Just go on the wrong track and don't waste your parents money. Alright. Waste only yours.

I'm starting to hate Friendster. It's lagging all the time. I hate it. Want to log out also lagging. Friendster is such a lagger man!

*Beep*

went to work, received my 5 years Long Service Award. And yes, I know what would I be receiving. A Sovil Titus watch. It's nice. Sweet and simple I must say. Mom liked it. Haha!! Told her she could have it if she wants it. Thought of exchanging it with my colleague cuz she got the blue one while I got the purple one. But when I looked at her blue, I thought, my purple's nicer. Hehe!!

Weather still as cold and monsoon as de last 4 days. Straight. Non-stop. Onli lighter than heavier than lighter than heavier again. Went my way to the library today, hoping that it won't close early as it's an eve of a public holiday. It's hari Raya haji tomorrow yup.

Came back, helped mom with the clearings in the kitchen as well as helping her preparing some things. The onions, the prawns and Dia. Haha!! Watched Dia cuz mom was watching it. Oh man! Although it's already season 3 now, the story is still as sickening as I remembered on de season 1 and 2. I mean, not sickening as I hate it but the characters of the drama realli makes u wnt to slap them or hate them or hit them or whatever la.

Anyway, I'm doing half of de laundries now. Will hang it out tomorrow morning la. Than, left abit of cleaning in the kitchen. Leaving it to yammie to finish it.

It's realli cool when u have you have ur aunts and uncles on MSN... haha!!!

/meNanGis semLm

finally felt sleepy ard 0500hrs. Had a realli nice dream but later woken up an incoming sms as de rain gets heavier and heavier and non-stop. sms came in from tj saying he's leaving and telling me to take care. i was like, huh!? i remembered he was leaving for HK. hehe!! can't wait for more goodies!

woken up by mom at 1000hrs. Went to Tekka's wet market. It's been zillion years since i've been there. And like before, mom, just put the things bought one side and asked me to wait while she get more stuffs. I'd already promised her I'll company her but was feeling kinda unwilling with the rain going on heavy non-stop, i had no choice but to get up and followed her. Well, was standing in front of a meat stall where there was no one at all, for onli a second i ran off due to the foul smell. But when I was walking pass those stalls of beefs, muttons, chickens, fishes... haha!! When I'm married, I'm gonna bring my kids to those wet markets too! Yes! The tekka one. I remember going there dn knw hw mne zillion times. With mom, with grandma. And with late grandpa last time, always get something to eat one le! hehe!!

Feeling kinda sleepy now. Don't know want to slp or not. The mussels are being soaked in de water right now. Mom said to leave it like that. Okay lor.

Oh man....!!! ....miss him

juz for fuN!

daNciNg aLoNE

i'm sorry i cried today. i wasnt being a good girl i almost totally forgot where i stand now. i'm sorry. i hope you understand.

went off from work, drenched, few minutes later, the rain just stopped. ridiculous. totally making me wnt to kill the weather. Only if I could.
My jeans were wet all the way and I was feeling the discomfort when I got to my destination. waited for another 45 mins than I went on to the office that I need to. Went for the interview. For the 1st time, I was in the interview for total of 2 hours. Well, I had to do some tests also la. Interviewed by 2 people individually and as the time goes by, I was freezing sick. I walked out of the building and the wind was strong. The river and sea? well, are just right behind the building. I smsed fida before that that I could see her workplace from the meeting room i'm in. Took the bus back home and again in the aircon, freezing! And my head starts spinning. I am feeling dizzy.
Reached home, showered, saw Ashlee Simpson's L.O.V.E. mv, ate, watched tv, lied down, update blog... offLine

"Listening to Kuch Kuch Hota Hai"

Came back to work. As usual. Arrived at 0750hrs in the morning. Sat at thestaircase together with the same 2 guys, sebastian and oj. just like how wewere yesterday night. We were sitting right in front of a clinic which I'vechecked is under our company's. So, I thought, why not the 3 of us go in andget an MC but thinking, see how la. This morning, Sebastian came to mesaying he still feel bad due to his flu and OJ was complaining that his backis aching and his arm is aching. I told them both, yesterday the clinic wasjust right in front of us and why have none of us not gone in.

Work was bored. Beat up by tj again. Oh man! I was just doing a re-enactmentof meself to OJ yesterday. Due to vulgars were involved. Haha!! My banglewas thrown off and temporarily confiscated.

The big pimple on my forehead, on mah! Why does it have to be on theforehead again! TJ put on the pimple cream for me, he was laughing andeverything cuz he said it was like a bindhi already. Chey! An original grown bindhi I have.

Accompanied OJ for his cny shopping, along with sebas!. Got some chocolates from Sebas and Coffee Bean by OJ hehe!!! It was realli fun going out with them. It's been such a long time. Saw a jacket at Esprit. Tried it on and damn it look good. Sebas thought so too. Gonna bring him along when I'm gonna get it as can get some discount with his Esprit Visa. hehe!! Gotta get more shirts too at Factory Outlet. The place to get shirts. Haha!! That's what I think la.

Checked out the place where I'm suppose to go for interview tomorrow. Got the idea where it is already and how to get there, But no harm getting there earlier! Hehe!! In case I get lost.

People are hinting me to stay but I've made up my mind. Sigh. I don't know.I just got to think straight now. I can't live on people anymore. Thinking of it, I'm totally broke now.

Old times... Good times....

Okay, so basically this might not be the way to start a book. Buy hey! I am not starting a book. I am just typing out whatever I feel like typing on my blog. I am a single Asian woman, aged 24 which am going to be 25 years of age soon and I believe am getting older, not younger and there is no time to waste anymore. Well, I feel I have wasted my life long enough. At the age of 18, I wasted my parent money. At the age of 20 I got a permanent job and I wasted the money on

spending. A lot.

At the age of 22, got into a puppy love relationship with a Chinese-Malaysian guy and ended after one and a half year. Got sad and befriended another Chinese guy. Apparently, he is Malaysian too but became a Singapore PR. Got into a relationship, which I know, that will not last long but with a crazy hope in mind, I went on with it. Ended a year later with a guilt feeling and a terrible feeling.

Tried losing weight. Went for a jog, took a visit to the gym. Lose a little but later gained a little more after that due to certain circumstances.

Went back to school too. Took up part-time studies on ‘O’ level courses. Took on 5 subjects. English Language, Elementary Mathematics, Combined Science (Physics/Chemistry), Malay Language and History. It was really giving me a hard time. Skipping Physics classes, which I regretted later. Skipped English Language because it was boring. Went to every Mathematics class and got to know a really cool gal there and were stuck onto each other for a while. Chemistry class was fun when doing all those experiments. Learned them and I did well in the practical exam, which I hope I did. Oh well. Stopped going to History classes too and did my own readings. Only that when the time came, I found myself sitting for History paper, alone! Yes!

2005 ending and it was a bad ending. Not really all so bad but I managed to have more time for my friends and family. I went on a last minute Genting trip with Fida dear on the 1^st 3 days of fasting month. Went on to Tambun water theme park at Perak with Uncle Jasman and wife and friends and cousin, Teacher Aishah. It was really fun! And the best part was that we ended up being in Cameron Highland for the 1^st time. It was amazing and due to the rainy season, the coldness was really freezing. Came back Singapore feeling mpv-lagged and down with fever and sore throat. It was sickening. I hate it. I even start wearing contact lenses to beautify myself and went on putting on eyeliners like nobody business again.

Went back to work with the Stock-take going on. It was all going on smoothly but slow as many time were wasted….

Reminiscing (is that the right spelling?) back, there were many good times but at the same time, too many sorrows that I had just kept for too long. Keeping them for so long has made me really unbearable of the going on around me.

So, I hope, for this 2006, something will happen. Not the bad, but the good. I hope something good will happen. I just have to stop making stupid mistakes and not waste anymore time. I am not going to make any resolutions because they don’t really work on me.

I really should have type all this out even before the New Year starts but hey! It’s only the 3^rd January 2006 and I am not even at work. Oh well, Happy New Year too all!

And oh! I want a new phone and I got my eyes set on a piece of LG's P7200....

more metLing

yammie called me back to the room! Shah Rukh Khan, Hrithik Roshan and wives at Koffee with Karan. Seeing the end credits, it's actally a year 2004 show.

take a BreaK

went out to Zuraidah's engagement and it was freaking hot! The sun was shininy so damn bringhtly and luckily there were shades when I walked through the carpark. Waited for Nana and when she same, oh boy! she's shorten her hair le! Missed her with the long hair actually though. But her hair looks dry still even after treatment. Looks kinda really frizzy. Sorry Nana, but it's the truth. Met up with Sallyn and family the Zuraidah's.
Zuraidah looks the same still and for the 1st time, I'm, I mean, we're seeing her with make-up. Haha!! When I look at her, reminded me of my yellow eyeshadow. Havent worn them for long tim. Haha!!
Went to get baby pressie's for Siti's little girl whom which has just gone out of her mother's womb 3 weeks ago. When we got in Northpoint, the weather was hot. Freaking hot. But when we got looked out, it was raining. Freaking heavy cats and dogs. Nana got some t-shirts at OP and they seem to have nicer designs now. Havent been there to get any tees. Gonna get some soon and more shirts at Factory Outlet. Stumbled upon one when I was out with me cous the other day.
After Siti's, went off to airport for Popeye. Didn't go back to change. With my black kebaya on, I went straight to airport. Hoping to see Lindsay before that but I got there kinda late so, went straight to Popeye, meeting Fida and Lianne there. Was really freaking hungry. I just don't know what happened to me but I seem to be hungry today.

Oh boy!!!

Teacher Aishah! Don't melt too much k... Cuz, I'll be melting too! Haha!! OK! Whatever!

Crapness!

The strongness is there! Haha!! Lameness... Duh! Whatever!

Ok! Crap! madness! Shut up!

Mom, realli, enough already!

New Year - 2006

Happy new year to everybody. My friends, my family, my colleagues, my whoever who knows me la! My memoirs of 2005 are best to be forgotten as the very sweet thing are the needles that are pricking my heart.
2006 is here, I hope something good will happen to me and the same to all of you out there.

I bet all of you had agreat new year out there. Like every year, I would spend it at home, watching tv or sleeping. Haha!!! My plasma was being good yesterday that I get to watched 13 Going 30. Yup! It's a nice sweet movie. Than there was Blair Witch 2 on ch5 but I didnt watch it. It was kinda scary. And watching Micheal Jackson Number Ones on Star World. I was thinking on how scared I was everytime I watched Thriller. haha!! I was a kid then! And finally, while the new year comes, I celebrated it by watching Harry Potter And The Prisoner of Azkaban on HBO. Muaahaha!!! Too tired after that that I felt asleep.

Going to a friend's engagement later and meeting another friend who has just given birth to a baby girl. yay!

Wonder what to do now. I can't go back to sleep. Another not working day tomorrow. So sian....

Opposites Attracts....

Do not ask me why. I don't know why but I love the layout. It seems.... sweet. It does not mean anything but yes... It seems sweet.

"Name the members of Spice girls and N Sync"

Woke up like about 3pm. muaahaha!!! I think the last time I did that was few weeks ago? Or was it later? I man the waking up time. Last night, went out to meet out Lindsay, who came back from Australia for a little while. Played games at The Mind Cafe. The Smarty Pant game was realli funny. Jessi and Kymmy came a little later and we all had dinner at Mr. Bean, joined by Rachel. I was realli damn tired. Thanks to the food, I could almost barely walked that I had to dragged meself after that.
Took the Nightrider back to Yishun. Experiencing of riding the bus, I might just think twice of going back taking that bus in the near future. Hehe!! It stops at an unexpected bus-stop. But oh well, there was a cut guy who actualli board up at Toa Payoh and droppd down at the same stop with me. Hehe!!!
Ok ok... Slept like about almost 5am, grandma actualli sensed me being just in bed, she asked if I'v written her white card.

Angel, OJ, I've confessed. This morning before I fell asleep, I listened to a sweet sad hindi song and it reminded me of him that tears start falling for awhile. But it was only for a little while that later I start thinking about other things and feel asleep.
But don't worry. I'm fine.

lagged

tj helped me took a photo of meself for me resume. tried to print it out on de photopaper but failed due to de printer network problem. I had to do it meself but the problem is that my printer, hehe, havent buy color ink le. hehe!!! he wanted me to take off me contacts bt i cant as there was nowhere to put. he insisted but i refrained! in de end, de photo was jz taken and oh boy! i looked so tan! and i looked so round! haha!!
later, i took a photo of meself with me handphone and oh boy, i think i look cute. haha!!! talking abt meself... tj kept pinching both my cheeks. realli hurts! i realli cant escape from it! i always get it! no matter how!
but i was realli mad at him when he went on with de vulgars non-stop and goes on to the finger. told him off of limitations. he felt bad after that. hahaha!!!

stock take still going at work, i believe, right now. went off at 5.30pm as i wasnt realli feeling good. everybody thought i stayed but a big NO NO.... hahaha!!!

downloaded Veer-Zaara but I just cant get the subtitles on. Urgh!

Updated Photos

feeling rather lagged at 1st. than down with fever. now feeling pissed. tomorrow going back to work for the stock take. oh boy! After came back to work yesterdae, ate lunch, ate me medicines, watched the tagalog drama on tv2. haha!! took a nap. At night, after dinner, was really bored. Wanted to watch a movie. Found the nearest dvd lying to me. Sigh. Khabi
Khushi Khabie Gham.
haha!! havent realli talked about the trip to Lost World Tambun. Really a fun trip. With the last minute trip to Cameron Highland. It was cold. Strawberries picking, tea plantations and factory. It was fun. Getting off at nowhere places taking photos. Seeing waterfalls. Nice sceneries. Really nice sceneries. All the hills and mountains. Green leaves. Fresh air. Taking photos of all kinds of things. Even funny car number plates. They are really amusing. Really tiring. Seriously tiring. Finished all our money at the end of the trip. View the photos of our 23rd, 24th, 25th trips..... i'll upload sha2's later... hehe

Shake it off....

seriously, she's pissing me off....

still waiting....

im down with fever. still recovering now. had sore throat. oh boy! sickening! still not donw yet wif uploading my recent holiday photos. but for now, i gotta lie down and sleep. de mdecin has realli taken over me....

no strength

i am so de tired. came back at like about 0100hrs and it's 1400hrs in de afternoon. my head's spinning. took some panadol and nw having my breakfast. fried rice and teacino from BOH. haha... long story and unexpected visits yesterdae. Oh yeah, lots of things to tell. But now I'm realli realli tired. Oh my god! It was fun!

...Can't wait

I heard Perak is having a flood right now. Wonder how it's gonna be when we get there....

Anyway, had the experience to put on the contact lenses today. haha!!! teacher aishah said she was in de optical shop for like half an hour to learn hw to t8k them off and how to put them on. while me, well, we were in de optical shop for like 15-20mins... haha!! yes teacher aishah, im boasting... so what, i feel like it. realli broke this month. haha!!! nah, not realli. havent got yammie's surprise pressie. gonna get it later though. also bought a nice green bag, at, well, 77th st. it was realli nice. teacher aishah thought so too.

well, thk i wanna t8k off my contacts now.... realli gotta get use to these things man.

blowed out!

1st thing, I'd like to say, I've been a good girl... hehe.. see he picture. TJ trimmed my eyebrow and cleared away some facial hair. Picked my blackheads and press my pimples. Haha!!! Yup! I have a part-time beautician working for me... for FREE!

and yes, my plasma has finalli come its time. was watching The Calcium Kid on HBO when at about 0200hrs, de screen blew off a few mths back and now finalli it blew away. for good. Finalli, it's like still in a coma... well... okay, never mind. I actualli ran out to de living room to continue watching. I love Brit comedies. Certain of them though...

HBO has realli got me stuck on de seats. The School of Rock realli rocks. Jack Black was so cool than seeing him in King Kong realli not so cool. He's tis so selfish character. Oh boy! and there's that familiar kid in the movie. I was practically trying to think back where I saw him. Finally when I got back, i remembered that he's from Green Day's music video, Wake Me Up When September Ends. Anyway, a big hoo-ha on the movie, I give a rating of 4 1/2 upon 10. Yup! Why?... *YAWN* Those who wonder why, go and catch it.

Can't wait for tomorrow... going off to Tambun! Tambun! Tambun!

Okay, listening to Mohabbatein songs make me wnt to watch it again. Nothing special on the movie, well, there's Shah Rukh Khan!
hey! Shah Rukh Khan you know. Come to think of it, why I havent got any Shah Rukh Khan wallpapers huh?

muehehehe!!!

y do i keep sneezing?

"STOP THINKING OF ME WHOEVER YOU ARE!!!!"

Anyway, i'm gonna continue where I stopped... Haha!!! Although im suppose to watch Devdas, I ended up watching Khabi Khushi Khabi Gham .... hehe!!

such a tear-jerker

which 1 would it be?

i want to watch a movie before should i sleep? Devdas or.... Khabi Khushi Khabi Gham? Wanted to watch Devdas at 1st. Wanna see Aiswarya Rai dancing in Dola Re Dola song. But, next week I will be in Perak and won't be able to watch Khabi Khushi Gham.... mini-miney-mo-choose-the-one-i-love-the-most.... aiyah! Devdas ar.... errhurhur!!!

i am so de full le....

had dinner wif uncle jasman dear and wife, cik rahmah. with teacher aishah dear and meself. we all had western with de sharing of knifes to cut our steaks and fish and chickens. i had 2 glasses of teh tarik. kinda addicted to them now. realli wnt some more le! teacher aishah had teh-o and ice peach tea later. haha!!! talked about lizards over desserts that teacher aishah stopped having de chendol cz of the greenish stuffs which i thk reminded her of de lizards. hahaha!!! dinner realli made me full!!! totally! but de teh tarik realli damn nice!!!!!

i think im back to my hindi-craze now le! haha!! listening to my fave song in Kuch Kuch Hota Hai, Ladki Badhi Anjani Hai. dn knw hw to translate that but i knw it's de part which Rahul or Raja (de character of Shah Rukh Khan) finalli realises that he is in love with Anjali (de character played by Kajol)... muaahahaha!!!!

anyway, Nana looked so sweet at her solemnization ceremony that it makes me cry. I was happy for her..... Sallyn and Medah calmed me down cz the happiness made me thought of someone..... = damn, yah! i know! ... real idiotik

here's a look at Nana.... with de heels she's wearing, i became a little shorter than her... haha!!
can view de rest of de photos here.....

hung-over

went to Ministry Of Sound but gave up after almost 2hrs of queueing up. Went into another place, Gotham to chill a little. With the help of Fida dear.
i had little too much. not drinks but shots. i was curious, so i wanna try, in a way, i was letting go of something which i felt good about. but the after-that was little embarrasing. onli 3 glasses, one shot, a dance, i'm high! too high! ha ha!!! now i knw i cant drink 'em at one shots. bt vodka limes are nice. Happy night to me.....
got home, straight to de shower, a little throwing up done and finalli im out!

t'was an experience for me. now i've learned! ...err... can i get another one?

a little cam whoring while we're at it....

here we are, standing in de queue at MOS.














after hours.....














after hours....

gave up! into Gotham....


looking pretty by de bg....


....getting high

funny quizzes

there are sure funny quizzes out there... haha!!! here's one... now! why do i end up with ron weasley!?


You are most compatible with Ronald Weasley! He's
very sarcastic, full of life,
and has a phobia of spiders. You like the practical
type =O


Which Hogwarts Hawtie are you most compatible with? ((Girls Only))
brought to you by Quizilla

"im out of title".....

i was a good girl. yesterdae and todae. it happened once yesterdae. onli yesterdae. today no. haha! i was a good girl alreadi. and im trying to be better.

...missing you, i do still ....hating you, i'm beginning still

met up wif fida yesterdae. had dinner and she brought me to glutton's bay. haha!! it's a hawker centre by de bay. i mean, beside esplanade. cool! i like it there. it's a nice place to sit down for a chat or business meeting over a cup of teh-tarik!... haha!! it tasted jz like de one at genting. haiz~ miss it... sat down there, talked, listened to fida telling abt her trip to thailand. realli fun. wnt to go. de wind was cooling. yay!
today, came to waork half day. i was quiet but i was cool. OJ checked up on me again as usual. after work, met up wif Angel and her ex-colleague. We 3 were a bunch of ex-colleagues. haha!! it was realli nice. talking abt we should get for each other for xmas. i guess, im like de earliest to receive a xmas pressie. hehe!!

came back home, joined dad an watched Come September. the real Sandra Dee is realli pretty. She's beautiful.
Dad bought Empire Of The Sun! yay! i've been asking for it!!! Can't wait to watch it. Previewed abit and Christian Bale looked realli cute in there.

My craze for hindi movies is back again. Listening to the songs of Mohabbatein. Realli brings back de old times. haha!!!
Ling Fang! you remember we actualli went to watch that movie like 3 times!!!!! aaahh!!! Jugal Hansraj! and you, Jimmy Shergill! haha!!! But of course, de big bonus,.... Shah Rukh Khan!

Gone - Kelly Clarkson

im sorrie.... i was feeling weird... bt i knw i had fun too.... it's de start of a new friendship... i just need to get adjusted... i couldnt control meself... im sorrie... i have made up my mind.... i'll try my best...

... Hope I could sing this song out loud in de future....

What you see's not what you get, With you there's just no measurement, No way to tell what's real from what isn't there, Your eyes they sparkle, That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain, You washed away the best of me, You don't care

You know you did it, I'm gone, To find someone to live for, In this world, There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight, Just a bridge that I gotta burn, You're wrong, If you think you can walk right through my door, That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on, I'm already gone

Sometimes shattered, Never open, Nothing matters
When you're broken, That was me whenever I was with you, Always ending, Always over, Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster, I am breaking, That habit, Today

You know you did it, I'm gone, To find someone to live for, In this world, There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight, Just a bridge that I gotta burn, You're wrong, If you think you can walk right through my door, That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on, I'm already gone

There is nothing you can say, Sorry doesn't cut it, babe, Take the hint and walk away, 'Cause I'm gone, Doesn't matter what you do, It's what you did that's hurting you, All I needed was the truth, Now I'm gone

What you see's not what you get, What you see's not what you get

You know you did it, I'm gone, To find someone to live for, In this world, There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight, Just a bridge that I gotta burn, You're wrong, If you think you can walk right through my door, That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on, I'm already gone, I'm already gone, Oh, I'm already gone, gone, gone, gone, Already gone, I'm gone

"The Reason...", remember this song?

you say, you're not breaking up with me.... yet.

you say, i am your very... very good friend.

you say, slowly you want to... get out of my life.

you say, you're not... breaking up with me.... yet.

you say, you're... confuse.

you say, you... promise.

you say, you're... confuse.

But.....

you say, you're not... breaking up with me.... yet?

you said, im de one running away from the facts. i am now hurting and crying due to your so-called confusing mind and sudden thoughts. You did not stick to what you've promised before and now you are expecting me to do the same to what you are saying right now? I am one fucking bitch right now who feels like fucking hell kill you! But I hate myself cuz I've fallen in love with you. You came with unreasonable, or shall I say, no answer by saying you are confuse. Confuse or confused? You are kept saying them. Questions keeps on popping out of my head due to your sudden thoughts and your confusing mind. You don't want to answer them because you say you are confuse. I am waiting for that definite answer but you say, let nature takes it course. What do you mean by that when actually you are confuse? Can't you make up your mind? You said that I am running away from the facts because I asked you if we could carry on. You are still confuse, that's why you can't answer to that....

siput - snaiL

i had snails on de 5th december 2005 2042hrs .... more pictures will be update ltr on our dinner....

You are 60% Taurus

How much do you match your zodiac sign?

moViEs

i thought of getting Star Movies or HBO. Mom opened the bill today and there were some brochures inside. She asked me to take Star Movies or HBO since there's a free 3 months. So, I told he to get HBO and yeah!
Watched The Big Fish. Always wanted to watch it and when I finally got to watch it, I thought it was a happy ending movie but no!
I seem to have lost lots of tears lately. My eyes has never dry up....

i wnt another layout la

sHeLL

...... shouLd i?

.........am I thiNkIng rigHt?

............maybe i shouLd?

................i feel i can't .......eNd it?

My HaPPy eNdiNG

honestly, i am not feeling good. i've been feeling bad. i believe de time is near for the both of us. it could just be anytime. as I've said, whatever happen, happens. I would not say much. Saying that it's impossible. i've pictured de endngs. many times and i'd run down with tears. over and over again. when we talked today, my tears came down again. i couldnt stop it. it just keep falling out non-stop. i can't promise you that I will not breakdown but I promise you, you will be my friend forever. To this day, I am very happy. To this day, I am gLad that I've met you. To this, I will never forget. I'll cherish it. Every single secs, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years.

:) Happy 1 year Anniversary, dear....

before it's MN....

did I say that my pLasMa is back in business? yup! is it! it's back! i don't know why but it can be watch now and Im so happy!

Anyway, went over Sallyn's. Udah was there too to get some stuff. Helped sallyn with the cooking, well, hehe, not realli helped. Talked, talked, talked, ate, ate, ate, talked, talked, lazed, talked, ate, talked... haha!!! Nana came too. Shidah couldnt make it, Rozaimah was late, apprently me and Nana couldnt wait any longer cuz it was getting too late and she was still stuck in traffic jam at JB.
Went off for the 2nd consecutive time of the screening of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. It's just too exciting and there were exciting movie-goers too! the non-stop asking girlfren and the boyfren was willing to tell her wt was happening and what was gonna happen. The little kids/babies wh simply jz cried at some points. The guy who kept gg to the toilet cz he was just too weak to control his bladder, another who kept on looking at his watch by pressing the little light on on his watch to see the time and also, those who simpLy jz do not know how to follow de simple rules of tuning off their handphones. Incoming calls and incoming messages were simply known to everybody in the theatre. hank goodness, it was me and nana's 2nd time watching it, so, we were cool.

The little gathering may be short of people but it was realli nice. The food were nice. The chats were nice. It was like an old feeling of hanging around. I mean, the last time we did was like when we were in secondary schl & now we are like young adults. In a relationship, married, with kids and stuffs.
Rozaimah called while I was on the way home. Nice to hear from her though.

Im feeling kinda hungry right now but im restricting.

I want to sleep//

buT wiLL I?

aNyway, de Peppermint Mocha at Starbucks is so NICE! got de hot one since i ddnt ask whip cream, maybe I should ask for it de next time.

Gokusen

ara~ ara~ ara~ i cant stop crying at Gokusen! de drama is funny yet a tear-jerker. don't mind me for being emotional but dt is how i am.... hehe

realli dont knw wt to do

havent had 2 days mc for a veri long time. and im becoming too lazy alreadi. woke at 6am, did my usual exercises, went back sleep after that, woke up at 10am all thanks to de dumping of the contruction stuffs, went online, showered, went online again and spent de whole afternoon watching Gokusen. Then watched tv, fold de clothings, took a nap, and back to watching Gokusen. Now it's 11pm, i want to go into my room, touch my nail polish and then try to sleep.

aiyah. tomorrow working and seriously im gonna kill im tomorrow!

Hung uP!

hey baby, watcha doing? hehe

mom seems to be up earli today.

on MC 2dae, and yesterdae too. Went to work as normal when I felt something terrible. Went off for a quick visit to the clinic and came back wif a 2 days MC. Went off back home, dropped my bag, took the neccessay stuffs and off to the salon to rebond my hair. Yes! I finally did it.

The sun is shining is brightly today. I hope it'll be nice.

I came back home after the visit to salon, watched tv. Whose Line Is It Anyway was on and it was realli funny when the screen blackout. The sound was still there but the screen but come and gone and later it just goonnneee. Then wait for a little longer, it came back and then it was gggoooonnnneeee. I wanted to cry. Wehn dad called back I told him about it and since that, I was watching in de living room.

TSKTSKSTK

i am so sad.

Dad says see how it goes. If really cant be done, he'll present me with a 29".

TSKTSKTSK

But oh well! I still have the sound system.

Guess Im gonna go shower now.

Good Morning ppL!

"mai kan-cheong le!"

i have jz got home. from? well... nowhere. Why? You see, I have my last exam paper today. Science (Phy/Chem). I do not want to be late and so, I woke up early. I woke up earli morning at 7am. Took a quick shower, grabbed my skirt and t-shirt and wore my shoes and dashed off in a cab. I told the cabby, "Good morning, Northbrook Sec Sch, pls". Uncle looked at me and I said, "Ave 11 there." Uncle got delighted and drove off. I took out my timetable to check the school address and then, my eyes caught on the timing of today's paper. it was written '1400 hrs'.

BEST!

i imagine my whole face turns red and slowly my whole body starts freezing. I whined out to uncle that I got the timing of my paper wrong. Uncle start to laughed. He LAUGHED le. Well, in a situation like that, who don't find it funny. Smsed tj and expected, he said, "you very blur le". haha!! realli le. Then I told uncle to drop me at Northpoint but later changed of mind again, I decided to come back home. But as we drove pass McDonald's I was like, damn! But hell care. I came back home now. Drinking a hot cup of milo, blogging, listening to Madonna while the others are still asleep. I might go back to sleep anytime though. Or maybe not. hehe!!

& here I thought I could escape from the construction noisssseeesssss!

me watching The OC and suddenly dad wants to test his Daewoo surrond system and oh boy! Gotta stop halfway!

And are we still going out?

my day ur day

hmm... i was on a bus yesterdae. it went pass Jalan Kubor and than Jalan Pisang and than Jalan Kledek. Eh? isit Jalan Kledek 1st or Jalan Pisang. Either one la but I know Jalan Kubor went pass 1st. Scary thing is, de lane of Jalan Kubor looks as eerie as it's road name. Yes it is.

While I was on de way back from the supermarket, I received a call. Someone had just went through my friendster and asked if I'm still looking for a job and apparently yes. And so, that evening, although I was lazy, I still went for it. Took the bus to Golden Mile and it took me like 1.5hours? I reached the place like almost to 8pm. Like, URGH! That was the 1st time I've been to an interview at night. The interviewer actualli asked me if I'm not worried if it's a fake inerview or something, well, I told him if it is, then I would just have to kick his ass out. Muahaha!! Sounds like a tough gal I am. *winks*
Finished the interview, de interviewer showed me the bus-stop which I could take to Bugis. I fund a right bus though that realli brings me to Bugis. Yeah! but instead, i dropped at City Hall and took 857 at Capitol Building. Yey!
In the bus, I was tired and some bloody guy came up to me asking if I have a friendster account. Well, since it's just friendster, I gave him my username. Onli. I was not into the mood of talking at tha moment, plus, that guy is not my type. I can tell that he is younger than me and still playing around with his friends. Sorry sir but I love tj more than ever.
Isit right to say it out like that? OMG

TJ just called me asking if i'm free todae though. I've told him im gg for hari raya visit but, i'll be free after that la. Told him to give me a call later as I only could meet him up later. yay!

yeah! yey! yay! -> which one?

Madonna new songs rocks! im digging. yeay! muaahah!!! //cRaP ar Kak Rin <- someone always say that to me.

F4

haha!! i'm watching F4. I can't believe it! well, it's so exciting. I mean, the Japan drama vers is much more exciting than the Taiwan one. Well, de Taiwan one followed draggily from the manga, or de anime.
Anyway, whatever it is, it was fun. The girl is much more prettier than barbie hsu who played tsukushi. And Matsumoto Jun, he played Domyouji well. He did great, just exactly how de character would be, but hor! his face ar! doesnt fit de role ar! he best stick to Young Kindaichi. Why didnt they get Takizawa Hideaki, i thk he fit it either or Yamashita Tomohisa? eh! wait! Yamashita Tomohisa will fit Hanazawa's character but then, Oguri Shun, rather than seeing him playing all those stupid characters in other drama, I like this one best! I mean, he's realli looking suave. Okay, I like him in Snow... err, what's dt drama? He played a deaf boy. I have tha vcd though. I remember that show was realli damn sad!
As for the 2 extra fren, a chinese-japanese guy & an english educated guy, looking kiddos and sleek, well, they're okay for extras ar. Heh! there's gotta be a better Johnny's Jr. kid out there.
But this one, realli exciting ar. Watched up to 3rd episode now.
I'll be waiting for the rest.
I don't think they would not do this one to a whole lot many many episodes and cut them short la.

MTV Hits now realli are playing cool old school music video. My sista had jz called me up to my room, yelling for me and when I got it, N Sync's err, what's dt song? I forgot siak! it's their 1st xmas song ar. Dn knw ar wt.

I hope i get that job. I hope for de best for me in the future.

=sorry=

looks like there are lots to be done before you can go. 2 weeks coming up fast. stay still for awhile. aite! muackz

LOVE baby!

yes, i do like commercial songs. i love ashlee simpson's L.O.V.E. ....call me cheesy, lame, whatever.... i love this song....

I'm talkin' bout love
All my girls stand in a circle and clap your hands this is for you
Ups and downs highs and lows no matter what you see me through
My boyfriend he don't answer on the telephone
I don't even know where the hell he goes
But all my girls we're in a circle and nobody's gonna break through

L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Did you hear me say
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Im talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O

I'm talkin' bout love, say you'll be my girls for life
Girls for like
Oh hold off I need another one
I think you, you do too
Grab my bag, got my own money
Don't need any man in this room
My boyfriend he'll be calling me now anytime
I need all girls to keep him off my mind
So hold up we need another one
What we got is all good

L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,LO
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talking bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O

I'm talkin' bout love
I'm talkin' bout love
Love is an energy, love is a mystery
Love is meant to be true
Love is a part of me, love is the heart of me
Love is the best thing we do

L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O

life?

seriousli, why you can do this, i cannot do this? why why you can do that, i cannot do that? why you can call me and i cant call you? why when i call you, you don't answer? why when you call me, i have to answer? why when i sms you, you don't answer? why when you sms me, i have to reply?

i found a nice book but damn! i forgot that i've left my IC in my pencil case. I couldnt borrow the book. It was saddening. Gotta go back there again tomorrow and hope the book still there.

work was sian. i was concentrated on doing my work. but i was cold. no change at all. bloody fucking operation director came in making a whole lot of noises again! blaming de logistic on not having the ball rolling when actualli it's all the damn fault of the stupid programming manager! fucking shit to all you people.

you promised.... i hope u do

seriousli dn knw wt to put for title

got hold of tj's exilim on friday night. couldnt meet outside so i had to go back down work to meet him up. walked around to meet up my store guys. hasni was yelling at me from the carpark, "jalan raya, dalam banyak2 rumah, akder rumah lain kah nak pergi?".... hahaha!!! well, wt to do. i had to to get the digicam. tj showed me every single thing i need to do, need to keep, need to take care and oh boy! the weather was hot.

saturday was de day. the once-a-year family hari raya visitings. the one which we do every year, rent a bus and than start visiting houses of our grandaunts and granduncles and the final house will be either one of the hosts. like this year, it's Bik Sal's house. Wonder next yr whose?
It was a fun trip, although there were some missing people who couldnt make it, but it was still fun but it was really tiring and, i mean, a realli tiring one and also, the weather, oh boy! we were hoping that it'll get dark and realli windy and maybe rain a little, but it didnt. it was hot and sunny all the way. thank you to mr. cool fan, it was a big help....
there were unneccesary tensions and screaming going on at some points which was realli ridiculous. well, you know i know and unneccesary lame lousy jokes were given out. well, you know i know.

laugh people! idiots! *slaps forehead*

it was realli tiring that we were realli wanting for a long cold shower. i was even dragging myself on de way back that i headed to the shower without even cooling myself first or what. just being under that cold shower realli a damn nice feeling. and when I start putting shampoo on my hair and start scrubbing my head and stuff, and oh boy! it was realli nice.
And Saturday night movie was great. Frequency. I was realli tired and all but I stayed up to watch it. Next week, another nice movie, I Am Sam. Gotta watch that one.

Sunday was a lazy day. I woke up earli as I need to head to the toilet. Got up earli, went on to the pc to resize de pixs and upload them (click here to see them) and than, went off to watch CSI on AXN and than went on to continue watching tv and than helped mom a little and than went on pc and than helped mom and than watched tv, message my frenz to come over but i know they won't come, tj called and than yammie's frenz came over and i watched tv again and than a little nap ....oh boy! it's starting to rain! gg to work in a little while though.... anyway, had a little nap, woke up by cik su's smses, run off to yammie's room to watch tv, The Truth of Cats & Dogs were coming on. Bik As came over and later, nyai's Anak Saudara came. Haha!! It was funny. You know I know. Than finally, Yammie's, erm, close frenz came over. I mean, the 3 people la. Haha!! They're cute.
Watched Mujhse Dosti Karoge on Central. The last time I watched that movie was on Zee TV and there was no subtitles and can you imagine, how draggy it was. I could barely understand what they were saying. But when I watched yesterdae, it was exciting and I have never felt so excited from watching a hindi movie for damn long time. Okay, so I still love those kinds of hindi love stories but they gotta have their plot in different ways. I mean, the storyline still the same but they got to change the tensions and feelings and scenes or whatever in a different way. Yesterdae night, it was realli exciting.
Also, I felt a little embarrased. I was sitting in the living room, on the red chair, with my legs up on the cushion and one leg, folded up on my other knee and Wan just came out slowly walking... towards me, I thought he wanted to go toilet or something but he passed me my handphone. Bloody hell, I felt so embarassed and out of manner. I mean, the way I sit. Plus, I was wearing shorts. Sigh. Okay, I am feeling a little bit out of place for awhile but after that I thought, what the hell! Muaahahaha!!!! Im bad. Then I remembered that he's older. Show some respect, k Siti!

Gonna be 1100hrs, gotta get to work. I was too tired and there was this stupid headache I got. I smsed my senior storekeeper and went off back to sleep. Informing my storekeeper and tj too. tj gg for interview todae. Wish him good luck. Wonder if i'd get to see him later.

....... i'm thinking of getting MC though.

bLueK//

break off

in the end, star wars is just another love story that creates all the troubles for all troubles. Anyway, just finished watching Revenge Of The Sith and that was what I thought.

No exams today. Thank god. After going through the trauma of having sitted for History paper all alone in the school hall, was realli such an experience. Went for English in the morning. Came back for a shower and han buzz off back to school for Physics and than stayed behind for History which I was suppose to sit for with 3 other candidates. But apparently, they didnt showed up which means, after the private and school candidates left, I was the only one left in that school hall for another 2 and half hours, writing out and answering every damn questions. Well, not all exactly.

Went off to visit wak ri and wak kam after that at night. it was great. a family out, just de 4 of us. and the cats. oh yes, the cats. bujang la oh bujang. An egoistic he is.

wanted to sleep late but couldnt. in de end, went to sleep at 2am. haha!! cannot tahan ar!

dad did unexpected. I didnt knw what is it until he called me to yammie's room quietly. When I saw it, I thought, it was realli unexpected. Delivered the news to yammie later. I hope she's feeling okay.

get over it

found a nice song by avril lavigne, Get Over It. it is nice. unfortunately, i like the song.

so what if it's avril lavigne? i like ashlee simpson's Boyfriend too.

had de 1st Science paper 2dae. Surprisingly, i didn't know that it is only 1hr 15mins. haha... i was earli and this time, i took the bus.

after de paper, went off to meet up maryann, that chicky girl she is. talked and planned and stuffs. walked around, got meself a deodarant. badly need one. the problem comes again. applied a part-time job at an ice-cream parlour. oh boy. nicey.

went back in the bus, fell asleep, missed the stop. had to go down to the interchange and took de feeder bus back. sigh, money wasted. realli ar!

dad called, he thought i was out when actualli, he was in the living room and i was in my room, just woke up from sleep and as expected, 6pm, tj called. he was on de way home. i was feeling bored from his words for the past few days so i was expecting de same todae and apparently, he only gave out half of it. i feel so bad after that but i was realli sick of it.

but then again, am i being paranoid?

"Maybe"

2dae is gonna go by veri fast and im gonna just put on that big smile on my face. gotta get more glue to paste that big smile on me. it was paper 1 of maths just now. oh boy! i think im getting good at angles now and seems like im getting bad at algebra. upside down siak! used to be the opposite you know.

look at my english, it's so bad. it's not even properly used. i mean, written. aiyoh! siti sarinah! buck up please! u're having English paper on Wednesday le! yar! aLong with History and Science. Why ar? Science 3 different days?

okay, somehow im getting sick of it. sick, sick, sick, sick. said nothing but de same thing which kinda realli pisses me off. if it's a parent of mine, i would have taken some pills and not wake up anymore, or best, forever.

okay, and so tj said get into Engineering. He said, or get into BA, Business Administration or Logistics. Apparently, they may be good for my future, well, I... err, consider ;)

came back home like 11am and got a call from poor sebastian. all alone. haha!!! Jennife on MC, Johnny on MC and even big Dato' Desmond also MC. Like damn. There was nobody doing data entries and not much manpower around since there're still crates from KNT coming in. Well, I had no choice but to cancel my full day leave today to a half day leave. Did my studies there too but not much as there were so much things to do, like so suddenly.

"heaven"

oKay. Back when I was in secondary school, I wanted to get into Mass-Communication. Okay, looking at the market now, Engineering might be the best course to get in to.

Which one should I go into? The one that I've been dreaming to get in to or the want which has the easiest job opportunity?

Should this blog even be titles Heaven? or Burning Up?

Does it even make sense?

I don't think so. L-A-M-E. I knwo.

Look! I don't even know hot to spell "know"/.

And I have Elementary Mathematics Paper 1 in 8 hours time.

does it feel like it's a Sunday?

went off to work yesterdae for half day. cleared off my leftover filings before i start my leaves. did like 80% of my exam preprations. haha!! came back home feeling rather tired yesterdae. wanted to take a nap but mom and grandma are having them. So, I had to stay up in case if there any guests coming.
Watched tv, read a book, listening to me mp3, watched Maid In Mahattan, ate breakfast-cum-lunch, feeling frustrated over him and than guest came. Served drinks and bla bla, watched a lil bit of Basilisk and finalli, it was 6pm, i took a nap. I just couldnt help it. I just gotta sleep. I slept and slept and slept. Grandma tried to wake me up like twice. She wanted me to get up and eat dinner and shower but I just ignored and continued sleeping.
Slept, slept, slept and slept. Woke up at 6.32am and it was raining. I went back to sleep. Slept, slept, slept and it's 9am. I slept, slept, slept and it's 11am. Finally, I got up. Grandma was happy that I finally woke up.
Took a long shower. Heat up the foods and took my breakfast. A heavy one. Rice with sambal goreng, rendang daging and lauk lemak. WOAH!
Watched Blood ep 3, no subs, sickening. browsed thru and than watched ep 4, veri nice, ends fast. And now, updating my blog. Gotta change the layout. It's killing my eyes....

Listening to Harry Potter's theme song. haha!! Yammie downloaded them.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

seriously, it's de most tiring and happening hari raya of the year. and not surprisingly, on de 1st day, all of us are wearing old baju kurungs. haha!! of course, no need waste money, de old ones still new thins. err, aper aku berbual.
mom even found a vegetable she bought yesterdae to fry noodles. mom kept lying down and up and so on. me and yammie were serving, with de help of our cousins. hehe!!
especially de time when our house was full-house. totalli fulled til there was no single place to sit in de living room. we were just looking at our guests coming in non-stop.
but, hey, hari raya sey. watcha expect.
we even have kueh-chang on hari raya. for the 1st time. err, i think not. err, i don't know.

took a shower just now. can't stand de heat. realli hot man. my hair, i mean, my head.... feels so good when i stood under the shower.

anyway, found something from tyra banks show. for those girls who had to go through a break-up.... http://tyrashow.warnerbros.com

Eight Stages of Healing After a Breakup

What should you expect after the big break? Marni Kamins and Janice MacLeod, authors of “The Breakup Repair Kit,” say if you're grieving over your loss, get ready for the Eight Stages of Healing. These stages are normal parts of the healing process so the healthiest thing for you to do is let them run their course rather than using your energy to try to fight them off. Or, if you want, you can ignore all your feelings, push them away, keep dating the same type of loser over and over - your choice!

These are stages not steps and you may not experience each stage in order.

1. Stage 1 – SHOCK: “What the…? Are we really not together anymore? Am I sure? Maybe it was all a dream. Maybe he’s really left for a season and I will go into the bathroom and see him showering.” Your mind is deciding to deny your pain because it is too painful to process the truth. Chill and avoid drastic behavior like massive shopping sprees, tattoos and nasty haircuts.

2. Stage 2 – DENIAL: “I seriously think we were meant to be together. Deep down I know we’re just on a break.” Sure. Keep telling yourself this. Torture yourself because it feels good, like playing with a loose tooth or overusing tweezers. Just don't call him and pretend you never broke up.

3. Stage 3 – NUMBNESS: “I am so surprised at how easy he was to get over. I’m not even crying. In fact, nothing in my life seems to matter anymore. I’m not hungry or passionate about anything. Go figure.” Your mind is protecting you from overwhelming thoughts. Napping is good during this stage.

4. Stage 4 - FEAR: “What if I never date again? Will I end my days alone in a dusty old house knitting booties for the children I never had?” Talk about your fears with a friend who can snap you out of your extreme thoughts.

5. Stage 5 - ANGER: “Wait a minute. We never did any of those things we said we were going to do. It was all talk. What a schmuck. It was all his fault. I can’t believe I was stupid enough to love such a low-life hairy ball of earwax.” Let out anger in healthy ways with juicy revenge fantasies.

6. Stage 6 - DEPRESSION: “I have no one to go to brunch with anymore. And if I did, I’d rather stay in my bed and eat Chunky Monkey.” If the despair is unbearable or leads to suicidal thoughts, don’t wait to get professional help. Get it now.

7. Stage 7 - UNDERSTANDING: “I learned so much from him and I’m really glad I’m not dating him anymore. I guess we weren’t meant to be together.” Ahh, we are seeing the light.

8. Stage 8 – ACCEPTANCE: “He was not perfect but neither was I. We were meant to be together for the time we were together.” Now bring on the other fish in the sea. I’m fabulous!” You go girlfriend.